Through these past four years that I've known you
I've come to realize something.
I don't truly know you or know if you still do care about me.
I know I mess up, and I can be an idiot at times.
I know that I'm annoying and a bother.
I'm sorry for hurting you, and I'm sorry for hurting everyone.
I don't mean to cause harm or trouble, I just simply want to help.
Maybe its because I feel helpless at times.
Maybe it's because I feel like I have no worth to my loved ones.
I feel like everyone is just annoyed by just my presence.
Maybe thats the reason why I've tried to distance myself,
I don't want to hurt my friends anymore.
Everytime I look at her, I feel as though we are growing apart.
I know that I might be wrong, but it feels like it,
I'm sorry.
I know I'm sorry about a lot of things.
I'm sorry that I made you mad.
I'm sorry I've hurt you.
I'm sorry if I seem like a total *****
I'm so, so sorry about many things.
I shouldn't have good friends like them.
I should be alone.
Do you still think of me as a friend?
I'm just so worried that something bad between our friends will split us apart.
You can take this however you want.
I'll always be here for all of you.
I'm sorry that I'm not the bests of friends...
Aug 30, 2018
Aug 30, 2018 at 9:27 AM UTC
Don't you see,
How you hurt me?
How you're breaking my heart?
Don't you see,
That I'm sad?
That it's different without you?
You say that you've moved on,
But what about me?
Do you still love me?
Don't bother trying to get me back,
You've hurt me countless times,
Don't you see how much I've cared about you?
May 22, 2017
May 22, 2017 at 8:03 AM UTC
Who am I?
A girl who tries to be the best friend that she can be?
Am I a girl who gets sad too easily?
Or am I just a girl with a fake smile?
What am I?
A girl with the greatest friends?
Am I a girl who is just like her father?
Or a selfish girl with no feelings?
Who or What am I?
Am I just a disappointment to my family?
Am I just a girl who just cries a lot?
Just Who am I?
May 8, 2017
May 8, 2017 at 1:29 PM UTC
So many secrets I’ve kept,
So many lies I have kept away,
I’ve tried to be the best,
But I keep being a mess up and a mistake…
I can’t tell you..but I’m having enough of keeping so many secrets,
Secrets, secrets, secrets,
I can only hold so many secrets, I can only hold so much,
Please help me
I’m slowly going mad with these secrets…
Secrets, secrets, secrets.
Apr 12, 2017
Apr 12, 2017 at 9:45 AM UTC
How can I be fine?
When you tore my world apart.
How can I be fine?
When you left for her.
How can I be fine?
When I was foolish enough to believe you?
I will never be fine...
You've took my heart.
And broken it beyond repair.
Apr 10, 2017
Apr 10, 2017 at 12:35 PM UTC
*Hello? Can you see me?
How are you?
Oh wait...you’re not looking at me.*
*I’m sitting here,
Watching everything,
Hearing everything.*
*Everyone isn’t talking to me,
But I try to talk,
Looks like I’m a gust of wind.*
*Can’t you just talk to me?
Tell me that I’ve been noticed,
Tell me that I’m here.*
*Looks like my words fall on hollow ears,
Oh well….its fine,
Even though it hurts… I’m use to it.*
Feb 14, 2017
Feb 14, 2017 at 12:39 PM UTC
****
That's just a label for me,
A simple stereotype.*
*Am I a ****
No, not really,
German is just in my blood.*
*You haven’t met me,
You never understood,
So stop calling me that one label.*
*I’m more than just a label,
I’m a human,
I have a heart.*
Feb 14, 2017
Feb 14, 2017 at 12:33 PM UTC
In the shadows,
Creatures move,
Visible eyes glow,
Coldness fills the air.
In the shadows,
Voices whispering,
No words understood,
Evil laughter echos the air.
In the shadows,
Someone is lurking,
A presence surrounds you,
You feel invisible hands at your feet.
In the shadows,
You’ll never know what lurks,
You’ll never know if there is a demon,
You’ll never know if the light will ever turn on.
Jan 27, 2017
Jan 27, 2017 at 10:26 AM UTC
*Voices surrounds the dark nothingness,
Laughter, cries, screams,
Try to understand them as you may,
You won’t be able to comprehend.
You first see a girl who is curled up in a ball,
Crying, mumbling, calling herself “fat”,
Don’t look for her heart,
Its been left behind with her past lover.
You then see a little girl,
Laughing, giggling, smiling,
Don’t talk to her,
She’ll never speak to strangers.
Next is a girl with a poofy dress,
Happy eyes, goofy smile,
Don’t speak anything sad to her,
She want to keep others happy.
There is an evil female,
Hateful, dark, smiling evilly at you,
Don’t try to even talk to her,
You’ll find yourself in the afterlife.
Finally you see a normal girl,
Smiling, being goofy, being ‘normal’ right?
What if she is wearing a mask,
Hiding the horrors behind the smiling masquerade?
The mask finally wearing away, breaking off,
Showing you the true scars and sorrow hidden,
Showing you how crazy she is,
Showing you who she really is?*
Jan 13, 2017
Jan 13, 2017 at 6:56 AM UTC
*Dear someone,
Can you hear me?
Can you see that I'm here?
Slowly slipping,
Through the darkness.*
*Dear Someone,
Will you help me,
Will you stay with me?
And never leave me.*
*Dear someone,
Save me,
Before it's too late,
Before I lose myself,
Before I stay in the darkness.*
*Dear someone,
Please help me,
Help me through this,
Help me drive my darkness away,
Help me live.*
Oct 26, 2016
Oct 26, 2016 at 10:11 AM UTC