gray-rain

Everything seems so shallow,
like my masculinity is my purpose,
like a shield to protect everyone around me,
but I'm only protecting myself.
when no one needs protecting.
I don't know who I am anymore

feminine masculinity

Sadness became a part of me
taking everything I know
making it all gray
That's what I am

Trying to think of a new way to live 
falling into old traps
spitting fire on my old life
trying to forget how to go back

Looking for a way to love
find a way to pick myself back up
gray isn't all I was meant to be