He came out of nowhere, I never even saw it coming.
The smile he wore seemed so genuine
No matter how much i resisted
how much i distanced myself
I found myself being pulled in.
every word he spoke
Every text he sent
Every call we had
Everything seemed perfect.
It was as if an angel had fallen from the sky and right into my lap
I was weary of this gorgeous stranger
My heart had been shattered too many times
I’ve been left to pick up the pieces all on my own
Only to let, yet another shatter my fragile heart.
I kept my wall up and my guards on high alert
With every word, he chipped at the wall I had built so high
With every smile, my guard was lowered bit by bit
Until finally, I let my guard down
I tore down what was remaining of my wall.
All so that he could love my broken shards back to one.
I let myself get attached to him
I let him hold the shards of my fragile heart in his hands
I let him know my pain, my laughter and my love.
The moment he knew I had fallen for him, a gorgeous stanger.
He ran, leaving my fragile heart to shatter once again.
Leaving the wall I had built so carefully tarnished in the rubble.
Just as quickly and mysterious as he had arrived, was just how quick and mysterious he had left.
May 17, 2018
May 17, 2018 at 1:55 AM UTC
There you were, looking at me with those piercing, icy blue eyes
It felt as though the moment when our eyes connected
our souls became intertwined
There was an instant connection between us.
you flashed a smile and i felt a spark in my heart
Each word that left your mouth was ember
Your laugh and voice was kindling
You added more and more ember just as you added more kindling
And soon a flame began burning in my heart
It began small
just a simple flame
the size of a rose bud
But as time passed
You fed the fire
And the passion and desire grew
It got bigger
It grew and burned
Until it was a fire burning deep
A fire full of passion and desire
Melting away the walls i had built to protect myself
I didn’t need protection from walls anymore
I have my own prince charming protecting me.
May 17, 2018
May 17, 2018 at 1:54 AM UTC
He made me feel everything
He made me fall into a trance
He made me want to stay up every second of every day as to not lose a single second of time with him
He made me smile and blush in the morning as soon as I checked my phone
He sent me paragraphs everyday without fail
He made me fall in love with his every move
He made me fall in love with his every word
He made me fall in love with his every breath
I fell in love with the way he made me giggle
I fell in love with the way my name rolled off his tongue
I fell in love with every single smile he flashed my way
Every time my phone buzzed, my heart leapt
Every time i saw his name on my screen my heart skipped a beat
Every time we talked, i fell deeper in love with him.
All so suddenly and without warning I had let him in
I had let him see things that I had hidden away from the world.
I had let myself feel things, things that I swore off from ever feeling again
Feelings that i thought would never make an appearance inside of me, ever again.
I had let myself fall in the deepest trance known to man.
The trance of love.
May 17, 2018
May 17, 2018 at 1:50 AM UTC
My mom is the strongest woman I know
She walks with the confidence of a thousand warriors.
She fights my battles even when im too weak to keep fighting.
My mom is the bravest woman I know
She fights and no matter what she never gives up
She protects us and she keeps us safe no matter what she has to face.
My mom is the sweetest woman I know
She teaches us to be kind in the smallest of her actions
She comforts us even when she needs comfort
My mom is the most selfless woman I know
She put our needs in front of hers no matter the circumstances.
She wipes our tears even when her cheeks are stained with tears.
My mom is the most forgiving woman I know
She knows when to forgive and when not to.
She forgives us even when we don’t deserve her forgiveness.
My mom is the most accepting woman I know
She accepts that life wont always be fair and she takes it in her strive.
She accepts who I am no matter how different or difficult I turn out to be.
My mom is the most loving woman I know
She heals us with her love and keeps our hearts whole.
She has the biggest heart of any woman I know.
My mom is the most beautiful woman I know
She is not only the most gorgeous woman I have ever laid eyes upon
she has the most beautiful soul any human has ever beared.
My mom is my hero.
May 17, 2018
May 17, 2018 at 1:48 AM UTC
Sometimes I just want to cry but I can't find the tears for it.
They’re somewhere hidden deep inside me.
I have a million and two reasons as to why I could cry
Why I should cry
But I find that I have zero tears willing to get spent for those reasons.
Not one tear finds any of the million and two reasons enough to slip out into my moonlit bedroom and down my cheek.
Until one day all the tears decide at once they want to pay me a little visit.
One tear comes trailing down my cheek
Making a path for the next
Until all tears have made separate paths down my face
Making their own destiny
each come raining down for a reason of their own
After all, they have a million and 2 reasons to pick from.
Sometimes I don't want to cry
The tears can’t help showing themselves at times like these
Times when they’re not wanted
Drowning in a pool caused by a million and two reasons.
Jan 9, 2018
Jan 9, 2018 at 3:51 AM UTC
As I close my eyes
I see your love
A far away island
Just a simple memory
The exotic flowers
The intoxicating smells
The kisses the sun gives me every morning
The warmth and the light it shines into my life
The cool ocean surrounding me, my past, present and future
The gifts the ocean washes in every day surprise me
The protection of the trees
The sweet honey of the bees
The soft sand padding any falls
The rough grains softening any rough edges I may have
The love, protection, warmth
The island providing me with everything I may need
Your Love is Like an Island.
Keeping me afloat when I was as lost as can be.
Dec 21, 2017
Dec 21, 2017 at 8:01 AM UTC
There was once a boat filled with people
It hit an iceberg and sunk
Many people died but there were two survivors
Each a stranger to the other
But neither a stranger to the pain
They found each other after the trauma
Each trembling and filled with pain
Both had gone through something different
But both had gone through something painful
They held onto each other for dear life
They swapped war scars and stories
They were so different
Yet they were so alike.
They weathered storms together
They clung to each other
They needed each other
They were no longer strangers
They became lovers, perfect lovers in the sea
They enjoyed the peaceful waves and the sunny days together
They were each others hope
Promising to never go astray
Until one night they both fell asleep
For they had gotten tired
They let go
They drifted apart
When they woke they were scared
For they had lost their love
They had lost their hope
They began to swim in look for their lover
Hours passed
Hours turned into days
Days turned into weeks
They began to lose hope.
Each believing the other had stopped searching the ocean
But never stopping to rest
For this was the Earth's test
They did not rest until they were together again.
The ocean filled with the love of two people
No longer strangers but lovers
Together again for their love is stronger than any force on earth.
Even an iceberg.
Dec 16, 2017
Dec 16, 2017 at 5:03 AM UTC
Love isn't black and white.
It's all the colors of the rainbow.
Love isn't coloring inside the lines.
Its overlapping and adding your own touch.
Love isn't the house on the corner with the white picket fence.
Love is the house in the middle of the street with overgrown grass.
Love isn't a perfect trimmed bush.
Love is a colorful autumn tree shedding its leaves.
Love isn't male and female.
Love is transgender, genderfluid and cisgender.
Love is difficult.
Love is tragically beautiful.
Dec 14, 2017
Dec 14, 2017 at 5:15 AM UTC
You made me feel like an apple
An apple in a sea of apples
Yet I was picked
You made me believe I was a special apple
You kept me till I ripened
But every once in awhile I got dropped on the same spot
Again and again
Over and over
I was dropped
Deepening the bruise
One day I was ripe and my outside was perfect
But as soon as you cut me open you saw the bruise
Suddenly your perfect apple wasn’t so perfect anymore
You decided I was damaged and couldn’t be saved
When all that was needed was careful cutting
Precision with a blade
To rid me of the bruise.
I’m still the same apple
The same apple that appeared perfect
But was bruised on the inside
I’ve been bruised this whole time inside
But you didn't know
The only difference is that you know
You threw me away
Abandoned
Left to the mercy of a trash can
Unwanted
And Unloved
You make me feel like damaged goods.
A bruised apple.
Dec 14, 2017
Dec 14, 2017 at 5:04 AM UTC
Everything you had to say
Every. little. thing.
You used them as weapons
As knives
Every thought that came into your head was a knife in your hand
Like throwing knives you had sharpened them and aimed
Every sentence that came out of your mouth
Every word that entered the open air
Every single word sliced through the air like a throwing knife
The moment a word left your mouth, a knife was thrown
I always saw it coming
Every. single. Time.
The windup right before it’s thrown
Right before its said
Time standing almost still
As it slowly pierces through me.
The impact of the knife wedging into my heart
The impact of the words burning into my brain
Blood and tears
Knives and words
While I was at my most vulnerable
You saw me as a perfect target.
Perfect for throwing knives.
Dec 14, 2017
Dec 14, 2017 at 5:01 AM UTC