Do you ever wish to put so much energy into something worthwhile only to be shot down before you can prove yourself?
A chance at love,
to prove your worth,
to show them how much you care,
how much time and energy you are willing to contribute,
All the cards on the table to move forward,
simply rejected since there is already love,
too bad it is for someone else,
Now, all this energy has nowhere to go,
fighting for a place in the world but no one to receive it,
fighting to come out and show someone special you will put your all into something real,
This energy turns into sadness and anger,
why isn't it enough,
what did it do to earn this rejection,
I want you in my life but I can't watch you love another,
I am not strong enough,
this energy is no longer pushing me forward to show you my pure intentions,
but pulling me back toward the abyss of loneliness and frustration.
My only flaw is not being her.
Dec 5, 2017
Dec 5, 2017 at 1:00 AM UTC
I hope she loves your smile,
I hope she loves your eyes,
I hope she loves your style,
I hope she loves them like I wish I could.
I hope she enjoys
random adventures,
learning new things,
laying in bed all day,
I hope she values
your intelligence,
your caring heart,
your drive for passion,
I hope she loves you like I wish I could.
I hope she understands
your time is precious,
love is beautiful,
you deserve something genuine,
I hope she
is everything you're looking for,
listens to understand,
is there for you through thick and thin,
I hope she is all that I wish I could be for you.
I hope you are beyond happy.
I hope you feel wanted.
I hope you feel loved.
You deserve love, even if it can't be from me.
I wish I could love you like she should.
Dec 5, 2017
Dec 5, 2017 at 12:49 AM UTC
Ready,
For the next step,
For the next move,
For the next thing,
Ready
For a new home,
For a new city,
For a new job,
Ready,
For a new love,
For a new life,
For a new chance,
Ready,
For my soul mate,
For our marriage,
For our baby,
Ready,
But I can't rush it,
I can't force it
I can't make it happen
Ready,
I have to be patient,
even if that is difficult,
even if that is not what I want
I am ready,
Now I just wait...
May 15, 2017
May 15, 2017 at 1:45 AM UTC
As I look back,
I see...
my innocence.
I see how nieve I was.
I thought I knew heartbreak.
I thought I knew love.
It wasn't until I found love,
my first real love.
Now I know.
Pain.
Loneliness.
Depression.
Anxiety.
Now I know.
It is because of him
that I now know the power of love.
Love is the most amazing thing of all.
The pain comes from losing it and/or trying to find it.
Find love in everything you do.
For if you do,
you are truly living.
May 8, 2017
May 8, 2017 at 1:48 AM UTC
Timing,
it is everything.
The time I met you,
nothing seemed right,
except us.
But we could not be.
You are happy with her.
That is respectable,
but we wanted each other.
We just couldn't.
Now I can't get you out of my head.
You said if timing was better,
we could be together.
But timing isn't better.
Our timing *****
but does it?
Everything happens for a reason.
Is our story just beginning,
or was it over before it started?
Now as I sit and think of you,
I resist the urge to pursue you,
Because you deserve better.
She makes you happy.
I just want to be happy.
Timing,
it is everything,
but you can make it your own,
but should I?
May 8, 2017
May 8, 2017 at 1:11 AM UTC
You ask and I respond,
"I'm alright,"
the answer is second nature,
the truth is hidden,
deep within,
slowly dying,
the need to love,
to heal,
to forgive,
but time is not on my side,
so as I sulk in my lasting pain,
I will smile, laugh, pretend,
and when you ask,
I will say "I'm alright."
Sep 17, 2015
Sep 17, 2015 at 1:58 AM UTC
I lost it all,
then I fought to get it back,
I fought to fill the void,
fought to find love again,
fought to save my heart,
fought to feel safe, secure, happy,
fought to take the easy route,
I crashed so hard,
head first into the ground,
I fought until it burned,
it burns so bad,
I can't fight this way anymore,
can't be tough like this anymore,
I have to change my fight,
have to fight through the pain,
fight through being alone,
fighting is all I can do,
at least now I know the proper fight.
Sep 17, 2015
Sep 17, 2015 at 1:39 AM UTC
Slowly,
Surely,
Filling my thoughts and dreams,
I was so sure when we met,
So sure when we kissed,
So sure until this,
She told you to make your choice,
But will it be the one I want,
Will it be the one that will make us last,
Or will it be the one to rip us apart,
For us to continue,
Something has to give,
With it creeping in,
Will you choose us,
Or lose us,
I can not wait around,
Waiting until,
You decide to really change,
Because part of me,
Being eaten away by it,
Thinks people don't change,
You think,
I will push us apart,
In reality it's you,
I just don't know what to do,
I am simply being drowned by the DOUBT
Jul 11, 2014
Jul 11, 2014 at 9:31 PM UTC
How can she say you have to pick between her and I?
What if you choose her?
She is your mother after all,
I am just a girl,
A girl you claim is your true love,
But she is your flesh and blood,
What if you can't choose me?
I don't know what I would do without you,
You are my heart and soul,
I know I will never find another,
Another that means as much as you do to me,
But you can't choose me,
You have no out,
You are trapped within your mothers grasp,
I am starting to see our demise,
And it kills me,
Slowly ripping my heart to shreds,
Losing you might really **** me,
I don't know what to do anymore,
What if is all I can think about...
I am terrified
Jul 8, 2014
Jul 8, 2014 at 10:18 PM UTC
Once Upon A Time,
there was a beautiful young girl,
whose heart of gold had been mistreated,
lied to, forgotten, and cheated on,
she wasted time on so many,
they all wore false crowns,
pretending to be a handsome prince,
none of which truly valued her,
it was while with the worst of them,
she found a man with a truly gold crown,
this handsome prince was not only hers truly,
he saved her from the worst false prince of all,
he was her true love,
the one that she had longed for forever,
the other half of her soul,
her real knight in shining armor,
he was her Prince Charming,
the stories were real,
they really did exist,
her prince never mistreated her,
never lied, forgot, or cheated on her,
he treated her like she never had been,
but the most wonderful thing he did for her,
he showed her who she really was,
he showed her that she was a princess,
she was truly meant to be with him,
and they lived wonderfully,
together,
the Charming Prince and his beautiful Princess
Jul 4, 2014
Jul 4, 2014 at 7:13 PM UTC