i believe you said your last goodbye
and you finally left my mind
fossils are ready to be found
but i guess you're no longer inside
i have stoped writing about you
no more poems
or cravings left too
i had never felt this empty before
not loving you
turned me into a fool
at some point i knew that things
had to change
it could no longer be this way
but i have forgoten the taste of love
and i no longer believe in it
you were the toughest love
and so difficult to find
Sep 21, 2014
Sep 21, 2014 at 5:41 PM UTC
everything seems to be changing
time after time
our broken pieces mend up
or we get more tinier
each day by day
but i'm still empty
and my unconsciousness is leading me
to a path where i'm losing my way
each day by day
i wonder
where will this go
will it hurt me anymore
and then life pats me on my shoulder
saying it will be okay
no stop lying
i know it's not
nothing in this life is easy
and we have to accept the truth sometimes
or we end up lying at ourselves
and being the one to cry
each day by day
i'm learning lessons
no1: don't trust anyone other than yourself
and i've made my limits between people
fought with many mad faces
but this is the truth
i'm all alone after all
and unwanted
in this world
and i know
i know
i
know
i am unwanted
by everyone
and the world
Mar 4, 2014
Mar 4, 2014 at 4:11 PM UTC
i know the truth i know what's going on
everything is simple and i know
we're not meant to be together
when you said that you loved the smell of my hair
or the way you looked right into my eyes
while i was talking to someone else
and the time when you told me about your dreams
i know those were actually nothing
i always knew these
and tried to keep away from the truth
just fooled myself
i don't know why i stabbed the knife
deeper into my heart when it was already
half way inside
that doesn't make sense at all
why would anybody want to hurt themselves
when they're already cut into small pieces?
it never made sense to me...
but i had already fell for you and hit the ground hard
and when i fell down
deep inside my heart
i always wished that
maybe things
could get
repaired..?
and one day you'd give me a chance
prove that distance could never come between us
but insted
you taught me that it was easy to not care
i feel like things don't make sense in these days
it has been 6 months and i haven't seen your face
is it really that easy to forget about someone?
i'm trying to figure that out
i hope i can find my answers
and sew my deepest cuts
Jan 30, 2014
Jan 30, 2014 at 6:12 PM UTC
loving a guy made me a fool this time
maybe it was because he never knew me
or took a time for it
as days went on by i realized
how often he was in my life
when i wasn't even for a second on his mind
days weeks and months
and i was just in love with a boy
that didn't even know my name
and then the day came
when it was the time for him to leave
i was numb after it for days
how could someone that i didn't know
could make me sad and desperately in love
i never had an idea about that
and then he left
i thought that it was over
too bad that it wasn't
it has been 8 months since he has left today
and he didn't leave my mind for once
i think i'm sick
all i do is regret this situation
at one point
i wish i had told my feelings for him
Jan 26, 2014
Jan 26, 2014 at 6:14 PM UTC
when i say that i mean something it's because i really - i really do tell it from my heart when i say that it's true i really do think it is and whenever i think about it my heart crumbles and the salty tears burn my eyes i want to scream from deep inside my lungs i want to let the monster outside that has been controlling my mind and then i know - i know that you don't believe me and you just think that i'm talking and my words are just meaningless it really breaks my heart everytime you say what i'm saying isn't true but it really is i don't know how to make you believe it but it really is please believe me when i say something because i mean it
Jan 11, 2014
Jan 11, 2014 at 3:40 PM UTC
it takes seconds for me to make a decision
i barely think about the consequences anymore
and i end up with hating myself
sometimes i'm full of cherish and joy
and sometimes i just yell at people
i'm mad or sad or something that i don't know
it takes seconds after me to realize
that i hurt everyone but mostly myself
and i don't know what's wrong
i just can't control my feelings
everything changes and i find myself lost
in somewhere i don't know
all of these takes seconds for me
only a few seconds
to ruin everything
Jan 8, 2014
Jan 8, 2014 at 5:29 PM UTC
it's weird how we chace after things
that we want the most
and forget about what we leave behind
it's weird how we care about someone so much
when they don't even know about us
or worse, don't care
it's weird how we can go mad in seconds
say things that we never wanted to say
and can hurt someone's feelings
it's just weird for most of the people
to admit that i love someone so much
that i hardly know - and miss them a lot
they say:
"you're in love with the boy you've created from your mind"
it might be true though but believe me it's just you
that i'm truly in love with
and i though that you could notice me
and maybe one day "love me"
i've just dreamed the whole time
it's weird how i can't cope up with these feelings
anymore
when i struggled for two years
"for someone i guess i don't even really know"
Dec 18, 2013
Dec 18, 2013 at 4:45 PM UTC
"today" she said
was the last time i saw your face
around 3pm at a café
"today" was the first time i couldn't talk to you
got stuck
whenever i tried to speak a word
"today" is the time i felt so sure of
falling in love with you despite the distance
and not talking with you for 5 months
"today" is the day i hate myself for being shy
and not telling you my feelings
from the begining
and mostly "today"
is full of regrets
and every month i celebrate it
Nov 25, 2013
Nov 25, 2013 at 6:14 PM UTC
it was the 24th of may when i first saw you
9.30 pm a bit chilly outside
i could hear the music playing so loud
as i walked in
suddenly i saw you infront of the door
as our eyes met eachother
i had a sudden feeling;
like knives cutting my stomach and lungs and
my heart
i swear to god i lost myself in that second
and when you hugged me
it was the best feeling in the world
suddenly the coldness was gone
you were there right beside me
and i could feel your warmth
your smell
for the first time
and i think those two minutes we had together
will be the best memory of us
Nov 16, 2013
Nov 16, 2013 at 6:04 PM UTC
every winter i wait for it to snow
cover up the road
and get excited for feeling it
while playing snowball fight
i get hit by the snow on my face
my face gets red burns everywhere
but i love the snow so much that
i can't just let go and leave
cause i know that the snow isn't here forever
every winter i start loving you like the snow
again and again eventhough the pain
and i know you'll be leaving soon
i'm still waiting for you my snow
please be sure to be a snowflake this time
and don't hurt me for once please
i'm really tired
but know that i'll always be loving you
my snow
Nov 11, 2013
Nov 11, 2013 at 4:40 PM UTC