so many memories
crammed into this head
so many memories
that i've come to dread
so many things
that were once so grand
so many stories
i'll tell without your hand
so many dreams
that are lost in all the clutter
so many hopes
that i wouldn't dare mutter
so many wishes
that have yet to come true
so many wishes
that made up me and you
so many thoughts
that i've yet to think
so many poisons
i should like to drink
but i've got so many memories
locked away inside
so many memories
that stayed though you have died
Feb 27, 2011
Feb 27, 2011 at 2:33 AM UTC
I cut it out slow,
Just to feel the pain.
I stab out my eyes,
So they no longer may rain.
I break down my wall,
So there's nothing to hide.
I plaster on a smile,
They don't see what's inside.
I make myself cheery,
When the world grows sad.
I make myself calm,
Even though I'm so mad.
I look to the sun,
Yet hide in this night.
I make myself brave,
Though I'm filled with fright.
I cut myself fast,
Just to know that I feel.
I **** myself slow,
To know that it's real.
Feb 18, 2011
Feb 18, 2011 at 11:51 PM UTC
I cut it out slow,
Just to feel the pain.
I stab out my eyes,
So they no longer may rain.
I break down my wall,
So there's nothing to hide.
I plaster on a smile,
They don't see what's inside.
I make myself cheery,
When the world grows sad.
I make myself calm,
Even though I'm so mad.
I look to the sun,
Yet hide in this night.
I make myself brave,
Though I'm filled with fright.
I cut myself fast,
Just to know that I feel.
I **** myself slow,
To know that it's real.
Feb 18, 2011
Feb 18, 2011 at 11:51 PM UTC
Half alive but mostly dead.
Half smiling but filled with dread.
Half awake yet still asleep.
Half a heart that you can not keep.
Half of the pain tries to hide.
Half your hope is held inside.
Half a person and half a slave.
Half dead but already in a grave.
'Cause you're only half alive....
Dec 30, 2010
Dec 30, 2010 at 6:29 PM UTC
I know what they see,
What they think they know.
I know what they hear,
Silence like snow.
I know how they are,
All covered with guck.
I know who they know,
The souls that they ****
I know,
How I know.
That they take all the hearts,
Make them their show.
But they hide this part,
The hate that they do.
They hide it behind the mask,
That says "I love you."
So you see,
Their not a real lover.
For everything that they really are,
Has a cover.
Dec 20, 2010
Dec 20, 2010 at 10:22 AM UTC
Stare straight ahead,
Don't look beside you,
Or you'll be filled with dread.
He's not really there,
NO
NO
NO
It's just a whisper in your hair.
Just stare right at the wall,
Because you already know
You've lost it all.
He was nothing to you,
NOTHING
NOTHING
NOTHING
But a love that wasn't true.
So don't look like you never knew,
For you always could tell,
That he was just passing through.
Dec 4, 2010
Dec 4, 2010 at 10:54 AM UTC
I warned you, but you didn't listen.
I warned you, but you don't hear.
I told you, she's a heartbreak.
But it just went through you ear.
So now I am here, just abandoned.
Here I am, so alone.
I promised you, I'd never call.
Yet here I am staring at the phone.
The tears were many, a thousand more.
The heartbreak hurtful, and god so strong.
With all this pain, deep down inside.
I always thought, we'd go on for so long.
So she's pretty now, but beauty is fleeting.
Figure is youth, but a heart is undying.
So when you grown, with children many.
Always remember the girl, you left crying.
Nov 27, 2010
Nov 27, 2010 at 7:46 AM UTC
We met at a party,
Still can't remember where.
You were kind, sweet, gentle,
With confetti in your hair.
We danced and talked,
Then sat awhile.
Your tone was caring,
And boy that smile.
Then the room went dark,
All out with the light.
I was so scared,
Of darkness and night.
But you held me close,
Told me I wouldn't die.
And while deep in that darkness,
I saw sparks fly.
Nov 27, 2010
Nov 27, 2010 at 7:38 AM UTC
I'm sick of our fighting,
But I don't want to leave.
I love our friendship,
And the stories we weave.
I'm tired of the lies,
I just want the truth.
I want all the memories,
From inside the photo booth.
You love me,
Or so you say.
I love you,
Each and every day.
I love you
I love you
I love you
And I swear it's true
Sing our song,
And I'll come running
But your just too sly,
And evilly cunning.
So you don't move,
In the way I'm headed.
But all your lies,
Are in my head in-bedded.
You take all the right turns,
Yet you're all out of wack.
Because you take two steps forward,
And ten steps back.
Nov 24, 2010
Nov 24, 2010 at 2:04 PM UTC
We danced till the dawn.
Feet never touching floor.
Heart never laughing more.
We slept through the day.
Silently, so silently we slept.
But through my dreams I wept.
I woke to the sound of silence.
No heartbeat.
No bang of your feet.
I found you again though.
Made more promise I knew you wouldn't keep.
And I still wept in my sleep.
We danced till the dawn.
By the edge of the sea.
Singing ever so quietly out of key.
You are my life, my love.
I don't think that you see.
But its okay if you don't love me
Nov 18, 2010
Nov 18, 2010 at 10:55 AM UTC