hidden-colour - Hello Poetry

Rejection, it is painful! I lauch myself at the idea of hope, I throw myself into the notion of happiness, I jump head first into something that could be, Each and every time all I recieve is REJECTION The steady reminder that I am not wanted, The sharp feeling of not being choosen, The constant pain of being unworthy, Unworthy of being loved, of being the person that is picked Being someone that is seen as being desirable, wanting to jump head first with me into something that could be, But rejection, the reminder that what could be is indeed nothing more than a mere fleeting feeling.

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Jul 19, 2021

Jul 19, 2021 at 3:16 PM UTC

Rejection

Rejection, it is painful! I lauch myself at the idea of hope, I throw myself into the notion of happiness, I jump head first into something that could be, Each and every time all I recieve is REJECTION The steady reminder that I am not wanted, The sharp feeling of not being choosen, The constant pain of being unworthy, Unworthy of being loved, of being the person that is picked Being someone that is seen as being desirable, wanting to jump head first with me into something that could be, But rejection, the reminder that what could be is indeed nothing more than a mere fleeting feeling.

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Happy Birthday Dear Friend, What a year it truely has been, Time moves differently when you are no where to be seen. Things no longer feel the way it used to feel, I guess the 365 days have allowed me to heal. I see your movements, your growth, your persistance, Just know that I am proud of you, and because of that there must be some distance. I feel no animosity, no anger, no pain, As you enter into another year, I hope for many more gains. It feels like you have gone, It feels like you have withdrawn. It feels like you have healed, It feels like I have healed, I pray for long life and prosperity, I pray for peace, joy and love, I pray for growth and happiness. I pray for you at the dusk of dawn, Always and Forever Dear Friend

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May 10, 2021

May 10, 2021 at 12:59 PM UTC

Happy Birthday Dear Friend,

Happy Birthday Dear Friend, What a year it truely has been, Time moves differently when you are no where to be seen. Things no longer feel the way it used to feel, I guess the 365 days have allowed me to heal. I see your movements, your growth, your persistance, Just know that I am proud of you, and because of that there must be some distance. I feel no animosity, no anger, no pain, As you enter into another year, I hope for many more gains. It feels like you have gone, It feels like you have withdrawn. It feels like you have healed, It feels like I have healed, I pray for long life and prosperity, I pray for peace, joy and love, I pray for growth and happiness. I pray for you at the dusk of dawn, Always and Forever Dear Friend

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Why can’t I find love? I see it all around me, people falling in love, I just want to be loved and show love back Why is it so difficult? Is there something wrong with me?, Am I doomed to never find love?

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Apr 27, 2021

Apr 27, 2021 at 12:35 PM UTC

Love

Why can’t I find love? I see it all around me, people falling in love, I just want to be loved and show love back Why is it so difficult? Is there something wrong with me?, Am I doomed to never find love?

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You enter my threshold, We conversate, A moment of connection, a moment of the yesterday days, The moment passes as you pull your gaze away from mine. We **** Not make love, not having *** Simply **** ! All I wanted was intimacy, To be held and loved, All I got was detachment Aloof and distance Disappointment clinging to the straps of my bra as I pull them on Shame stained on my knicker as they slide back up Heavy is my heart Desperate is my soul Deflated is my spirit You leave, and take a part of me once more

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Mar 23, 2021

Mar 23, 2021 at 5:15 PM UTC

**** Me !

You enter my threshold, We conversate, A moment of connection, a moment of the yesterday days, The moment passes as you pull your gaze away from mine. We **** Not make love, not having *** Simply **** ! All I wanted was intimacy, To be held and loved, All I got was detachment Aloof and distance Disappointment clinging to the straps of my bra as I pull them on Shame stained on my knicker as they slide back up Heavy is my heart Desperate is my soul Deflated is my spirit You leave, and take a part of me once more

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I gave you everything !! I gave you my heart, I gave you my mind I bared my soul to you, and yet it wasn't enough I gave you my virginity, I gave you my love I gave you the best parts of me I gave you the worst parts of me, Heck I gave you the ugly, dark, deep part of me. The part that I lock up and keep buried, the part that I did not share with family or friends, the part that I do not acknowledge as being me. That I gave to you I gave you my body, I gave you my life. I gave till the tank was dry and I was running on fumes, caffeine and delusions I stood in front of you naked and bare, stripped of my clothes, my pride, my humour, even the wall that I had built to protect me was shattered. My insecurity laid bare, my fear on show for everyone to see, I gave you everything So young, so naive, so full of love and hope I gave you everything Yet it wasn't enough

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Mar 10, 2021

Mar 10, 2021 at 7:56 PM UTC

I gave you everything

I gave you everything !! I gave you my heart, I gave you my mind I bared my soul to you, and yet it wasn't enough I gave you my virginity, I gave you my love I gave you the best parts of me I gave you the worst parts of me, Heck I gave you the ugly, dark, deep part of me. The part that I lock up and keep buried, the part that I did not share with family or friends, the part that I do not acknowledge as being me. That I gave to you I gave you my body, I gave you my life. I gave till the tank was dry and I was running on fumes, caffeine and delusions I stood in front of you naked and bare, stripped of my clothes, my pride, my humour, even the wall that I had built to protect me was shattered. My insecurity laid bare, my fear on show for everyone to see, I gave you everything So young, so naive, so full of love and hope I gave you everything Yet it wasn't enough

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Roses are red, Violets are blue, Sugar is sweet, So what the f was you? You was suppose to love me, yet you leave me You was suppose to heal me, yet you defeat me Stress upon stress, mess upon mess !! How did we get to this point of abyss, this hidden place of darkness. This point of despair, why did we not prepare No longer lovers, no longer friends, Two complete strangers, surrounded by a world of danger. Eyes shut tight, ready to fight Eyes shut tight, when will dawn turn to light?

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Mar 6, 2021

Mar 6, 2021 at 4:21 PM UTC

What the f was you?

Roses are red, Violets are blue, Sugar is sweet, So what the f was you? You was suppose to love me, yet you leave me You was suppose to heal me, yet you defeat me Stress upon stress, mess upon mess !! How did we get to this point of abyss, this hidden place of darkness. This point of despair, why did we not prepare No longer lovers, no longer friends, Two complete strangers, surrounded by a world of danger. Eyes shut tight, ready to fight Eyes shut tight, when will dawn turn to light?

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I’ve been trying, trying, trying trying, I’ve been crying, crying, crying, crying, Nothing more to say, nothing left to give As you stare out into the Midnight sky, What do you see? I’ve been flying, flying, flying, flying Flying high on life, high on energy, high enough to say bye I’ve been falling!

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Mar 5, 2021

Mar 5, 2021 at 1:51 PM UTC

Lime Salt

I’ve been trying, trying, trying trying, I’ve been crying, crying, crying, crying, Nothing more to say, nothing left to give As you stare out into the Midnight sky, What do you see? I’ve been flying, flying, flying, flying Flying high on life, high on energy, high enough to say bye I’ve been falling!

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Days, Nights, Weeks, Months Knowing what could have been, what should be mine. Yet feeling what has been lost, all those wasted time. Is this true existence, That I question Is this true existence, missing your affection Days, Night, Weeks, Months Into the abyss, these feeling I must dismiss Days, Nights, Weeks, Months Into the abyss, for my own bliss

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Mar 5, 2021

Mar 5, 2021 at 9:36 AM UTC

Days, Nights, Weeks, Months

Days, Nights, Weeks, Months Knowing what could have been, what should be mine. Yet feeling what has been lost, all those wasted time. Is this true existence, That I question Is this true existence, missing your affection Days, Night, Weeks, Months Into the abyss, these feeling I must dismiss Days, Nights, Weeks, Months Into the abyss, for my own bliss

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