the sky is fogged as is my head
hazy and blurred I cannot see what's ahead
what lies in the future and what's here in the present
tonight the moon won't be full, it will be nearly as empty as I; crescent
I've begun to think that maybe the fog is you
so long as you're in my head I will be dazed and confused it's true
I'm not sure what I'm saying I'm not sure what I'm doing
it's you it's you it's you it's you
Jan 21, 2015
Jan 21, 2015 at 1:41 AM UTC
I wish that youd look at me the way you look at her and not the way that I look at myself.
Jan 21, 2015
Jan 21, 2015 at 1:34 AM UTC
you,
are the only one
who can make me cry
at 3:38 in the morning
but still make me want
to kiss you.
you,
are the only one
who i let
build me up
when i know that you'll be
the one to tear me apart.
May 10, 2014
May 10, 2014 at 11:52 PM UTC
less then five minutes ago you told me that you couldn't speak to anyone without being judge, but i changed that. that i am your best friend.
but we are friends
that's what i said
that's what i want
is friends
but i want more then friends
i want best friends
with you
oh why does life do this
tell you that you want one thing
and you really want the other
but now i need to choose,
which is it that i need?
Apr 16, 2014
Apr 16, 2014 at 11:33 PM UTC
what the **** are we?
you tell me we're best friends
that i can tell you anything
and you can tell me.
not once have you told me you loved me
not once have you hugged me.
we don't see each other any where except school
is it cause you have no one else to walk with?
to talk with?
well i'm sorry
cause i can't sit here and tell you my deepest secrets
when you can't tell me your friends name.
i'm not going to sit here and call you my best friend
when you can feel us drifting
and i can feel us drifting.
so friends is what we are
and friends is what we'll be.
Apr 16, 2014
Apr 16, 2014 at 11:25 PM UTC
one pill
two pills
three pills
four.
how many more
before i hit the floor?
five pills
six pills
seven pills
eight.
i think that i
can already see the gates.
nine pills
ten pills
eleven pills
twelve.
this war is ending now,
the one with myself.
thirteen pills
fourteen pills
fifteen pills
sixteen.
sorry mom
i'm a ****** up queen.
seventeen pills
eighteen pills
nineteen pills
twenty.
wait,
how many?
twenty one pills
twenty two pills
twenty three pills
twenty four
and now i am asleep
upon the floor.
Apr 16, 2014
Apr 16, 2014 at 10:09 PM UTC
"you've gotten bigger."
you say to me
as we eat at the same tree
that we have eaten at since grade 7.
"your hair looks horrible"
you say to me
as we get ready to go
to his party.
"your acne is coming back"
you say to me
as we get ready for prom
and our dates.
and one day
i skip lunch
and you ask why
and i shrug.
and one day
i curl my hair for the first time
and you as why
and i shrug.
and one day
i wear lots of make up
and you ask why
and i shrug.
but that night
i slit my wrist
and swallowed pills
instead of dressing up.
why you might ask?
because i'm horrendous
inapplicable
disgusting.
don't you remember
the days you reminded me?
well here you go.
Apr 16, 2014
Apr 16, 2014 at 9:42 PM UTC
it's all lies, darling.
***it'll be okay,
we're here for you,
i love you.***
it's all lies.
everything they've taught you,
everything you know,
it's a lie.
a hologram.
a projection.
Apr 16, 2014
Apr 16, 2014 at 4:47 AM UTC
my life is no longer life
but a hologram.
nothing is real anymore,
every thing is transparent.
Apr 16, 2014
Apr 16, 2014 at 4:43 AM UTC
pretty is what he told you
that is, until he seen her.
pretty is what your friends called you
until you realized,
you were meant to talk to the moon,
kiss the skies,
bring down the stars,
and walk on water,
and not to be pretty
Apr 16, 2014
Apr 16, 2014 at 4:07 AM UTC