I picked up running a couple months ago, not so that the wind could press against my skin or to machinate a path to transmit my kinetic energy into pavement
I ran because I was desperate to get out, to escape, to not have to face or remain in the losses and lovelessness that would destroy me, to push my panic away
It saved my life when the bottom had come off of an overflowing cup,
Emptied of every good except my legs so let’s empty those too
I did and I drained my body of all fluid, fear, and folly that remained within,
Gladiatorial, the enchanting idea of ‘easier’ marauding my mind with each new step
Yesterday, the love of my life told me that my new habit was hot,
Setting myself to a goal and taking care of myself and my body is attractive.
Have I run long enough for my
Confession to mutate into sweet nothings?
I must continue running, tracking the miles, meters, minutes, and mockeries of the voices inside my head
Mar 29
Mar 29, 2026 at 1:05 AM UTC
When I lie here away from the beach
Distant from crashing waves
Humming crowds and sun beams
The world is far off and time is local
Only the coastal breeze and the romantique calls of seabirds
The trees sway above my head
Ants work in the grass beneath my feet
Pelicans ride the faint sound of the ocean
The shores of heaven surely are not
Where sand and shell and seaweed gather
But here, up and above the edge of the deep
Where life and breath pervade the air
Mar 29
Mar 29, 2026 at 1:02 AM UTC
One click, one send, one sigh
One look, one read, one reply
A quick, “we’ll get back to you”
A long wait, “not here, you’re through”
Two more weeks to apply
Two more chances to cry
At last a reply and a call
At last a chance, though small
Three days to wait and hear
Three minutes of relief and cheer
Summer approaches, but a student’s employed
The job search is over, rejoice
Apr 13, 2017
Apr 13, 2017 at 6:28 PM UTC