Your skin is covered with scars you wish you didn't make…
promises you throw into the lake.
And your brain is full of self-pity,
and your thoughts are getting gritty.
Why would you take a perfectly good body.
Just to throw it away on razor blades.
Your body is growing weaker with each etch into your skin.
But it can’t make you feel again.
Jan 12, 2015
Jan 12, 2015 at 12:57 PM UTC
Draw-on smiles
Un-walked miles
A million places
A million faces
Around... and around.
I guess my ship can sink underground
Cling onto the trends
Finding war that never can end
Sleeping on the bend
Children black and blue
Parents waiting in a que
Unsolved cases
Broken vases
Scratched-off names
Billions of un-played games
Life that hasn't been lived
And moments to be relived
Nov 18, 2014
Nov 18, 2014 at 7:23 AM UTC
I'll get so **** drunk on senseless time
I'll get drunk on all the crime
Hiding bottles in drawers and desks
Smoking underneath stairs to get rid of pesks
Dealing in parks and day-cares
Shooting guns in pairs
Dried-up tears
And dead years
Drugs laced around drinks
Falling down in skating rinks
Broken skin, hoping to numb the pain
Everyone talks while thoughts go down the drain
Taking forever to let it out
Living forever in this drought
Making drugs in someone else's backyard
Abusing children while praying hard
Gambling high while money is low
Crushing heads just to make a show
Molding young minds just to get cash
Taking happiness and turning it all to ash.
But we live like it's alright
Because soon everything is going to die....
Alcohol take the pain of the tears away
Tears take away all the bad days
Drunken nights full of unnecessary tears
Oh my, oh my. oh my.
Maybe I will get drunk again...
Nov 12, 2014
Nov 12, 2014 at 10:45 AM UTC
All I need
Is another night
Another chance to be alright
Because she is the sun and the moon
She is rain in June
Nothing compares to this kind of love
I want more, because I can never have enough
She's way too good for me
But I just can't let her be
A playlist of memories that runs through my head
Every day I think of all the words she said
What did I do to deserve her?
Because in winter everything will be a blur
Hold me tight and don't leave me
Just stay and tell me how to be free
Because she is so **** beautiful
And everything is wonderful
Because she is snow on Christmas day
She is the blooming flowers in May
All I need is her.
All I'll ever need is her....
Nov 1, 2014
Nov 1, 2014 at 4:22 PM UTC
There is no way to run away
There is nothing to stop the decay
Just go weak and let the tears fall to the floor
Nothing to hide or hold in anymore
I just need more time
But my hope is smaller than a dime
This kind of life is painful
But everyone says to be grateful
But what can we be grateful for?
Shattered hearts and broken dreams
People coming apart at the seams
Beaten until we're black and blue
Killing the things that could have grew
Killing love, killing innocent kids
Killing hope, burning eyelids
Killing faith and ourselves
A million reasons to hate the world we live in
Seven billion people full of laughter and tears
Full of taken years
Kick the bucket and thank yourself for the win
We **** everything and leave nothing...
Oct 31, 2014
Oct 31, 2014 at 10:51 AM UTC
Invisible paint on our faces
Showing who we are
Just an ounce of fear in every step
An ounce of regret for every bar
They figured you out
You're different- you stand out
The beat you till blood breaks through your skin
But you still love
There's nothing wrong with you
But apparently everything is wrong with you
"I didn't raise you like that!" is what you hear from your embarrassed mother
Clinging on to the life of a useless father
"You're going to hell" shoots arrows into your throbbing heart
Screaming for help, wanting to be like everyone else
Hiding in your bedroom and letting them throw their darts
Crying yourself to sleep because the love has left you
You meet the perfect person, but you can't tell them
And you just go over the brim
It's not a choice, because if I could choose
I would choose the easy life
Drowning your thoughts in cheap *****
Kicked out by your own flesh and blood
Hating yourself, and etching patterns in your own skin
The hate comes over like a flood
But there's nothing wrong with you
Nothing has ever been wrong with you
And there will never be a **** thing wrong with you.
Oct 29, 2014
Oct 29, 2014 at 12:26 PM UTC
People walk around with programmed heads
Filling our brains with a need to be dead
Killing without regrets
Mouths full of empty threats
Blood spills like water
And we all pretend
Like nothing is going on, no it's not the end
We are blinded by our own minds
Pushing away what they say
Going around in circles in order to rewind
Depressed children with broken hearts
Wondering why the family is split apart
Tombstones with grandpa's name
Playing the same old game
There's no one there
Our dreams are crushed
Nothing matters, no one cares
Empty hearts waiting to picked up
Finger-shaped bruises waiting for back-up
And we run away
Until we're out of breath...
Until there is nothing left.....
Oct 27, 2014
Oct 27, 2014 at 1:36 PM UTC
Everything is breaking
Everything is falling apart
Our faith is shaking
But I don't want to be another failed try on a broken chart
We're so lonely
But you are the only one I want.
When you are no longer the one to love me, then who will hold me?
Who will tell me that it's gonna be alright
When will I give up the fight
Because I can no longer make it through the night
Surrounded by my demons
Lost without my angel.
Too many nights spent shedding tears
Too many nights without cheer.
You. I need you.
When you are no longer the one to hold me, then who will love me?
Because I'm broken
Left behind with forgotten needs
I will sink down to the bottom of the sea
Forgetting what it's like to be free
I need you more that before
I just need you, tonight
So that I will be alright.
Oct 25, 2014
Oct 25, 2014 at 5:29 PM UTC
Tick-tock, tick-tock
Time is running out again and again
Spin your faith around your finger wondering when
When will the clock stop ticking
When will the hopes stop banging
Banging around in your head
Reminding you of everything you dread
Tick tock, tick-tock
Time is going by too fast
Nothing ever lasts
Nothing ever stays
Things change every day
Tick-tock, tick-tock
Time has run out
Nothing can stop the drought
Closed eyes and pale skin
Begging to forget the sin
Tick-tock, tick-tock
Time has run out....
© Heaven Leigh C.
Oct 8, 2014
Oct 8, 2014 at 12:37 PM UTC
Suffocating on words that haven't been spoken
Trying to make up new ones to erase the past
Staring at the empty vast
Twenty-four hours to say what you need
But not enough time to say what you mean
Cramps over words that haven't been written
Empty pages full of headaches and stress
Not knowing which word to address
Trying to type with numb fingers
Paper after paper until you fill acres
Drowning over stories that haven't been told
Trying to make the new and re-invent the old
Wrapping your mind around imaginary time
This is something you can't mime
Looking in other people for stories to make your own
But it's hard to find them so you feel weak
And let the pain fill you week by week
Knees aching over things that haven't got old
Gold necklaces and price tags that we leave in bags
Going under debt just to fit in
Using the last bit of ink from the same pen
Needing a new book to write in
But there's not enough money in the couch cushions
So you pack your dreams and start pushing
Worrying over time that hasn't happened
Our hearts beat even when we're down six feet
Burying yourself in things that you can't beat
Rushing to make things great
But still trying not to break
The amount of irony in the world is too much to handle
War that doesn't end with peace
But we're breaking piece by piece
Gluing ourselves back together but missing the tiny cracks between
Stuck on everything with hope for nothing.
Oct 6, 2014
Oct 6, 2014 at 1:38 PM UTC