“Space
The Final Frontier”
Planets, stars, the moon, the sun
Now I won’t write some cliche about how the sun dies every night to let the moon live
Or how the moon only shines because it reflects the sun's light
Or just about how awesome the sun is
and how it keeps us alive
But I will write about how beautiful a full moon is on a cold dark night
So big, you could almost touch it
Except
It is still so far away
Sometimes I see the moon
And burst into tears because
I cannot feel the moon
Only the cold chill of night
The moon is an art piece
You could call him god's masterpiece
Untouchable,
Indescribably beautiful
The moon and its power over the ocean
Controlling its tides
Sometimes strong
Sometimes weak
Always present
Its as if the moon and ocean
Have a commitment
That is really forever
The moon- a chunk of the earth
That just strayed
A little too far from home
The moon and his many phases
Yet he is still one in the same
The moon- a contradiction
Hiding away
Before showing his true face
But let me tell you a secret
This isn't about the moon
This is about my heart,
Being four thousand eight hundred and five miles from its home
A whole different country
So far out of reach
A moon, For only my eyes to see
Feb 12, 2018
Feb 12, 2018 at 11:32 AM UTC
It was my first time meeting A’s grandmother-
I brought her flowers
Laid out on A’s den floor I begun writing this poem
While A watches anime-
English subbed
We are supposed to be studying-
we did for a while but
E has been on the same page for half an hour
As C sits atop a table-
making bird noises from above
We move to the dining room
because A’s grandmother made noodles and egg rolls
E is ******* up his noodles like a vacuum
I don't blame him- they taste like Jesus
C sneezes so loud it makes everyone jump
I look around the table, thinking of the past year
And all the friends i've made
Love, Platonic love, is beautiful
Feb 1, 2018
Feb 1, 2018 at 8:28 AM UTC
A black kitten stumbles towards me
Its young features-
Prominent in the thick fog
The kitten, teetering on its small paws
I kneel down-
In these looming clouds
This kitten-
She rubs her head
against my outstretched hand
This poor little guy,
Not knowing where to go
Such a small speck in this big, big world
The fog blinds me for a moment-
And the kitten was gone
Feb 1, 2018
Feb 1, 2018 at 8:23 AM UTC
What makes you feel beautiful?
No I don't mean Make-up And high heels
I mean looking at your best friend, and getting the feels
I mean
Rainbows on a cloudy day
Or
Rays of sun through window panes
I know what makes me Feel Beautiful
Raindrops on roses
A completed work of art,
Warm apple cider
And bumble bees
Or my sisters smile
My sisters smile
My sister is warm apple cider on a cold winter night
My sister is a work of art
My sister is a rainbow
She is the sun, and I her moon
She brings me light when I am lost in the darkness
and cannot find my way
My sister,
Is my best friend
And she makes me feel beautiful
Jan 26, 2018
Jan 26, 2018 at 3:40 AM UTC
Writing out my every thought
For thousands of you I have bought
Your ink spilt on paper, forms such beautiful words
we could write amazing music, much like songbirds
You portray all my emotions
Which could fill many many oceans
Your ink, it comes in a rainbow of colors
When reading your work my heart flutters
You are, always there when I fall
Help me, for we could build mountains quite tall
Free like a butterfly
You leave a trail for everyone nearby
Beauty in your gracious flight
You are the victor in every fight
Building a skyscraper
As your point dances across paper
Its as if you know everything
You make me wanna sing
You show a world of pure imagination
Proving the beauty of creation
Drawing the blood from my hand
To write stories of wonderland
You are like a bridge of communication
You do this with much confrontation
Spewing life's essence with every swift movement
But staying in the limelight
You shout so loud, without even speaking
brain matter leaking
Leaving every brow furled because
You control this whole **** world
Jan 21, 2018
Jan 21, 2018 at 9:07 AM UTC
My life in odd numbers
1- You are breathed into this world by two loving parents who are still far too young, still children themselves. They will make mistakes, It will be okay. Forgive them, because everything they do for the next 17 years is to help you.
3- You are developing faster than most kids, they can already tell. This is good but take this increased intellect humbly, for at some point your brain will be all you have.
5- You smile at complete strangers, keep doing that, everyone deserves your kindness. Continue to love everyone unconditionally, this is one of your best qualities.
7- Tell someone. Everyone experiences trauma, some worse than others, some are affected more than others, some blame themselves, don’t. Do not let your trauma take over your life.
9- Your youngest sibling has just been brought home, You will love her so unconditionally that she will sometimes make you forget how much you hate yourself. Hold her as much as possible, you’ll miss this time when she's older.
11- You are in a new, unfamiliar place, this is a good thing. You will meet fantastic people and have good experiences. Accept it for what it is and be open to change.
13- You must learn to get restful sleep. Your all-nighters cannot be your safety blanket forever, You must sleep to heal, to grow. You must face your night terrors.
15- Look at you, stronger now more than ever. But darling you must learn to love yourself before anyone else can truly love you. You’re only hurting yourself because you believe you are not beautiful but trust me, darling, you are beautiful.
17- Stop worrying so much about what the future holds, be happy in the present day because you never know if you will wake up tomorrow.
Jan 13, 2018
Jan 13, 2018 at 4:56 AM UTC
Dear rainbows,
Thank you.
Thank you for showing that out of every storm comes
something so inexplicably beautiful that we often stop all that we are doing to admire you.
Thank you for being a bright light at the end of every struggle.
The day that you don’t shine after a terrible storm is the day that I give up.
Thank you For your every hue.
Larger than life, your bright colors streaming across the sky,
Thank you for being a beacon to all of our allies.
I reach for you and your beauty.
Thank you for being the symbol of an identity I hold so dear
For your colored stripes are ever so often my only hope.
Thank you for giving me strength when I need it most
You tell us, not to give up when life is unfair, to not succumb to our despair
Thank you for being this, Mirage of heaven
The prettiest woman, a reborn Marilyn Monroe
Thank You For I can feel your hands guiding me
Down every bumpy road
Thank you for standing tall
Like paint trickling down from the sky
Thank you for being the bay and meadow
While the clouds fly high above your head
Thank you, for defining all my colors
All the colors of my rainbow eyes
Thank you for your rare kind of beauty
For, heckling the rain
Thank you, for brightening the sky
The vibrant shades of the world
Thank you for cheering me up
Even on the darkest of days
Thank you, because after the world glistens with rain
It's fun to explore what lies beyond your end
Jan 12, 2018
Jan 12, 2018 at 9:56 AM UTC
Marie is a rebellion,
A stark fight
A ****** war
Like no other
She is the depth
of the ocean
Fish, sea monsters
and all
Marie is
Eccentric
A mistress
if you will
A vision
Of grace,
Twinkling eyes,
Blue as the sky
Marie is
Forgiving
Yet
Spiteful
like a
grapefruit,
Bitter
yet delightful
Marie is a
powerful storm
In the dead of night
She is the
child everyone
Wishes for
But
Never receives
Marie is
sorrowful
Yet is never seen
Without a smile
A beautiful
creation,
Made of
Pixie dust
Marie is
Radiant
Like the sun,
Shining
Ever so brightly
She desires
Stability,
A loving home,
In someone's
Arms
Jan 12, 2018
Jan 12, 2018 at 9:45 AM UTC
I wholeheartedly wish I could be the best at something.
My inferiority complex
The nicest,
the funniest,
the prettiest,
My inferiority complex
the most spontaneous,
the most adventuress,
the most forgiving,
the most talented,
My inferiority complex
the best musician,
the best writer,
the one who makes people laugh the loudest,
My inferiority complex
But there is always going to be someone
better in my surroundings,
in my bubble.
My inferiority complex
It stems from a family I never really belong in
From friends I never really had,
Subjects i was never really good at
People i never really knew
My inferiority complex
How am I to compete with those,
Smarter than me
When grades “determine” intellect
My inferiority complex
How am I to compete with those
More beautiful than I
When the outside is all taken into account
My inferiority complex
I am so tired of feeling inferior.
My inferiority complex
Lonely, broken. Empty
Nothing more than shards of glass
A failure, A disappointment
My inferiority complex
consumes me
Suffocates me
My inferiority complex
The Jealousy,
It defines me
My inferiority complex
Why wasn’t I born to be like him,
Like her,
Like them
Jan 12, 2018
Jan 12, 2018 at 9:42 AM UTC
My heart
It holds everything
The good, the bad, the ugly
This heart pumps blood throughout my body
My heart
It holds the grief
From my uncles suicide
This heart, it's keeping me alive
My heart
It holds love
Newly found self love
This heart, just sitting in my chest
My heart
It holds the pain
Of seeing my mom down pills everyday
This heart beats to a rhythm
My Heart
It holds the trust
I put in my brothers hands
This heart is strong
My heart
It holds the benevolence
of my soul
This heart is heavy
This heart
It holds the shame
Of never being enough
This heart is sad
My heart
It holds fear
A fear of abandonment
This heart is broken
My heart
It holds the joy
of my sisters smile
This heart has been many places
My heart
It holds disgust
From a cousin, who couldn't keep his hands to himself
This heart has seen too much
My heart
It holds my anxiety
Formed from my father's anger
This heart hurts
My heart
It holds sadness
And blood stained memories
This heart deserves so much more
My heart
It holds sorrow
Strong enough to rip apart skin
This heart is a champion
Jan 9, 2018
Jan 9, 2018 at 5:02 AM UTC