gynna-manel
67/Two-Spirit
I am a moon child. I am the depth of the most shallow water. I am a drunkard of poetry and music. I binge in photographs and memories. My words can be the sweetest of hell, and the sharpest of heaven. I'm a traveler and memory collector. I'm a gypsy soul.
You are my beautiful chaos
Yet all the time still my gorgeous
You are my delightful mess
But definitely I will always miss.
You to me is my sun
The one to give me all the fun
You to me is my moon
The one I’ll always hold very soon.
You give me hope
I will hold on to you like a rope
You give me love
And always too you have my love.
You are my angel
Jul 27, 2016
Jul 27, 2016 at 2:03 AM UTC
I am always trapped in a maze of crossroads.
Labyrinths all around.
I sometimes swim in the sea of the unconscious.
Or walk in the valley of disbelief.
And even reach nirvana from
other dimensions in a fleeting state.
I keep searching for love,
while tracking my soul.
I couldn't find it, maybe I did
and just lost it many times.
I'm bleary.
My sage advise to self
is to freeze my world for a moment...
My thoughts are nothing but vestige.
For now, everything is an echo!
Dec 8, 2015
Dec 8, 2015 at 2:04 AM UTC
I breathe you
like the lavender
so calm and relaxing
on a summer day
I breathe you
like the oasis
quenching my thirst
on the Sahara
I breathe you
like the apple
feeding my hunger
in the forrest
I breathe you
in my dreams
like the garden
of my imagination
I breathe you
like an oxygen
filling me with life
and air to live
I breathe you
like you are near
and though you're gone
I still breathe you...
May 31, 2015
May 31, 2015 at 8:59 PM UTC
I still recall the times when I first met you.
So weak, so young and innocent.
You are strong-headed; pushing and fighting for your love.
At that time I thought it was one of the most heroic thing you do.
The days gone by and you have evolved into a strong,
full character and a beautiful person.
Our days were so happy then
oblivious to the goings of the world behind us.
We traveled the world with no shame and fear at all
because we were together
and with our hands clasped we believed
nothing can come bad between us.
But all so suddenly, you left me in the battle field,
pushed me and scarred me with endless wounds that never heal.
You chose the darkness and put yourself on a pedestal.
You wanted to conquer the world by yourself and forgetting about me.
You left me like a helpless shadow that you even stepped down on.
You chose your own freedom and world.
For many times, you stabbed me with a knife over and over again.
Killing me each time with your flattering wings
who's slapping me violently.
I picked you up still and gave you the light.
I carried you on my broken shoulders
but still you continued to break free.
And again and again you scarred my full body
and my soul with pain beyond compare.
Then I woke up one night;
out of breath, screaming with tears,
and holding my heart
in the palms of my hand
lifeless and not beating.
That gave the sudden death to me!
I might forever love you continuously
but the heart who does is no longer beating
and I no longer owned...
May 20, 2015
May 20, 2015 at 10:06 PM UTC
You can call me your teacher,
who taught you things you've never known
You can call me your travel buddy,
who takes you to places you've never been
You can call me your dream weaver,
who help you build your dreams
You can call me your chef,
who feeds you with delicious food
You can call me your preacher,
the one who caddies you to the house of God
You can call me your singer,
who sings to you melodies you've never heard
You can call me your book,
whom you read page by page but with no ending
You can call me your psychologist,
the one who analizes your character deeply
You can call me your mirror,
for you bare everything to me that no one will ever know
You can call me your match,
that lights up fast when you need a fire
You can call me your pillow,
the one you hug at night to hide in it's fluffiness
You can call me your blanket,
the one who gives you warmth inside and out
You can call me your home,
for I am your shelter when you are lost
You can call me...
The one who stays behind your back
The one who holds you invisibly
The only one who speaks your language
or your soul mate
But I want you to call me...
The one who never left, just like the way you want me to...
Eternally! ✨
May 20, 2015
May 20, 2015 at 5:15 AM UTC
I will remember this night not like the other nights
I see the stars but I could not see bright lights
The moon is not herself and it is frowning at me
Looking at me strangely wanting to embrace me
I will remember this night because I am frozen
All the blood in me are gone it's painfully taken
My soul has flown away and it left me bare & empty
Now what is left of me is nothing but your sympathy
But I will remember this night that broke my heart
The pain is way too much and tearing me apart
Just where do I start picking up what is left behind
How did I let myself believe and acting so blind
Now I will remember this night that ended our love
I know you're somewhere far that I can no longer have
But I will still sing in my sleep our love song
In my dreams, love will put us back where we belong.
May 20, 2015
May 20, 2015 at 2:46 AM UTC
You wanna linger in the dark when it is bright
You are finding wrong instead of all that's right
Why are you playing your really crazy game
You seem to have fun destroying my name
Can't you be happy that there's you and me
Can you not make things simple and easy
Your crazy thoughts are just killing you
And truly now your love is killing me too
Why can't you just hold me in your arms
Instead of you beating me like those drums
You suffocate me with your all time doubts
I'm like being eaten by hungered mouths
One day I will be so far far away from you
Somewhere calm and there's no more you
A place where loving is peaceful and free
There under the cold of the deep blue sea
You might not realize
I will be gone in a blink of an eye
Coz you are driving me crazy...
Driving me crazy...
May 19, 2015
May 19, 2015 at 6:23 AM UTC
Love enters my heart today
Unknown and unwelcome guest
It is begging me to let it stay
I let it stay to show me what's best
It promises me tomorrow
And I'm hoping that it won't bend
It says I won't drown in sorrow
I believe it and makes me smile no end
My soul can no longer sing
And it changes my whole happy being
Your promise is a broken one
And yes now it's really gone gone gone
Sometimes at night I pray
To bring back things and erase the gray
But now it has gone away
I wish Love to enter my heart today...
May 19, 2015
May 19, 2015 at 6:19 AM UTC