always crude to everyone
even a discomfort to herself
certain times is willing to help out
but cannot even fix herself
admits that everything is well
to not be a disturbance
certain times is willing to open up
but still feel glum
it doesn't feel right and normal
to prefer to be disregarded
mostly wishing to end everything
but stays for the people she love
it is ultimately true and real
that she ruins what she touches
mostly wishing to find a remedy
but strangely fine with her state
{k. l.}
Aug 8, 2017
Aug 8, 2017 at 10:32 PM UTC
when someone bids goodbye
then i plead them to stay
and try to make a way
deep in my heart i respect their choice
but these tears are not of joy
and i will surely miss that voice
no more artsy man of the group
and four of them are left
i wish everything is back on loop
when someone commands me to do stuff
deciding to follow mine or theirs
leaves me, making it more tough
if i followed their option for me
i won't feel like i want to flee
they know what is good for me
yet i ignored it and followed mine
now here i am sticking to my plan
others pointed out the risks
making me **** out from this world
yet i have five angels
saving and cheering me up
i have two kind-hearted friends
with their shoulders to cry on
though i want to be gone
(k.l.)
Mar 26, 2015
Mar 26, 2015 at 12:58 PM UTC
maybe i can't confess
curse my faintheartedness
maybe i like you
for we like and hate the same thing
maybe you're too good for me
every little thing about you is gold
maybe i'm only a friend to you
it hurts to hear you talk about her
maybe i'm a shrinking violet
that way i can hide it all
maybe that's it.
Jul 26, 2014
Jul 26, 2014 at 12:50 PM UTC
remember how you used to love me,
we valued our special kinship
different states but connected,
all those years discarded like a rag
i can't help myself to reminisce,
when we stayed up late chattering
and talking about our fav bands,
plus the secrets both of us keep safe
everything comes to a dead end,
and we ended ours today
i still remember our moments,
but people commit mistakes
i couldn't fathom why you feel fine
while i vision you in my thoughts,
it's odd like you left an imprint
but you really departed my life
i won't blame your newfound queen
for i have my own faults too
and that is lack of confession
mixed with a chunk of oblivion
the phrases stings and echoes
making me nearly psychotic
i will wait for my newfound prince
and i hope he shows up and stay,
i can't fight my own demons
(k.l)
Jul 17, 2014
Jul 17, 2014 at 5:35 AM UTC
you are the fire that burns me
it brings me back to life
so i never complain
the sea that engulfs me
i love how it kisses my skin
as i slowly drown
the wind that weakens me
then a snowstorm froze my flesh
nothing can thaw it
Jul 5, 2014
Jul 5, 2014 at 12:47 PM UTC
the radiant days and her reminisce about her and him;
casually chilling out together
no knots to untie; their ways unblock
but everything ends for a reason
bleak skies and her thoughts in chaos;
shattered trust and a frantic heart
but is still hoping to see him;
to search for the answer
terrified of the approaching time;
doubtless of what she'll hear
May 6, 2014
May 6, 2014 at 2:58 AM UTC
he's perfect to me even if he wears a paper bag,
if only time slows down when we play games together
and it feels like my heart starts to lag,
my fingers shakily pressing the keyboard
it seems crazy that I like a tall boy,
cliche things are running in my brain right now
teasing, hugging, the "on my tiptoes kiss" and a kiss on my temple
the horror-themed games we both want to play,
I can be the compass and guide you on your way
the name he owns matches his features,
plus his light laughs that I want to keep in my head
I try not to worry about my future,
knowing that I am out of his league
is there someone who can read minds?
and help me read out his thoughts,
just to put an end to this sleepless nights
I want to stop being a hopeless romantic teen
but why can't I just delete or restart everything?...
Feb 19, 2014
Feb 19, 2014 at 1:52 AM UTC
You got your revenge young boy,
I completely felt like a toy now
But now I will be stronger,
and believe that I can conquer this situation
Now that there's no hope for you and me,
and you are with somebody else
Such a liar you were,
telling me that you only have eyes for me
Really nice greeting for my birthday month,
my mother hates you
my friends despise you
my dad wants to put you down
I really can't believe you did that ****
Oct 2, 2013
Oct 2, 2013 at 8:33 AM UTC
I like things that sends me to euphoria,
music for example
It helps me to calm down and just relax
pop and rock music is what I love the best
If I'm bored or just lying around with my dog,
I grab a book or open the Wattpad app to go on adventures
where meeting your favorite bands can happen
I also check some phrases under Proverbs and try to apply it in my life
And my sport is swimming,
how I randomly swim around and the water comes in contact with my hair
I sometimes wish I was a mermaid so I can live underwater.
Sep 18, 2013
Sep 18, 2013 at 10:08 AM UTC
She runs out of breathe whenever he's around
making her insides flip and die
Worthless feelings trying to abscond
knowing that he won't come by her side
For he likes girls who are different from her
smiling through the pain
How she wished that its easy to go yonder
away from every feelings that will happen again
Sep 17, 2013
Sep 17, 2013 at 5:03 AM UTC