I don't want to be here
but nobody cares if I leave
I'm alone
that's all I know
I abandon everything I used to know
**** my old self
now, I can start fresh
it doesn't feel much better
its not really different at all
not like I hoped it would be
I'm sorry. I'm sorry to me.
I can't be happy. I'm sorry.
May 11, 2018
May 11, 2018 at 12:38 AM UTC
I hold the key
To my heart healing
I hold my breath and
When the door slams
We all go running
We're good at hiding
Shh! Stop crying!
You hold the key
To your heart healing
With every tear
Grace is Unlocking
When the door slams...
Aug 19, 2017
Aug 19, 2017 at 12:09 AM UTC
I hated myself yesterday
But something is different today...
I could not breathe yesterday
And again it's different today...
I stood smiling, feeling the hot sun burning everything around me
I stood silent, hearing the cold rain hitting the street before it reached me
Yesterday I was in pain
Today is something different
I'm not myself today
I am something else
Aug 4, 2017
Aug 4, 2017 at 8:02 PM UTC
Don't take this away from me
This is all I've ever dreamed
Your words are tasteless toxic
And they're deteriorating me.
Everything you speak is venom
Crush my teeth trying not to listen
I'm spinning in my attempts
But still your words get in.
Trying to adapt to your cruel intentions...
no hope of escape.
My big heart pulls me back in
Dying daily is my fate.
How do you not care?
Where do you aquire such a skill?
How can you not hear the cry of my people.
Weak and groveling...
Turn my groveling into gold.
Jul 21, 2017
Jul 21, 2017 at 10:17 PM UTC
My first love was not a mistake.
I did not err in loving your ways.
I gave my whole heart, and that's just fine.
I just had to learn that it was always mine.
A heart can never fully break.
Despite what they say
It's just another common cliche
One that you chose to believe
Or one you chose to forsake.
My heart is complete
My heart is whole
Even after everything
I can still love like before
Feb 17, 2017
Feb 17, 2017 at 10:50 AM UTC
Spiraling through
The rhombus night
Missing you
But your mine, you're mine.
Jan 21, 2017
Jan 21, 2017 at 9:44 PM UTC
Water lily, my little beauty, tell me what you see
A deeper blue, but a brighter hue, now that I'm complete
After all my measure, crawling through the water, tell me who to be
I'm still the same, just a little changed, say you still love me
Dec 7, 2016
Dec 7, 2016 at 11:05 AM UTC
Water lily, my little beauty, tell me what you see?
A deeper blue, but a brighter hughe, now that I'm complete...
After all my measure, crawled through the water, tell me who to be?
I'm still the same, just a little changed, say you still love me?
Dec 7, 2016
Dec 7, 2016 at 10:56 AM UTC
I want it to be different. I do..
I don't want to remember this. Or you..
Each new day starts over afresh.
But I'm slit open again.
This nightmare won't end...
Everytime its the same.
Everyday nothing's changed
Nothing will ever change.
You say you'll stop.
You hold my hope,
Why the surprise when you let it drop?
Always say you'll stop.
You hold my hope,
Why the surprise when you let it drop?
You say you want to
but I don't believe you.
So say all you want,
I won't believe you.
Waste all that talk,
I still won't follow.
Lies lies lies... all you speak are lies...
What's hidden underneath?
Lies lies lies... all those wasted lies...
But the truth still finds you..
Nov 27, 2016
Nov 27, 2016 at 9:55 PM UTC
You're my star in the distance
You have all my heart
Although we are different
And so far apart.
You shine a low blue light
That burns hotter
Than my bright light
You're my star in the distance
You have all my heart
Although we are different
And so far apart.
Your smile is sweet
Always asking for more
You radiance is engulfing
All the way to the core
You're my star in the distance
You have all my heart
Although we are different
And so far apart.
Oct 16, 2016
Oct 16, 2016 at 2:44 PM UTC