I wonder,
When my wellspring of tears
Flows freely on your shores
Would you dip your toes in the icy water,
Or only bask in the warm sand?
Dec 6, 2023
Dec 6, 2023 at 6:47 AM UTC
Long time, no see
Little monster I set free
Terror rampant on the earth,
And I set loose a banshee
The lock is stuck,
And I've lost the key
I became something
That I should never be
Not at least,
What thought was me
But a freak, a beast
On a homicidal spree
Sprawling through the mud,
Crawling on my knees
I ask for any redemption
I beg for any relief
Save me from myself, I cry
Hang me from the trees
Anything, oh anything
To finally feel at peace
Nov 10, 2023
Nov 10, 2023 at 4:49 AM UTC
Birds sing and fly
With a freedom not for I
As my heart's stinging lullaby
Sounds like a despairing cry
For I can see the sunshine
Brightening the sky
And yet I am confined, again,
In the darkness of my mind.
Mar 6, 2023
Mar 6, 2023 at 6:11 PM UTC
Hello again,
Little one
It's been five whole years now,
Can you believe?
How time passes with the falling of each leaf,
How I always got to love you
But we never got to meet?
I get sad sometimes,
Thinking of your little feet
The way you might have cried so much
That I would never sleep
But it's that time of year again, little one
And once again, I weep
Because you are the greatest love
I never got to keep.
Mar 4, 2023
Mar 4, 2023 at 3:52 AM UTC
how does it feel to be this cold?
so much now
that not even
the raging flame
of your self hatred
can keep you warm anymore
Oct 29, 2022
Oct 29, 2022 at 3:44 PM UTC
Once again, it comes again,
Chase away the hunger with cigarettes
And don't give in
I watch the numbers bob up and down,
A water park of emotion
And I feel that I will drown
Watering myself like a plant,
I need only sunshine and water and that's it,
And I wish I could stop but I can't
Every day the numbers get smaller
I start to feel so little
But the demon in me grows taller
My mom loves having 'skinny kids,'
Never mind my health
I just have to see my ribs
I think I'm cursed
It got into my head,
It's never been worse
I won't eat until I'm dead.
Oct 29, 2022
Oct 29, 2022 at 2:19 PM UTC
no
oh god, no
leave me be
dreams of you are ruining my sleep
run away,
far, far, away
in those terrible white heels i see
plaguing me
you wore a baby blue and white boho dress
and it wounds me
as it sits in my closet
because I haven't touched it since
it was yours, in my mind.
always yours
from the moment the fabric graced your hips
and that smile spread on your lips
and you turned into someone new
there was something about the ensemble,
later that night
inhibition melted away and I saw the real you for a moment,
or a few
strange that you are so many complex people
wrapped into one shallow being
that you would be scared to show me again who you were once truly
as if the entire world watched through my eyes
but I can promise, friend no longer,
it was only myself, and my whole self,
who watched you
in hatred and admiration
Jun 9, 2022
Jun 9, 2022 at 1:36 PM UTC
so happy lately
maybe it's you baby
write me a song about hazy days
we sing and we dance on the daily
aren't we crazy
reaching so far for the stars
we get spacey
you're singing to me in the car
how did we get so close to home
by running so far but never alone
speeding and crashing together in the snow like
your arms are where i was destined to go
and my soul is the only one that you wanna know
we're spinning and feeling
unreeling and healing
if i was a liar i'd claim that you were stealing
my heart but i can only scream at the top of my lungs
that oh, Sunshine
my Love, my Light
i am giving it to you
eagerly,
entirely,
every day
and every night
Mar 22, 2022
Mar 22, 2022 at 7:45 PM UTC
He liked one of the songs I played
So much
That he saved it
He plays it
Doing the dishes
He sways against me and sings in my ear
Softly, sweetly
Like a person discovering love
He sings songs he knows,
And songs of his own
Twisting his fingers with mine
Dancing,
Intertwined
Smooth and warm
On the palm of my hand
He is a constant concert,
I dance and hum in tune
The rhythm of his words
From the morning
To the afternoon
Feb 18, 2022
Feb 18, 2022 at 4:50 PM UTC
i'm on my knees now,
please stop existing
some way, somehow,
stop existing to me
Jan 19, 2022
Jan 19, 2022 at 12:36 AM UTC