hayley-intravenous
Swedish
Romantic, emotive, nostalgic and/or dripping with vitriol sums up my poetry quite well. I've been writing poetry since I was thirteen and I'm now twenty years of age. Writing is all I have, and it has been a crutch and helping hand through many hard and possibly good times. Mostly though I just try to dress up my emotions in pretty words in order to make sense of my chaotic mind.
Your blue eyes illuminated by the morning sun is a sight I won’t soon forget
Don’t hurt yourself, you said
“You’re too good for that”
How is a sharp blade creating scars any different
Than what you put me through
Text, kiss, **** touch, adore
I promised you I wouldn’t
But all I want to do without you
Is destroy myself
Night came over the day
Moon shone upon us
Intoxicated haze, people and cigarettes
Red lipstick kisses on your cheek
***** and numbers exchanged
I knew I was being reckless
See me, you said
Kiss me, you said
**** me, you said
Don’t leave any traces, you said
No evidence of my touch
I’m your ***** I thought
Sunday evening turns into Monday morning
The most beautiful morning of my life
Your blue eyes illuminated by the morning sun is a sight I won’t soon forget
That was the last time I saw you
That was the morning I kissed you goodbye
Mar 22, 2013
Mar 22, 2013 at 6:18 PM UTC
Disarray
You’ve created disarray in my mind
Split my thoughts in two
On the one hand;
Your kiss, melting smile, adoring eyes
On the other hand;
I’m nothing more than your *****
My thoughts; my mind
Everything spinning back and forth
******* with my head
Disarray
Mar 22, 2013
Mar 22, 2013 at 5:57 PM UTC
I can feel you inside me
Over me, around me
Beside me
My body isn’t mine anymore
I can feel you inside me
Over me, around me
Beside me
Your touch left traces
I remember it all
My body isn’t mine anymore
It’s yours
I can feel you inside me
Over me, around me
Beside me
Can you carry the weight of my soul?
Can I carry the weight of yours?
Jan 23, 2013
Jan 23, 2013 at 8:46 AM UTC
You've swayed me
Persuaded me
One step at a time
I've fallen, I'm falling
Would happily be crawling
On the floor for you
The closer I get
The closer I want to become
I want to see deep inside you
Watch you come undone
You're a mystery to me
I can't wait to know
All there is to know
About you
Dec 13, 2012
Dec 13, 2012 at 6:02 PM UTC
I wake up to thoughts of you
Fragments of our last encounter
Replays over and over in my mind
So distant as if it were a dream
The things you said
The things I failed to say
I need to know you
But I don’t know where to begin
I fall asleep to thoughts of you
Dec 12, 2012
Dec 12, 2012 at 5:58 AM UTC
He wants my body, he wants my soul
I can’t stand to lose control
Maybe he will crush me and leave me to bleed
I can’t stand to be deceived
Won’t believe the words he has spoken
I’m not strong enough to be broken
Can I trust you?
Can I trust you in this?
Dec 11, 2012
Dec 11, 2012 at 10:58 AM UTC
Am I supposed to get a little bit braver
A little bit deeper
A little bit closer
Each time
So that in the end
I’ll find a shard of my soul
In you
A little piece I never knew was there
You don’t even know
How much you scare me
But the thought of you leaving me
Scares me infinitely more
Dec 11, 2012
Dec 11, 2012 at 10:39 AM UTC
I lay down with a heavy heart
My skin stretching across my hip
My right hip, cut up and bloodied
Scratches and scars reminiscent of the pain I felt
My skin stretches across my hip as I lay down with a heavy heart
I sigh and realize this is the price to pay
The price I pay to still be alive
But barely living
You know, whatever that can be done to get through the day
Even if that means laying down with a heavy heart at the end of the day
With bright red cuts on my pale white skin.
Anything to get through the day
Mar 29, 2012
Mar 29, 2012 at 5:38 AM UTC
I will be a bundle of nerves
A ****** mess on the floor
Consumed by anxiety
Streaky, matted hair in a disarray
And a little death around my eyes
The sound of your voice
The imaginary touch of your hand
Pulling me through
Holding me tight all through the lonesome night
Touching my soul
Keeping me warm
I'll carve and cut and sever (my ties)
Blood spilling out of me, clotting in my black carpet
I'll hurt myself, just like you
To **** the pain, I will maim
To **** my disdain and for ever
Remember your name
Mar 21, 2012
Mar 21, 2012 at 9:07 PM UTC
I ****** the idea, of your lips and hips against my own
Your tall slender frame covering me,
The tips of you soft brown hair brushing against my skin
And the tip of your tongue as it parts my lips
And we kiss
You brushed my hair away, held me through the night
Long slim fingers stroking and caressing
The softest lips breaking away to kiss my neck
Right there…
Your breath on my skin, hands firmly on my hips
And those eyes of yours; that unique shade of brown;
They tell me everything I love about you
The tip of your tongue parting my lips
As we kiss,
Breaking the kiss, moving the softest of lips
With the faintest sound of your loving,
Words only for me to hear
Mon amour, Je t’aime
Lips and hips and the tip of your tongue
Parting my lips
As we kiss
You brushed my hair away, held me through the night
Feb 25, 2012
Feb 25, 2012 at 4:55 PM UTC