I talked
I smiled
I laughed
I blushed
I spoke
I cared
I dreamt
I confided
I feared
I dreaded
I cried
I lied
I cried again
I lied again
I broke my own heart.
Jun 26, 2020
Jun 26, 2020 at 3:13 AM UTC
There is a battle going on inside my head,
Where I fight with myself.
But, surprisingly the weaker me wins everytime.
Jun 26, 2020
Jun 26, 2020 at 3:02 AM UTC
Tonight I'd smile,
'Cause it was a good day. It gave me some hope.
Tonight I'd cry,
'Cause I fear I was not supposed to smile. They won't like it.
Tonight I'd dance,
'Cause due to fear my heart is beating fast, sounding like an old drum.
Tonight I'd dream
'Cause that world is the only relief.
Tonight I'd live
'Cause there is a little time left as....
Tonight I'd die
'Cause there's no reason to live.
Sep 3, 2019
Sep 3, 2019 at 12:49 PM UTC
Working emotionless
With a void inside that day,
No feelings no regrets
Or maybe I just didn't say.
Why was I feeling that.
Anxiousness.
Mind asking questions
And framing 59 possible answers.
Listening to people
But I didn't know where my thoughts were.
Heart racing for no reason
Sat there clenching my shirt
Shivering hands and I felt as if
Life is flowing out of me
It's going
It's 23:59 and soon will be 24
And then everything will be over...
Tell me how much time do I have
So that I can live now
Apr 29, 2019
Apr 29, 2019 at 1:09 PM UTC
Don't talk to yourself
When the time's not right
When there is no light
When you can no longer fight
Don't talk to yourself.
Don't talk to yourself
When you're in pain
And there's no gain
'Cause it's vain
Don't talk to yourself.
Don't talk to yourself
While cleaning your desk
Don't talk to yourself
Don't make it a burlesque
Hey, I know reader,
You must be feeling hazy
Don't talk to yourself just don't talk to yourself
'Cause they might think you're crazy...
Nov 20, 2017
Nov 20, 2017 at 11:10 AM UTC
Those ruffling sheets
Those unheard screams
Haunting my memories
Haunting my dreams.
Yes..helpless I was
A little doll in someone's hands
He played with me all the time
Tied me with ropes and bands.
For years and years
I kept my mouth shut
No one should know
Shh shh no matter what.
Years passed
And then I broke free
Revealed to someone
The secret of me.
I had someone
By my side
Oh I could stand stroms
And I never cried.
Then he came again
The game once more begun
But the one I'd take a bullet for
Was standing behind the gun.
So now I stand here
And get shot everyday
A liquid oozes from me
But it's grey.
Sep 27, 2017
Sep 27, 2017 at 1:50 PM UTC
Silence everywhere
Howling wind could be heard
I was walking amidst the crowd
Where the accident occurred.
Tearing away the crowd
I walked to the middle
A girl was lying there
Her identity was a riddle.
I walked towards her
To find out who was she
My heart skipped a beat
'Cause she looked like me.
I touched her face
Or maybe I touched mine
Oh! the horror
A shiver ran down my spine.
Everyone looked at her
No one noticed me
'Cause I was no more
All that was left was she.
Sep 25, 2017
Sep 25, 2017 at 9:11 AM UTC
Worries, expectations, failures,
Stress, tension, those haviors,
Dark nights, shining chandeliers,
Pain, guilt, and remorse,
Digging roots of its source,
The presence of a concourse,
The horror of that pain,
Legs bound in a chain,
Those memories haunting again,
Wicked people of the world,
Curled and uncurled,
How their words swirled,
Is what doesn't let me rest,
Everything that I detest,
Stings again on my chest.
Aug 30, 2017
Aug 30, 2017 at 3:46 AM UTC
It was black
And everything seemed uncertain.
That fear of losing everything.
That feeling of not being good enough
When they said
YOU CAN'T.
Black it was
Wherever I looked.
So I embraced it
And let it devour me...
Aug 26, 2017
Aug 26, 2017 at 1:52 PM UTC
Bears everything,
Never utters a word.
Smiling always,
But inside she is hurt.
Aug 25, 2017
Aug 25, 2017 at 11:02 AM UTC