ihavenoconcernhere - Hello Poetry

Time aways I remember you tangled in the crook of my neck Your half lidded eyes such a gentle boy Accursed it may seem Agonized inside these walls You were desperate for my touch as I am for yours now Cruelty bespeaks me how many dead lay in your path how many lay in mine Exhausted I would feel Your hand lazily cupped over my breast Squeezed and pumped through Even now my skin burns this lust only awakes for you How pathetic that must be Wanting so desperately I would tear my teeth out just for another taste Instead I lay numb in my bed Trying hard to forget Trying hard not to care Trying hard not to want Failure creeps in on me You pound through my head In the most unexpected places I catch your glimpse I wonder if I could turn back time My salty tears dripping on your chest Your arms reluctantly holding me How could I forget? I tainted what good came my way Come to me again Forgive me I begged for you not to let me go I turn to ash and crumble My skin has already been picked at I forgot how to breathe The overwhelm has beaten me to a pulp Do I breathe heavy my limbs feel limp against my sides Wave crash over my chest My words fail me

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Sep 25, 2024

Sep 25, 2024 at 2:21 PM UTC

Locked

Time aways I remember you tangled in the crook of my neck Your half lidded eyes such a gentle boy Accursed it may seem Agonized inside these walls You were desperate for my touch as I am for yours now Cruelty bespeaks me how many dead lay in your path how many lay in mine Exhausted I would feel Your hand lazily cupped over my breast Squeezed and pumped through Even now my skin burns this lust only awakes for you How pathetic that must be Wanting so desperately I would tear my teeth out just for another taste Instead I lay numb in my bed Trying hard to forget Trying hard not to care Trying hard not to want Failure creeps in on me You pound through my head In the most unexpected places I catch your glimpse I wonder if I could turn back time My salty tears dripping on your chest Your arms reluctantly holding me How could I forget? I tainted what good came my way Come to me again Forgive me I begged for you not to let me go I turn to ash and crumble My skin has already been picked at I forgot how to breathe The overwhelm has beaten me to a pulp Do I breathe heavy my limbs feel limp against my sides Wave crash over my chest My words fail me

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Existence is so fragile Just one thread pull unweaves The entire universe away Drowning in this intoxicating matter When I breathe I start to get dizzy A rush of blood pumping inside This makes it real This is what makes sense This is a fantasy alive What reality is merely based upon

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Mar 6, 2021

Mar 6, 2021 at 8:24 PM UTC

Ponder

Existence is so fragile Just one thread pull unweaves The entire universe away Drowning in this intoxicating matter When I breathe I start to get dizzy A rush of blood pumping inside This makes it real This is what makes sense This is a fantasy alive What reality is merely based upon

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Delicacy in its purest form Might have cried a tear tonight Torn a chipper down foreworn Tickled pink in fright She wants to **** To die in black Not so simple anymore She’s aches and whack Can she feel the naught? Cultural worthlessness She is an endearment They’ll **** her if she’s anything more Baby

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Feb 21, 2021

Feb 21, 2021 at 11:18 PM UTC

Baby

Delicacy in its purest form Might have cried a tear tonight Torn a chipper down foreworn Tickled pink in fright She wants to **** To die in black Not so simple anymore She’s aches and whack Can she feel the naught? Cultural worthlessness She is an endearment They’ll **** her if she’s anything more Baby

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I won’t forget the way your eyes look down upon me The condescension in your voice The laughs I won’t forget the dismissal of my pain My grief As the horrors of my inadequacy confine me Hurt me terribly so But maybe you like my pain My fright I want to prove you wrong That my life is as worthy as yours But my throat closes around me It lists me in Turns me inside out Exposes my innards and true dark horrors That of which I’m nothing Nothing Nothing worth more Your very existence continues to triumph mine While my own breath wastes away I want you to hurt As badly as I do But I cannot hurt you You’re too much for me to handle You eat me away at every core I hate you I hate you Why am I not enough Why was I cursed in this feeble body My self pity does me no good While yours gives you an army Don’t look at me I know how little you think of me I want to cut my throat and bash my arms Bleed all over you Give you all of my struggles Be free of my deference

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Nov 19, 2020

Nov 19, 2020 at 4:06 AM UTC

Deference

I won’t forget the way your eyes look down upon me The condescension in your voice The laughs I won’t forget the dismissal of my pain My grief As the horrors of my inadequacy confine me Hurt me terribly so But maybe you like my pain My fright I want to prove you wrong That my life is as worthy as yours But my throat closes around me It lists me in Turns me inside out Exposes my innards and true dark horrors That of which I’m nothing Nothing Nothing worth more Your very existence continues to triumph mine While my own breath wastes away I want you to hurt As badly as I do But I cannot hurt you You’re too much for me to handle You eat me away at every core I hate you I hate you Why am I not enough Why was I cursed in this feeble body My self pity does me no good While yours gives you an army Don’t look at me I know how little you think of me I want to cut my throat and bash my arms Bleed all over you Give you all of my struggles Be free of my deference

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A light so soft and tender Noir has been expelled Gravel but somehow gentle Even the stars aren’t this bright Lavishly delight

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Nov 9, 2020

Nov 9, 2020 at 10:45 PM UTC

Angel

A light so soft and tender Noir has been expelled Gravel but somehow gentle Even the stars aren’t this bright Lavishly delight

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You want me It’s true yes you do I’m a pawn Another use But you want more More of me Me, me, me Double or nothing I’m a status symbol Something to smile about I make you feel powerful Not for me no but what I mean You tamed me you see Marked me when you were inside That’s all that matters You need as much of me as you can get You’ll even hurt me to get your way You need to feel this way I wish I could admire whatever strength you claim to have By doing what? You think sticking me with a needle means that you’re a god That scars and bruises are just less dignified ribbons And the more you do it with more duplications that must mean you’re the best, right? Pathetic and selfish and so laughable and insecure I’m begging myself to pity you But all I find is pain and shame and rage What is so wrong about me that I am nothing more than a mystery to gawk over? Do you understand what it’s like to be treated like an empty vessel? No I don’t expect your sympathies You’ve killed that part of you since you were a child

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Oct 25, 2020

Oct 25, 2020 at 11:42 PM UTC

I’m a Pawn

You want me It’s true yes you do I’m a pawn Another use But you want more More of me Me, me, me Double or nothing I’m a status symbol Something to smile about I make you feel powerful Not for me no but what I mean You tamed me you see Marked me when you were inside That’s all that matters You need as much of me as you can get You’ll even hurt me to get your way You need to feel this way I wish I could admire whatever strength you claim to have By doing what? You think sticking me with a needle means that you’re a god That scars and bruises are just less dignified ribbons And the more you do it with more duplications that must mean you’re the best, right? Pathetic and selfish and so laughable and insecure I’m begging myself to pity you But all I find is pain and shame and rage What is so wrong about me that I am nothing more than a mystery to gawk over? Do you understand what it’s like to be treated like an empty vessel? No I don’t expect your sympathies You’ve killed that part of you since you were a child

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Applauds on resilience Persistence and stubbornness Born to make, to create Sees all in which nothing should exist Imagine being that Potential is stored inside me Waiting but yet begging to be let out I starve myself my laziness What’s of all the effort if all I get is strife? Laugh at me all you want Is what you love worth the pain of caring? Knowing others will always be above you I’m so tired I shot myself short before I could even begin

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Oct 24, 2020

Oct 24, 2020 at 12:01 AM UTC

Resilience

Applauds on resilience Persistence and stubbornness Born to make, to create Sees all in which nothing should exist Imagine being that Potential is stored inside me Waiting but yet begging to be let out I starve myself my laziness What’s of all the effort if all I get is strife? Laugh at me all you want Is what you love worth the pain of caring? Knowing others will always be above you I’m so tired I shot myself short before I could even begin

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I have been buzzing around meaningless Day after day, week after week It’s still here Fog in the form of sand trapped in my brain Static is too dull a word to describe it **** this I have nothing else to sort through The exhaustion is worthless even though I still have it And I’ve been screaming for so long But because I am paralyzed Because I gripped my own throat for too long Only dust comes out when my mouth unhinges I’m still impatiently waiting for happiness to come and clean me up Spark spark spark I clench my fingers into my side It feels like dirt in between my nails I’ve been blown out like a candle And like ash I float away

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Oct 15, 2020

Oct 15, 2020 at 9:37 PM UTC

Spark, Spark, Spark

I have been buzzing around meaningless Day after day, week after week It’s still here Fog in the form of sand trapped in my brain Static is too dull a word to describe it **** this I have nothing else to sort through The exhaustion is worthless even though I still have it And I’ve been screaming for so long But because I am paralyzed Because I gripped my own throat for too long Only dust comes out when my mouth unhinges I’m still impatiently waiting for happiness to come and clean me up Spark spark spark I clench my fingers into my side It feels like dirt in between my nails I’ve been blown out like a candle And like ash I float away

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The hesitation that you felt on your lips You dream to live a lie Constant control

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Oct 4, 2020

Oct 4, 2020 at 9:29 PM UTC

Quiver