Thoughtless prayers
Sleepless nights
Empty souls
Worthless fights
Days to weeks
Weeks to years
Too weak to try
Too strong for tears
Love with all
Lose with all
Oct 14, 2014
Oct 14, 2014 at 1:18 AM UTC
It's been so long,
Since we've been near,
That I cannot even remember
What your laugh sounds like.
I miss you.
May 11, 2014
May 11, 2014 at 12:29 PM UTC
I asked if you'd cry at my funeral.
You giggled and said yes.
And that you'd make sure I was buried,
With a brand new bottle of Jack.
How fun it is to toy with the ignorance of the innocent.
Feb 21, 2014
Feb 21, 2014 at 11:31 PM UTC
It seeped from your pores that day.
I've never seen anyone grow up so suddenly;
From t-shirt to tie,
and blue Gatorade to black coffee
A transformation from boy to man,
then man to stone.
You stood solid as a statue,
and stolid as a soldier;
as those days melded together.
They say being on the mind of another keeps you awake;
you must have not slept.
Yes you looked even stronger;
felt even stronger;
the exhale of your lungs sounder stronger,
the day that they closed
your father's casket.
Feb 9, 2014
Feb 9, 2014 at 10:53 PM UTC
Please, I need you back;
I need to pack and travel between both houses and back.
Mother I miss you, I miss being with you.
Mother I'm sorry I'm just another stupid kid,
don't know what I did,
forgive me please?
Then we can finally be at ease;
old memories,
flood back to my mind;
A simpler time when things were fine
These past four months have been straight up hell.
Disregard, didn't mean to whine.
You make me sick but I need you still,
racing uphill.
Another day, another pill.
Do you not see?
what you've done to the she
that used to be you daughter?
That innocent princess,
she's been slaughtered.
She's gone,
absent of you,
and with every new dawn,
rises a monster.
Feb 9, 2014
Feb 9, 2014 at 10:33 PM UTC
I lay with you after,
amused,
by the thought of my brothers finding out.
You made me
promise,
not to tell anyone.
Hush now boy and don't
worry,
this secret's too satirical to spoil.
I love that you know that they'd
****
you for being more than a friend to me.
That you were their,
friend,
before my secret.
Jan 21, 2014
Jan 21, 2014 at 4:49 PM UTC
She walks in the door,
The chimes matching her steps-
Walks lightly to the counter
Where her fingers dance their reps.
She orders in a broken voice,
Raspy and rugged as hell,
Her cheeks are red with cold,
Her stoney eyes have tales to tell.
She sits at the corner table,
Wide eyes analyze the world;
She's listening in on other's words,
A quite peculiar girl.
She's only tables away,
Drinking her coffee void of cream,
Black as the paint that polished her nails;
Like a stranger from a dream.
She makes me lose my concentration;
I've stopped trying to look at my screen.
Everything she does intrigues me,
This severely different teen.
My desires fill my consciousness,
All I want is to say "hi",
But how she intimidates me so,
It would come out as but a cry.
Suddenly she rises to her feet,
Then slinks over to the door,
She stops and says she saw my stare,
And then she's gone forevermore.
Dec 8, 2013
Dec 8, 2013 at 9:29 PM UTC
What are you doing?
How could you do that?
What were you thinking?
Dead eyes, blind gaze, blinking.
So. Many. Questions.
Lies upon lies as replies.
An endless web being spun in my head.
But everyone lies right?
You all think I'm crazy.
Get out of my life,
You're all nothing.
Lie!
Lie and say you're trying,
trying to help.
I know you'd rather die.
You're losing an uphill battle.
You'll never break me.
I'll never give in.
I can't be cured;
Because nothing is wrong with me.
You're the mental ones.
At least my lies are justified.
I'm content.
You. Are. Not.
I'll keep my conscience as my company, thanks.
For who would I phone?
Everyone is incapable of understanding.
No sir, I prefer to be alone.
Stop trying to relate before you start.
My heart is too cold and it's just useless.
You're useless.
Everything is useless.
Go, try and take me on the guilt trip.
I've been down that road before.
It's more boring than the person in the drivers seat;
Who's telling me of the greatest battles, fun facts, and feats.
Face hits the concrete.
Sorry, I think I fell asleep.
Your troubles do not concern me.
Why should I care about you?
I'm not you.
I wont sympathize, empathize, step behind your eyes;
To see your lies, your struggles
They're YOURS!
Not mine.
Stop crying, you're fine.
A few drops of blood wont **** ya.
Dec 6, 2013
Dec 6, 2013 at 3:00 PM UTC