hed0nist - Hello Poetry

No longer do I ever even Notice the stars Nor the scars on my wrist Life:unobservant Hell bent A hedonistic pyramid Monster:giving in But with a strong will now I will not Let myself down Again

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Feb 22, 2015

Feb 22, 2015 at 6:50 PM UTC

Pyramids

No longer do I ever even Notice the stars Nor the scars on my wrist Life:unobservant Hell bent A hedonistic pyramid Monster:giving in But with a strong will now I will not Let myself down Again

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Exhaustion Side effects reflect Human being, beating heart Apathy Native to me A cold, comfortable shell To protect me from my hell When sleep deprivation causes complications with the functionality of my brain No longer can i feign My worries No longer will I hide My fury And if sleep is for the weak, I am lord of the meek Words flow in an afterglow as I rest my head one inch above my pillow Sleepless A result of shyness A result of not saying what I want to A result of wanting so badly just to kiss you. I want so badly just to sleep. Wake up. And see you.

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Feb 22, 2015

Feb 22, 2015 at 6:48 PM UTC

Busy, Lovely

Exhaustion Side effects reflect Human being, beating heart Apathy Native to me A cold, comfortable shell To protect me from my hell When sleep deprivation causes complications with the functionality of my brain No longer can i feign My worries No longer will I hide My fury And if sleep is for the weak, I am lord of the meek Words flow in an afterglow as I rest my head one inch above my pillow Sleepless A result of shyness A result of not saying what I want to A result of wanting so badly just to kiss you. I want so badly just to sleep. Wake up. And see you.

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Subdued Boxed in Laying in euphoria from suboxone I am at home All alone Wishing for someone to hold

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Feb 22, 2015

Feb 22, 2015 at 6:42 PM UTC

Drugs

Subdued Boxed in Laying in euphoria from suboxone I am at home All alone Wishing for someone to hold

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I have a personality That I am proud of I have evolved from the dirt I once was I can laugh, and I've learned how to smile I feel human again Secure - Nowhere near my end I can hold a conversation I can mingle with my friend's friends That's all I've learned so far, But it's nowhere near the end. I've grown confident of my conscience I trust myself and my decisions My heart is not too heavy To hold my head up as I walk, and look happy. I'm still a dirtbag, but I'm not a demon I just want your affection Not your prescription I just want you voice Heading in my direction I'll listen - study your inflection Your voice, it will surround me Constrict conflicting worries Lay yourself out on my bed I want to know what's in your head A distraction from what's in mine Let it die Disappear, in time I will disappear, in the end Into nothing, I will blend. But for now I am opaque Trying to make you notice My hand, outstretched, for you to take. I can make you feel like heaven Be with me now, nowhere near the end I will show you things you haven't seen I will understand you like you've never been Helping you is helping me I'm growing, but I'm lonely And loneliness is drowning me. If you will keep me afloat Then I will let you know What you really mean to me And I will try to make you happy.

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Feb 22, 2015

Feb 22, 2015 at 6:40 PM UTC

Untitled

I have a personality That I am proud of I have evolved from the dirt I once was I can laugh, and I've learned how to smile I feel human again Secure - Nowhere near my end I can hold a conversation I can mingle with my friend's friends That's all I've learned so far, But it's nowhere near the end. I've grown confident of my conscience I trust myself and my decisions My heart is not too heavy To hold my head up as I walk, and look happy. I'm still a dirtbag, but I'm not a demon I just want your affection Not your prescription I just want you voice Heading in my direction I'll listen - study your inflection Your voice, it will surround me Constrict conflicting worries Lay yourself out on my bed I want to know what's in your head A distraction from what's in mine Let it die Disappear, in time I will disappear, in the end Into nothing, I will blend. But for now I am opaque Trying to make you notice My hand, outstretched, for you to take. I can make you feel like heaven Be with me now, nowhere near the end I will show you things you haven't seen I will understand you like you've never been Helping you is helping me I'm growing, but I'm lonely And loneliness is drowning me. If you will keep me afloat Then I will let you know What you really mean to me And I will try to make you happy.

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January Frozen Ground Amplifies sounds, found, Tucked underneath the worst of regrets Clutched between ****** knuckles In the bottom of my soul Dusty, yellowed pages of the hymn Words of Gold It reads like a holy book States melancholy, a definitive purpose Assuages hopelessness In a comfort that is warm and serene Surreal A sensation Almost hallucinatory Roaring through my body Soaring through my head Upwards, a crown Words of gold.

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Feb 22, 2015

Feb 22, 2015 at 6:28 PM UTC

January, Words of Gold

January Frozen Ground Amplifies sounds, found, Tucked underneath the worst of regrets Clutched between ****** knuckles In the bottom of my soul Dusty, yellowed pages of the hymn Words of Gold It reads like a holy book States melancholy, a definitive purpose Assuages hopelessness In a comfort that is warm and serene Surreal A sensation Almost hallucinatory Roaring through my body Soaring through my head Upwards, a crown Words of gold.

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