When all you knew has crumbled
Those fleeting moments memories
Good or bad are gone
When you realized what was, wasn't real
But the reality was too much for understanding
That the things we felt were simply chemical
That the addiction wasn't necessity
That what we were was not a solid
But a cloud of temporary emotions
An instantaneous burst of feeling in no direction
It was momentarily sensual and that is that
And that is alright
That is where is shall lie
So when you're drunk and say you loved
Don't make mistakes of the past
Remember liquor is a depressant
Try not to bury deeper than what was
As I did for so long
Because love, you deserve better
Feb 21, 2015
Feb 21, 2015 at 3:34 AM UTC
Darling if you would only kiss me one more time
I could taste the memories of our careless endeavors
Before the reality of you becomes present
You shift back into the world against me
I wish i could see how i found you
Some years ago, hair too long and life still short
But with clocks and ticks and calendars away from you
I've remained unchanged since i left in October
Like you were my passage to all i flew with
Now heavy with the weight of high school
My burger joint job and what could have been
Oct 21, 2014
Oct 21, 2014 at 6:28 PM UTC
School is going to start again and everything is going to change. You will fade into what is our school and our classmates and your friends and what we know now as life. And I will fade with it as you settle in, meet new people, maybe fall for a girl like you did for me. And I know you won't understand what I mean because that's just the way you are, and you go with what is told and what you know. But I miss you, and I want to be with you and listen to music and stay in an endless summer of just us in a mess of mind and body love. I love all you are, your loud quirks of spontaneous reality and laughter always. The way you always smile and always play a new game with me. Your playful light on everything that goes on. You make me beleive in our world again, like everything is good and everything is love and happiness and everyone really does mean well. You make me love again
Sep 5, 2014
Sep 5, 2014 at 2:13 AM UTC
I do recall when you kissed me so hard I was out of breathe
Now the air in my lungs quickly contract
As I continue to think of the alternate
When you bit my lip and took my will leaving me with addiction
You leave your smell and the thought that things will change
But those both go away, within a few days
When you're at your house watching breakfast club at 3am
And I'm rolling in bed alone
with work in the morning
Floating around the house
in the silence of mind surrender
Company of floor boards and bare feet
Blink hard to stop thinking of you
Slipping into a mind I can't control
Feelings that press without consent
And I still don't know if the truth you tell, is a lie.
Aug 2, 2014
Aug 2, 2014 at 6:39 AM UTC
Once you were holding my hand
A bold embrace
Every time we met
A smile and a kiss
at every goodbye
Leaving each other
Gleaming
Side by side
In a feild of grass
We had to leave
Because of your allergies
But that was my favorite part
When you gave me butterfly kisses
And spun me slowly to fast tunes
Decorating each other in paint
Just for the hell of it
Getting you to eat blueberries
When you hate fruit
And me eating asparagus
That I can't bare to taste
Sitting on your heated kitchen floor
Eating chocolate animal crackers
On Wednesdays
The sifting sun
Through your windows
On that old denim couch
In the endless summer
Cool and cuddled for hours
Your back rubs on bad days
When you would kiss
The freckles on my shoulders
Times seemingly endless
An eternal love burned so fierce
But now look at us
Me, a shadow in your life
I would be holding your hand
Talking to friends
Laughing and loving so greatly
Yet I write this alone now
Sitting in the locker room
On a musty couch
Hidden in the back
Before the school day starts
Where I will see you again
And wish hopelessly
That I could hear you say
I love you
Once more
And beleive it
Jul 25, 2014
Jul 25, 2014 at 8:17 AM UTC
I'm not the sun, shining sweetly in rays of warmth and light
I'm not the rain either, violently pouring endlessly drenching in misery
I'm the earth after a rainy storm, when the sun breaks out and heats the ground
All at once
I'm the hissing steam, sizzling and
Confused so hot all at once, flustered and floating in the heat of your heartless love.
Jul 25, 2014
Jul 25, 2014 at 8:16 AM UTC
Tides lash as secrets keep
Dark times in a mind so meek
Kissing thoughts that roam the deep
Wake to the cold embrace
The memories, that make me shake
For gods sake, give me a break
I'm not feeling so great
Lovely times, though horrible crimes
That haunt my mind
Wish I could just replace
But in my drugs you are laced
An addiction, you embrace
Please tell me I'm worth it
So we can just be perfect
Jul 25, 2014
Jul 25, 2014 at 7:58 AM UTC
Move your hands across my body
The lightest you've ever touched feeling every scar and mark of my skin
Then grasp my reassurance that you'll always catch my fall and accept every flaw
Drag your lips across mine in a slow motion kiss that brings me to surrender
Pull my neck with your mouth and take my heat leaving me chills
Look at me like you've met me for the first time, and are seeing me for for the last
Allow our bodies to fuse and move like the waves pulling me in closer and closer and closer to you
Spaces widen then tighten, winding and grasping at our fantasy
Breathing you in, in short breathes of trusted submission
May 28, 2014
May 28, 2014 at 8:17 PM UTC
Once you were holding my hand
A bold embrace
Every time we met
A smile and a kiss
at every goodbye
Leaving each other
Gleaming
Side by side
In a feild of grass
We had to leave
Because of your allergies
But that was my favorite part
When you gave me butterfly kisses
And spun me slowly to fast tunes
Decorating each other in paint
Just for the hell of it
Getting you to eat blueberries
When you hate fruit
And me eating asparagus
That I can't bare to taste
Sitting on your heated kitchen floor
Eating chocolate animal crackers
On Wednesdays
The sifting sun
Through your windows
On that old denim couch
In the endless summer
Cool and cuddled for hours
Your back rubs on bad days
When you would kiss
The freckles on my shoulders
Times seemingly endless
An eternal love burned so fierce
But now look at us
Me, a shadow in your life
I would be holding your hand
Talking to friends
Laughing and loving so greatly
Yet I write this alone now
Sitting in the locker room
On a musty couch
Hidden in the back
Before the school day starts
Where I will see you again
And wish hopelessly
That I could hear you say
I love you
Once more
And beleive it
May 28, 2014
May 28, 2014 at 7:57 PM UTC