I saw the monster inside his eyes
I tried to shout my outcries
but his hands covered my mouth.
Tears running down my face
as I laid there in disgust
frozen...
with each and every single ******
I remember the days following
as I stood in the shower
scrubbed my skin to scabs
hoping that I could bleed every
part of him out of me.
I wanted to go to the police
But who would even believe me
I let my voice become silenced
And what once sparkled like diamonds
Sparkled no more.
It does not change a day,
It changes a ******* life.
Jun 6, 2016
Jun 6, 2016 at 2:20 AM UTC
The worst goodbyes
Aren't the one that
Are said out of hate
Or anger,
The worst goodbyes
Are the one that
starts with hey
and leads to an
ultimate fade away.
The worst goodbyes
are when there
exists so much
left to say.
May 13, 2016
May 13, 2016 at 12:16 AM UTC
**The moon sang me tunes
its warm and soft hands grab me
soothing me to sleep**
May 12, 2016
May 12, 2016 at 12:10 PM UTC
Sunset over dark waters
the dings of metal quarters
sounds of splash and the whip
of water touching upon a lip.
Water was everywhere
from here, to over there,
for drinking, swimming and fun
or even to aid the burning sun.
However not all get the privilege
of water nor proper sewerage
so weep not for fun lost
but weep for the cost
for some, fun was never had.
May 12, 2016
May 12, 2016 at 12:07 PM UTC
When I was a young teenager
I never knew of love
It seemed a foreign subject
One I could not connect
With the things I was
taught inside textbooks
and fiction books.
So I tried to study love
study it like it was science
calculate it like it was maths
but
When I finally grew up
Love was different
It sang different songs
And I could not study it
the way I thought I could
So I decided to let myself
feel it.
**That was when I realised
I have been loved
and learning to love
my whole life.**
May 12, 2016
May 12, 2016 at 11:59 AM UTC
'I didn't want to hurt your feelings'
No you didn't hurt my feelings
You hurt something more
You hurt my heart
Smashed it into pieces
You hurt my being
Executed it swiftly.
So it's true,
You didn't hurt my feelings
You just hurt my will to live
And you know what
The stupid thing is?
I'll give you my heart
All over again
In an instant.
Mar 18, 2016
Mar 18, 2016 at 4:03 PM UTC
**I know you don't love me anymore
I am unsure whether you did before
I just want you to finally be happy
And live life filled with complete glee.
I know love is a truly complex notion
One filled with deep heartfelt emotions
You can't force love, if you do as a result
It eventually has ways to suddenly halt.
I am so glad that you found someone
I know you're feeling like you've won
But I wonder if you ever missed me
I do understand that it wasn't meant to be.
I still wonder if I recur in your memories
Or have I faded into the blue seas
Do I ever suddenly reemerge from words
Or in some of the songs you have heard.
You probably don't, but I sometimes do
I sometimes stop and think about you
I'm unsure of why I still relapse
But it felt like my heart is in traps.
I do appreciate everything you've given me
No matter how short that came to be
It felt amazing and magical the same
And I promise my heart, I will tame.**
...I bid you goodbye...
Mar 16, 2016
Mar 16, 2016 at 4:56 PM UTC
When you left, my friends told me to walk it off
Stretch and the loose pieces will vanish
As though a heartbreak could be walked off
I tried hiding tears behind silent coughs
I tied my arms and legs in knots
Just so I couldn’t message or get to you.
I might have tied too hard as skin turns to blue
from the bruise of falling over too hard.
Maybe I can’t walk this off,
Trod along the paths of bars and clubs
And saw the sadness in broken shrubs
Because that’s how I felt when you left.
Broken.
“Walk it off” they said,
As though densed in their heads
they’ve never experienced this before.
How do you walk off something in your core?
It’s not a kick to the ***** or a punch
I get lost at the memories of lunch,
I had slammed my fingers between car doors
Just so the pain kept me occupied
Saw how birds were able to fly
But never once saw of the beauty
But of how you flew away.
HOW DO I WALK THIS OFF,
When the sky fell to the troughs
The moon gave of light then rot.
How can i walk this off?
Mar 16, 2016
Mar 16, 2016 at 7:55 AM UTC
Sticks and stones may break my bones
But words will never hurt.
Etched across my brittle heart
Is a grotesque mark,
It reads “it’s over”.
Mar 16, 2016
Mar 16, 2016 at 7:53 AM UTC
You are a poet
Expressing your mind and feelings
Shattered the broken glass ceiling
That told you what to do
You never believed in gender roles
And when the world realises
You will have seen your goal.
You articulated your thoughts on paper
With simple messages
Through open passages
I can remember one thing you told me
**** WHAT OTHERS THINK”
your messages one by one began to sink
into my thick skull.
Everything you were and everything you are
kept my heart beating
and all the roses you built on solid soil
left me feeling different about myself.
As though I oozed of beauty
you’d call me cutie
dreamt of an inner beauty
rather than an external one
That is why i love you.
Your messages still relay in my head
“don’t let anyone ******* change you”
and my crumbling world reformed.
So as my mind riddled with insult thorns
you saw me as anything but ugly.
maybe that's why i can’t forget you
or maybe the world just can’t forget you
maybe we were never meant to be
but I know one thing is for sure
we don’t have to be , for me to love you.
Mar 16, 2016
Mar 16, 2016 at 7:52 AM UTC