hopes-of-a-recovery - Hello Poetry

You promised you would stay, but you left. You are still here, yes, but not the way I want. You don't care anymore and it hurts hearing you say it. I will get over myself. I was never yours. I promised you things I never had to even keep. Things that supposedly made you feel better. My heart is now decaying from the inside out. But it hurts to say it is because of you. I can't help but ruin myself because I fell for your lies. I don't trust anyone anymore. Nothing good happens to me when I do. They just let me down. Feed me lies. Pretend to love me when they would rather not be around me. And the thing is... You were the worst of them all. Sometimes I wish that you would have never kissed me. Never even met me, but when I think about it... I wouldn't be the way I am today. I wouldn't have felt the false happiness I needed to feel. You still broke me though. You played me, lied to me, and finally killed me inside by saying you only loved the *** Now I'm just a cry for help. You never said it, but you seemed to imply it very strongly. How could I have ever loved you? You had once said we were soul mates, but now I'm just a girl you choose to vent to... Who for some ******* stupid reason still loves you. Goodbye

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Nov 26, 2013

Nov 26, 2013 at 1:08 PM UTC

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You promised you would stay, but you left. You are still here, yes, but not the way I want. You don't care anymore and it hurts hearing you say it. I will get over myself. I was never yours. I promised you things I never had to even keep. Things that supposedly made you feel better. My heart is now decaying from the inside out. But it hurts to say it is because of you. I can't help but ruin myself because I fell for your lies. I don't trust anyone anymore. Nothing good happens to me when I do. They just let me down. Feed me lies. Pretend to love me when they would rather not be around me. And the thing is... You were the worst of them all. Sometimes I wish that you would have never kissed me. Never even met me, but when I think about it... I wouldn't be the way I am today. I wouldn't have felt the false happiness I needed to feel. You still broke me though. You played me, lied to me, and finally killed me inside by saying you only loved the *** Now I'm just a cry for help. You never said it, but you seemed to imply it very strongly. How could I have ever loved you? You had once said we were soul mates, but now I'm just a girl you choose to vent to... Who for some ******* stupid reason still loves you. Goodbye

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Everyone has a star. But some people can't find theirs. You just need to wait and let it come to you. Your star will find you and make you shine brighter than ever.

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Nov 6, 2013

Nov 6, 2013 at 10:29 AM UTC

Stars

Everyone has a star. But some people can't find theirs. You just need to wait and let it come to you. Your star will find you and make you shine brighter than ever.

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People crashing down alone Left behind in heartless stone My heart is filled with silence………….. My wounded heart is screaming loud When I hear all lonely people shout My heart is filled with silence……. In the busy shopping streets The lonely people’s heart scream loud their needs My mind is filled with silence…….. In the rainy empty streets I walked alone While my heart is beating like a falling stone My mind is filled with silence…….. From the bedrooms I hear the empty screams of loneliness The screaming starves away in emptiness My soul is filled with silence…….. The screaming of loneliness pinches through my mind The screams are dying like a holy bless and starving blind My soul is filled with silence……. Their screams are crushing down my brains Like a heavy crown tied with chains It throws me down in silence…. I walked the deepest valley in lonely pain My heart is breaking in a bleeding stream My world is filled with silence….. My heart breaks in releasing human screaming sounds And the warm blood of my heart touches gently the cold street ground Forming letters one by one, touched by love in sacred silence…. Wild the blood streams out of my heart in slowly ending beats Tender and carefully it touches the ground of the empty streets Writing my name in a perfect silence……… By Unknown

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Nov 2, 2013

Nov 2, 2013 at 12:43 AM UTC

Untiled

People crashing down alone Left behind in heartless stone My heart is filled with silence………….. My wounded heart is screaming loud When I hear all lonely people shout My heart is filled with silence……. In the busy shopping streets The lonely people’s heart scream loud their needs My mind is filled with silence…….. In the rainy empty streets I walked alone While my heart is beating like a falling stone My mind is filled with silence…….. From the bedrooms I hear the empty screams of loneliness The screaming starves away in emptiness My soul is filled with silence…….. The screaming of loneliness pinches through my mind The screams are dying like a holy bless and starving blind My soul is filled with silence……. Their screams are crushing down my brains Like a heavy crown tied with chains It throws me down in silence…. I walked the deepest valley in lonely pain My heart is breaking in a bleeding stream My world is filled with silence….. My heart breaks in releasing human screaming sounds And the warm blood of my heart touches gently the cold street ground Forming letters one by one, touched by love in sacred silence…. Wild the blood streams out of my heart in slowly ending beats Tender and carefully it touches the ground of the empty streets Writing my name in a perfect silence……… By Unknown

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I'm Not... I'm not who everyone thought I was to be. I'm not the girl everyone laughs with and smiles. I'm not the child my parents thought they raised well. I'm not the girl that would seem to be lively and happy to be here. I'm not the person who dreams every night and wakes up smiling to the sun. I'm not the smart girl who doesn't have to struggle to make good grades in school. I'm not the girl who believes in herself or has thoughts of a good future at making it in life. I'm The Opposite...

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Oct 2, 2013

Oct 2, 2013 at 1:30 PM UTC

I'm not...

I'm Not... I'm not who everyone thought I was to be. I'm not the girl everyone laughs with and smiles. I'm not the child my parents thought they raised well. I'm not the girl that would seem to be lively and happy to be here. I'm not the person who dreams every night and wakes up smiling to the sun. I'm not the smart girl who doesn't have to struggle to make good grades in school. I'm not the girl who believes in herself or has thoughts of a good future at making it in life. I'm The Opposite...

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I dont want to be alone Forever they said, I'll love you forever. Now im here with no one along my side I don't want to be alone The darkness is my foe, and loneliness is my fear Silence speaks the truth, and everything inside me writhes I dont want to be alone Can you check my pulse for me and see if im alive? -Bailey

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Sep 25, 2013

Sep 25, 2013 at 6:00 PM UTC

Alone

I dont want to be alone Forever they said, I'll love you forever. Now im here with no one along my side I don't want to be alone The darkness is my foe, and loneliness is my fear Silence speaks the truth, and everything inside me writhes I dont want to be alone Can you check my pulse for me and see if im alive? -Bailey

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I'm scared. Scared of what might happen if I leave. Scared is what I'll be. I can't stand being away from her. The only one who knows me best. The only one who makes me feel like... Like the most powerful person in the world. Her... Is who I want to runaway with. She in whom doesn't want to hide. She in whom... I'd rather spend my day with. She who I want to spend every second of my day with. She who asked me to live with when we're able to. She who promised me we wouldn't hide anymore. Scared is what I am. Scared is what I'll be if I move away from her. Scared of what she might do. Terrified of what will happen. I will not lose her. Not ever. But forever doesn't always last. I wish and pray that it will. I'm scared.

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Sep 25, 2013

Sep 25, 2013 at 12:28 PM UTC

Scared

I'm scared. Scared of what might happen if I leave. Scared is what I'll be. I can't stand being away from her. The only one who knows me best. The only one who makes me feel like... Like the most powerful person in the world. Her... Is who I want to runaway with. She in whom doesn't want to hide. She in whom... I'd rather spend my day with. She who I want to spend every second of my day with. She who asked me to live with when we're able to. She who promised me we wouldn't hide anymore. Scared is what I am. Scared is what I'll be if I move away from her. Scared of what she might do. Terrified of what will happen. I will not lose her. Not ever. But forever doesn't always last. I wish and pray that it will. I'm scared.

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My heart... Oh my aching heart. It just sits in the palm of her hand, barely beating. I thought she loved me... With all the things we've been through, I could have sworn she loved me. I close my eyes and let the tears flow. "I thought you loved me..." I whisper/sob, gasping for air. Why did you have to make my biggest fear come alive? "Poor baby. It's called a lie!" She laughs wickedly and begins to squeeze my heart. I cry out in pain, trying to scoot away from all of this. "Stop..." I plead, scratching at my chest as her fingers clamp harder around my dying heart, my breath shallow. "Why? I never cared. If anything you bored me to death. All you wanted was attention." She says slyly, a smirk on the beautiful face I once loved. I still love... "Why did you have to lie to me? Play me?" I cough up blood, sobbing harder. "Because I' m not the person you thought I was, Shalimar. I want more. You were never enough. Worthless to me. You never helped me through all the **** I was going through like you thought you did. You never made me truly smile. You were always a useless B-" That's when I wake up, my heart beating fast and sweat covering me. I look beside me and see her sleeping calmly, a beautiful smile on her lips that I know so well. I sigh and lay closer, snugging into the familiar arms I finally have back. She snorts and nuzzles into my neck, molding into me like we used to. I close my eyes and smile weakly, falling into a lovely dream.

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Sep 25, 2013

Sep 25, 2013 at 12:26 PM UTC

My Nightmares

My heart... Oh my aching heart. It just sits in the palm of her hand, barely beating. I thought she loved me... With all the things we've been through, I could have sworn she loved me. I close my eyes and let the tears flow. "I thought you loved me..." I whisper/sob, gasping for air. Why did you have to make my biggest fear come alive? "Poor baby. It's called a lie!" She laughs wickedly and begins to squeeze my heart. I cry out in pain, trying to scoot away from all of this. "Stop..." I plead, scratching at my chest as her fingers clamp harder around my dying heart, my breath shallow. "Why? I never cared. If anything you bored me to death. All you wanted was attention." She says slyly, a smirk on the beautiful face I once loved. I still love... "Why did you have to lie to me? Play me?" I cough up blood, sobbing harder. "Because I' m not the person you thought I was, Shalimar. I want more. You were never enough. Worthless to me. You never helped me through all the **** I was going through like you thought you did. You never made me truly smile. You were always a useless B-" That's when I wake up, my heart beating fast and sweat covering me. I look beside me and see her sleeping calmly, a beautiful smile on her lips that I know so well. I sigh and lay closer, snugging into the familiar arms I finally have back. She snorts and nuzzles into my neck, molding into me like we used to. I close my eyes and smile weakly, falling into a lovely dream.

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Homesick Homesick is what I am. I miss my family like crazy. Despite the way I am, they still love me. It's very hard to believe though. I haven't felt right in a while. I wanted help. NEEDED it actually. I'm getting it now, but I miss my friends and family. One problem I have... What will they think of me when I get back? Will the still be with me? I hope that they will accept me... ALL I want is to be ACCEPTED.

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Sep 25, 2013

Sep 25, 2013 at 12:24 PM UTC

Homesick

Homesick Homesick is what I am. I miss my family like crazy. Despite the way I am, they still love me. It's very hard to believe though. I haven't felt right in a while. I wanted help. NEEDED it actually. I'm getting it now, but I miss my friends and family. One problem I have... What will they think of me when I get back? Will the still be with me? I hope that they will accept me... ALL I want is to be ACCEPTED.

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Fope Fope is a word I created with fear and hope. It kind of makes me laugh. I have fope. My fear is having no acceptance and not being able to see the one I can't help but to love ever again. My hope is dying each more everyday because my fears are in the way. I need to get rid of a lot of fear. My fear is what is destroying every last bit of hope I have. Fear and hope are like fire and ice; angels and demons. I watch the world go by while I'm stuck in my own confinement of fear. This fear that is destroying me needs to destroy itself and leave me alone. I know fear can be a good, but not this kind. This kind is what gives me nightmares and the thoughts that make me hurt myself. I want hope. I want it now. Hope that it will be okay in the end. I want my fear distinguished.

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Sep 25, 2013

Sep 25, 2013 at 12:23 PM UTC

Fope

Fope Fope is a word I created with fear and hope. It kind of makes me laugh. I have fope. My fear is having no acceptance and not being able to see the one I can't help but to love ever again. My hope is dying each more everyday because my fears are in the way. I need to get rid of a lot of fear. My fear is what is destroying every last bit of hope I have. Fear and hope are like fire and ice; angels and demons. I watch the world go by while I'm stuck in my own confinement of fear. This fear that is destroying me needs to destroy itself and leave me alone. I know fear can be a good, but not this kind. This kind is what gives me nightmares and the thoughts that make me hurt myself. I want hope. I want it now. Hope that it will be okay in the end. I want my fear distinguished.

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The Way You Teach Me To Love Is like walking down a beach. Easier than it seems. Like a leaf floating down a stream. It can never be defined, Until you open up your heart And let someone inside. When you let someone inside Don't push them outside You'll never know how your future might turn out. The way you teach me to love Is how you hold me in your arms and care. When you run your fingers through my hair while smiling down at me Full of love and sincere I know when you love me When you kiss my nose instead of my lips. The way you teach me to love. When we walk down the street People stare, but we don't care. The way you taught me to love Has kept me alive all these years, But I'm afraid my time is up my dear. I will miss you forever when I'm gone. It breaks my heart that I'm doing this Hurting you while I **** myself. But I say it's my time to say good-bye now. Miss me forever and after, my dear. Hold me in your arms as I die, kiss me one last time Watch me as I take the life from my soul. I'm sorry, my love... Just remember the way you taught me to love...

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Sep 25, 2013

Sep 25, 2013 at 11:44 AM UTC

The Way You Teach Me To Love

The Way You Teach Me To Love Is like walking down a beach. Easier than it seems. Like a leaf floating down a stream. It can never be defined, Until you open up your heart And let someone inside. When you let someone inside Don't push them outside You'll never know how your future might turn out. The way you teach me to love Is how you hold me in your arms and care. When you run your fingers through my hair while smiling down at me Full of love and sincere I know when you love me When you kiss my nose instead of my lips. The way you teach me to love. When we walk down the street People stare, but we don't care. The way you taught me to love Has kept me alive all these years, But I'm afraid my time is up my dear. I will miss you forever when I'm gone. It breaks my heart that I'm doing this Hurting you while I **** myself. But I say it's my time to say good-bye now. Miss me forever and after, my dear. Hold me in your arms as I die, kiss me one last time Watch me as I take the life from my soul. I'm sorry, my love... Just remember the way you taught me to love...

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