sunday on a saturday afternoon
fills my lungs with soda taste longing
flinging through words never said
to spit out of my head
here i lie on the bedding
sunday comes around
to feed me to the ground
silence waits til i turn to say ‘i found you’
saturday sun on a sweet afternoon
week full, ate up my work til i threw up on you
what was that last thing we spoke about?
like,
just wait til it ends
just wait til it ends
sun sat day to wait til it ends
and then you know like
it starts on a friday night
we’ll tie our hands together
over our new tv
we’ll watch the stories as they play
of a life worth living past sunday
life worth living past sunday
Feb 28, 2025
Feb 28, 2025 at 12:17 AM UTC
in dishes made for food
in cups made to drink
***** hands will hold them up to block the sun
like people forced to work
to soften clanks against their plate
a stair rail forced to break
sits kindly beside it’s well
exactly almost where it’s meant to be
like mom starts her shift
beneath her wheels will turn
and turn and turn
a worn down walking cane
pushed through door handles
assigned to keep it shut against the wind
a woman limps across
with all her weight she leans
between the handles, against the creaking crane
exactly almost where it’s meant to be
like when i go to work
the pull of chatting with a friend
you feel the forming group
exactly almost where i’m meant to be
exactly almost
exactly almost where I’m meant to be
Feb 15, 2025
Feb 15, 2025 at 2:51 PM UTC
dialed a number pulled from my chest
your voice made a sound i already learned
i lie on my bed like a tree in the woods
leaning and reaching to cross branches with you
notification sound like a bird safe in it’s house
my eyes only look up by your side
i love u
Feb 15, 2025
Feb 15, 2025 at 2:41 AM UTC
my arms are static
my legs are rocky air
my torso dips into
the skyward of mattress
I brought yesterday in my hands to set out in the sun
it didn’t take long to burn right up
my eyes trail the flecking ash in the air
there’s nothing i wish to hide
yet i sit like one car
parking lot tar matches the sky
at 3 am
is the static channel on the tv
still there when you turn off the screen
i think i see it when i close my eyes
Feb 14, 2025
Feb 14, 2025 at 4:16 PM UTC
the office sits still
the tremble of it's hands
the glitch of days within
i walk down some hall
and a man passes me by with a mop and bucket
i feel the water lick my leg, i feel the grip of hands on it's handle
though it stays where it is
someone drills an unreadable sign to the wall and i feel the screws dig to my bones
though they stay where they are placed
i walk through my office door
they're dismantling my computer
a piece within it cracks
and i fall to the floor
a tool
Feb 12, 2025
Feb 12, 2025 at 11:40 AM UTC
the pink clouds move slow
slow like i was tricked by the years
gleaming over grass i walked
by feet
small in saturday's shoes
sharp patch grass and dirt that stuck to my back
replaced by the warmth of wood chips
familial love reflects off the set up sign
swaying on the lawn
i feel its burn in my eyes
the ice cream man drives by
i guess the best flavor isn't in stock anymore
the sun keeps setting on my dreams to escape
i already woke up from it all
Feb 12, 2025
Feb 12, 2025 at 3:09 AM UTC
if i lie in bed
at night with the phone
flashlight on
so i can see the careful night
staring back at me
will i remember the taste
of summer
though late winter stings like california
will i watch a squinting sun
look at me like a black hole
though the night stays calm beside me
to find something
to know it
if i lie in bed
the dotting black of my room is the universe the flashlight is on
and i am the sun
Feb 11, 2025
Feb 11, 2025 at 5:38 PM UTC
i think i figured out
while i'm alive
i'll bleed out on the floor
and most everyone will go around me
and silent sound will sit beside me
so i feel the burn on my skin
but the tremble of my body will harmonize with yours and the blood we lie in
will taste like glitter when i kiss you
and the sound will sit in another room
while we fall asleep
just for the night
just for the night
silence was the sound of us breathing in just for the night
Feb 11, 2025
Feb 11, 2025 at 7:02 AM UTC
is it bad i wish you suffering
because it means you're alive
we promised moonlight
we promised beach
but i float down the shore alone
my feet yet to touch ocean floor
as your dust settles back into the stars
the tide keeps pulling away
i see the rippled glass of the sand
a face shaped wildly by the sunlight you never got to see
a distorted image of me
i imagine you lived a hundred thousand years just to believe the line wasn't cut short
i imagine you lived a hundred thousand years just to believe the line wasn't cut short
in the shells i pick up, are lies
and i fill my mouth with all these little shells
you lived a hundred thousand years
you lived enough to see
you know me, even now
and your dust wont settle in the stars
it'll form in a ghost in my backyard
Feb 11, 2025
Feb 11, 2025 at 7:00 AM UTC
Floating forward on empty feet
Music clinging to every second that passes my ears
Im overwhelmed by the quiet vastness the world has become
Green spilling over pale balconies
Flowers take their place without remorse
Sturdy white buildings with their usual red caps filled to the brim with life
They feign stillness secretly teeming with love, with hate, with anger, enjoyment of life, with overwhelming loneliness, with boisterous laughter, with shared meals and smiles and tears
It’s alive, every person a vein, i can feel these buildings breathe as i walk by, feel it’s pulse, every beat resounding deep in my skull
An irrefutable reminder
as my skin crawls from solitude, we are alive, we are alive
Apr 19, 2020
Apr 19, 2020 at 1:50 AM UTC
