I feel like starting a fight
I feel insecure
I need you to answer the question burned into my retina and the wrinkly tissue of my mind
It is scribbled all over in whispers and in shouts
But there is only one answer I can believe
And that answer would
B
R
E
A
K
M
E
Shatter me
Beyond repair
No amount of kintsugi could fix me
Oct 18, 2025
Oct 18, 2025 at 5:34 AM UTC
Do you love me as much as I love you?
Have I put you on a pedestal too high for me to reach?
I don't know who to pity more
Me or you
We have chained or lives together
By law and by blood
My home is you
But I feel like an unwanted house guest
Is it me who has changed?
Am I no longer worthy?
I miss the fire in your eyes
The warmth that would radiate to me
And I feel like I am going ******* crazy
Have I fulfilled my purpose
To be a mother and a wife
Should I be disposed of now?
I am suffocating on my own anxiety
Oct 18, 2025
Oct 18, 2025 at 5:19 AM UTC
I dont like being a mother,
but I love being yours
In this little world,
population two or three
is a heavenly place to be
But I don't like what motherhood has done to me
How it has weakened my body
High-jacked my time
How I now belong in a different crowd
Where we are all the same but different
And I've never been lonelier
without ever being alone
What a strange thing it is to create a life
******* your own life force dry
I will always love you even if I loose my mind
Oct 16, 2025
Oct 16, 2025 at 3:53 AM UTC
There was a time where I was desperate
Desperate to prove that I could be desired
That it was an option for me
I found someone to prove my thesis
And got blinded thinking it was all about the boy
Thinking that he was my savior
I got clingy
I didn't want to loose this anomaly
Because surely that was all it was,
an anomaly
So I clung to him not realizing
That feeling I wanted was a part of me
Not him
Me letting myself be seen instead of skulking in the shadows
Me grabbing my own power
He was nothing but the first
And oh, how he pales compared to the last
Jul 31, 2025
Jul 31, 2025 at 12:42 AM UTC
There is something about becoming a mother that makes you examine the crimes of your own
I do not feel safe with you
My intact body does not equal an intact mind
When I look at you I don't see my mother
You stopped being all that that encompasses a long time ago
Calling me out for being shy when in fact I was just lonely
Believing I was not worthy of the space I took up
Believing my strength was only in being good, performing well and tending to others
Forgetting that I too had a voice
The ability to speak not just listen
You didn't protect my peace
You didn't protect my sanity
And you didn't not teach my how to do it on my own
Maybe you thought my tear streaked face was just my face
You put me in a position where I shared your roll as a mother
Caretaker of the entire house
And in that teaching me that I was only valuable in what I could give
But not valuable enough to receive
I am glad I have a son
He will not have to hide his body in sweaters too warm for the season
He will not be subject to your view of what it means to be a woman
He might actually be as confident and self-loving as your own son
There is only so much oxygen in a room
And I wish you had raised me to believe I could have some
But your biggest crime of all is making me believe that it was laughable that I could be loved
Jul 31, 2025
Jul 31, 2025 at 12:11 AM UTC
My love chains me
I resent you
for tying me so tightly
I am not enough
I am not enough
I have vowed my life to you
and I will fight forever to be worthy
i just hope I don't end up hating you
Jun 20, 2022
Jun 20, 2022 at 7:46 AM UTC
You told me I am your sun
but I am the moon
I only shine because of you
May 28, 2022
May 28, 2022 at 7:16 AM UTC
I need to see your love
And I don't know how to ask for it
because I don't know if it is there
Sei la ragione di ogni mio sorriso
I love you to the very core of my being
Can you say the same?
May 28, 2022
May 28, 2022 at 7:13 AM UTC
I don't know where those people went.
Somehow they are missing
and there are others
living in their skin
Someone else is controlling her breath
feeling her sweat as she is building,
building walls
higher than ever seen
She is right there,
but still
She is missing
Jan 27, 2022
Jan 27, 2022 at 3:35 AM UTC
I stand before you
Completely bare
You've never been like this
You've never been this naked
Even though I've seen you without clothes
You've never been this bare
Dec 15, 2021
Dec 15, 2021 at 4:36 PM UTC