You felt warm
You felt like a cozy day with hot chocolate
Like Christmas Eve watching Christmas movies
Warm like a Valentines day dinner that ended with cuddles
And then you ruined it.
Dec 8, 2024
Dec 8, 2024 at 5:48 PM UTC
What is it like?
What is it like to smell flowers in the Spring?
What is it like to feel safe and secure?
That feeling must feel like Heaven
Sweet, warm, Heaven.
What is it like to trust someone with your life;
To wakeup to someone you're loving life with?
To get one hundred percent of love from someone?
What is it like to be loved?
Properly.
Dec 8, 2024
Dec 8, 2024 at 5:44 PM UTC
I’m sitting here thinking
Role playing life to myself
The life that I wish I had
Or the moments in life that I want to happen
I don’t feel like I’ve given up
But I also dont feel I have the strength to keep up
I don’t know what to do with my life
Jun 27, 2021
Jun 27, 2021 at 9:27 PM UTC
Does true pain really go away, or does it get benched till another episode kicks in.
Jun 27, 2021
Jun 27, 2021 at 9:19 PM UTC
I will never be jealous over someone else
If my jealousy has to do anything with that person
I’m not jealous of the person
I’m jealous of the attention your giving them
But, I’m so used to being by myself that my jealousy doesn’t last long
Moving on is not hard for me
Jan 30, 2021
Jan 30, 2021 at 7:53 PM UTC
I’m not saying that I have a bad life
I have everything I need to survive
I have a job, roof over my head, support
I buy the things that I need and want
But for some reason I have a feeling in me that just does not want to leave me alone
I don’t feel like I’m worth it
Anything
I deserve nothing that would make me happy
Why? I honestly don’t know
No one understands what goes through my head
Im very insecure and constantly worried
I worry that people don’t actually like or love me
I worried that everyone thinks I’m annoying
Nothing helps me feel totally happy
Not money, family, friends, nothing
And I don’t know why.
I feel like I’m alone
No one is helping me fight my battle
A army of one
I have visions of me fighting
I have moments where I just sit in my room and drive myself crazy overthinking
I end up crying and fighting with myself
Yelling, punching things, throwing things
And picking fights with my boyfriend
I love him I really do
But, I feel like my insecurities are pushing him away
He says he loves me but I don’t believe him
Why should I
I’m nothing, im not important to him
I feel like trash compared to the other girls he’s been with
He can do better then me
I want help and I need it but I don’t know where to get it
Self medication isn’t helping anymore
And it will get worse
I just know it
I know me
Aug 4, 2020
Aug 4, 2020 at 10:02 AM UTC
I gave up on this “friendship” a long time ago , the only reason your still here is because I’ve learned that I’m lonely with out us. I’ve fought so long on my own I’m scared of my own mind and I need someone to help me with my fear
Mar 2, 2020
Mar 2, 2020 at 8:58 PM UTC
I’m scared of writing,again
Because I’m scared of crying
Crying is my enemy
When I cry I’m a easy target
When I cry you can manipulate me with your words
You can make me rethink my who perception of life
I don’t want that
But when it does because it will
I will have to restart my mind
Forget about what you told me
Forget about the visions of images you put in my head
And make you a target for changing me
Writing is my outlet
Have you ever dug inside your own mind so deep
Have you ever written every detail of your life on paper till this exact moment
Have you ever fell in love with something and never stop doing
Until you were afraid too
Because I’m afraid
Im afraid that every word I write comes back to haunt me
Afraid that when I reread this I cry
Because crying makes me venerable
And venerability makes me write
Writing is my best friend but sometimes your best friend can hurt you
I am afraid to write because what I write is my life and that’s why I cry
Jan 17, 2020
Jan 17, 2020 at 8:12 AM UTC
I’m putting myself in situations that are about you but the situations doesn’t exist
Apart of me still wants you to love me back
Mar 14, 2019
Mar 14, 2019 at 12:43 AM UTC
I didn’t believe in love anymore because of you
I lost all faith in finding someone who would love me
I lost love in myself ....
I don’t think you know how much of an impact you had on me
Mar 5, 2019
Mar 5, 2019 at 6:06 PM UTC