Diving into an endless void with never ending clocks that float in every direction
Ticking to time zones that no longer exist.
Cascading upside down I rise into a world
on a distorted path of the less traveled.
I land on a solid platform of rocks and rubble.
filled with no sense of security I walk towards a figure with a face of light projecting old memories onto a wall of painted pain.
It’s filled with uncomplimentary colors devoid of all light.
I float to the wall that was created on the tears of bad luck and I paint my yellow light down the wall in a single stroke.
It ages instantly becoming duller but
The yellow remains moving along with the other colors.
I move my hand against the wall as I am pulled upwards and I can no longer touch it and it eventually vanishes away.
I float higher looking up towards a light.
it engulfs me, now it is all that surrounds me.
Leaving my shadow with nowhere to land, so I caress them in my arms.
I hear clicking and I close my eyes.
"Have all the opportunities passed?
Have all the paths ended?"
I feel the warmth of everlasting sunshine on my skin
and the sounds of calming winds and rustling leaves.
I open my eyes to see a bountiful blue sky
of puffy white clouds and rainbow rays of sunshine.
with emerald green grass forming to the shape of my hands
and with no sense of purpose, I smile.
Feb 28, 2022
Feb 28, 2022 at 5:32 PM UTC
Who is this girl that twirls around at twilight
under the crescent moonlight and the fading sun?
With tears running down her face,
she holds an angelic smile upon her face.
What does she see?
What does she hear? and
What does she feel?
Black feathers begin to fall,
circling around the ruffles of her black dress,
landing by her bare-feet.
Who is this girl
and why does she turn at this hour?
What has she gained? and what has she lost?
Only time will tell,
yet here I am feeling found
while being lost in her day-spring eyes.
Jul 10, 2020
Jul 10, 2020 at 6:45 PM UTC
My head and heart are split so
Please excuse me if I sound confusing
And make no more sense
My brain has 2 sides,
1 is ruling proudly and the other is sadly devastating
1 makes me HAPPY:)
And the other makes mesad:(
it is a battle of being kind
and being lost in my mind
My heart is split
With two equal halves
The heart of a lover
And the heart of a killer
One falls too easily for traps
And the other sets them
It's very odd to be broken hearted
And be a breaker of hearts.
So I am split right down the middle
An axe making a clean split
but I've gotten better with my halves.
Maybe one day I’ll stitch them up
and see who I become.
May 17, 2019
May 17, 2019 at 8:58 AM UTC
I want you to say the words I've been dying to hear
Physically dying, making me ill
I want those unspoken words to heal me
They are there,
I know you want to say them.
They are kicking their legs back and forth while sitting
on the tip of your tongue waiting to jump.
Let your emotions pour out.
Sing to me the song inside your heart.
Tell me the words that will heal me.
... I know I'm wrong.
I don't know what goes on in your mind.
I make your feelings up inside my head
to ease the pain you cause
but I know you don't love me
not the way I love you.
so I'll sit here and pretend you love me
until I learn to love myself.
May 17, 2019
May 17, 2019 at 8:46 AM UTC
Water ripples
to the stones I throw
they sink into the waters of my sadness.
I have almost
drowned
in those waters.
So why do I keep skipping stones?
Feb 23, 2019
Feb 23, 2019 at 8:14 PM UTC
My feelings are unresolved
Im flustered with the facts of reality.
There is no one to blame,
just the unlucky deck that life has handed us.
We had to part for reasons
beyond our control.
But that doesn’t ease me.
I can't be mad at you.
I can’t say you were bad.
I can’t say you were distant.
I can’t say anything,
because it wasn’t your fault
and it wasn’t mine.
It was the place,
the time,
it was everything
but us.
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You made me feel comfortable,
you made me feel safe,
you made me feel loved,
even in the short time we had.
You understood me better than most did
and I cherish that.
No one understands me,
but you made sense of my nonsense.
There are more words to say but not enough time
and not enough lines
So for now
I’ll sadly say
Goodbye, until next time.
- S.C.S.
Feb 23, 2019
Feb 23, 2019 at 7:56 PM UTC
It pushes me
Back and forth
Putting me on a whirlwind
Filled with so many emotions
You can catch me with feelings
of love
Or feelings
of sadness
It can drop me into feelings
Of anger
Or feeling
Of joy
I can feel so many things
For a certain amount of times.
But I will always know this.
The wind is always changing
and that I will not stay in those feelings
I will stay in those places
I will always be moving with time.
Jan 22, 2019
Jan 22, 2019 at 12:11 AM UTC
Oh, love.
I revisit the idea of you
over and over.
How you have made my life so much better
and so much worse.
I keep thinking you are the key.
You are the thing keeping me from being happy and
if I finally catch you.
I will be happy.
But I am starting to think that
you have caused more sadness instead.
But maybe that is your purpose?
Maybe the lack of happiness in my life
is something else.
I have lived my life drowning
in fantasies so that I could hide from
the world.
Now that I’ve come back to this world and
tried to enjoy what it has to offer me.
I can’t help but roll my eyes of boredom.
Nov 7, 2018
Nov 7, 2018 at 10:17 PM UTC
A static feeling of un-enthusiasm
and standard pleasantries.
this world isn’t the same
as the one that goes inside my head.
That one is filled with adventure
and promise.
I crave something with meaning.
But the closest I can get is my writing
and re-enacting stories already told.
I'm struggling to find purpose and meaning
I wonder if I will
I wonder.
Nov 7, 2018
Nov 7, 2018 at 4:32 PM UTC
A field of colors laid before our eyes.
This serene countryside
filled with so many new possibilities.
Happiness filled our hearts.
He turned to me and looked at me with those hazel eyes
that enchanted me so long ago and said,
"Sometimes you will get the chance to see a landscape so simple, yet so alluring and filled with beauty,
that it fills you with such a sense of hope."
"The fields of flowers filled with bashful greens
flaming with different shades of reds and pinks
working in harmony with the sun's rays."
"It makes you think that this world is precious,
and our future will be golden."
He grabbed my hand and smiled,
and pulled me towards our field of hope.
Oct 27, 2018
Oct 27, 2018 at 9:01 PM UTC