Today I dance inside my head
Today I dance for words unsaid
Today I dance and dance again
Me, my words and feelings we spin
And the world will never know
I love to dance
Because outside
I'm just as still
as the background I am in.
Apr 14
Apr 14, 2026 at 11:24 PM UTC
Wake up Mom!
Run, lock the door!
It's too early
I'm scared
He's trying to break in
He's danger
God stop him
He violently shakes the door
She holds on tight
He looses grip
Disappears into the night
But my fight
Begins
To survive
Early labor
Doctors
Experimental drugs
Thank you God
We survived!
Apr 14
Apr 14, 2026 at 11:23 PM UTC
Please Mom
Choose life
I beg you
Hear me
Not his anger
Not the clinic doors
Not the doctors orders
Hear
Hearts pounding
Emotions, tears
Realization
It's your choice
I'm not an infection
I'm alive
In here
Thank you
Mom
I'm alive!
Apr 14
Apr 14, 2026 at 11:16 PM UTC
Before I was conceived I chose
to exist within this life of decay
And although I cannot remember why
I can only imagine it was for its experiences
to sense and perceive life in an alternate way
To desire life with its pleasures, its beauty
But did I really want to exist
with pain, suffering, and fear?
Did the good outweigh all the bad?
Or was I so alone without these
that I took them all, just to feel alive?
Because above all I do feel alive
and desire life with all my heart.
Apr 14
Apr 14, 2026 at 11:11 PM UTC
I'm quiet
never putting up a fight
you may think I'm shy
with nothing to say
always second guessing
worried if my words came out right
I'm still that little girl
who learned peace from fear
who's been hiding all these years
wanting to be heard
but fearing I'll be hurt
look me in the eyes
can you see me reaching out?
desperate
for your attention
afraid of rejection
I turn and look away
I'm still that little girl
who keeps peace because of fear
who's been hiding all these years
wanting to be heard
but fearing I'll be hurt
I'm living in regret
for all the words
I haven't said
the words I let you steal
the words that would let me feel
the words that could make me real
cause I'm still that little girl
who hates the peace that comes from fear
it's been hiding me all these years
I want to be heard
without fearing I'll be hurt
so open up your ears
cause you need to hear
that I need to leave this place
where fear dominates
where abuse creates fear
and peace is fears masquerade
I don't want to be that little girl
who creates peace in fear
don't want to hide anymore
I need to be heard
without fearing I'll be hurt.
Apr 14
Apr 14, 2026 at 11:10 PM UTC
The apple hung
without knowing fear
without knowing death
until temptation robbed it
and me and you
and all of life
and we must be charged
because we came from Him
whom created the temptation
that devoured the apple
that desired fear
and wanted death
for all of us to share.
But temptation
was not His intention
and death was not His answer
His choice was freedom
but we took advantage
of His generosity
desiring to have it all
and yet still He loves us
with His grace so amazing
that He gave to us
His only begotten Son
Whom conquered death
and wanted eternal life
for all of us to share.
Jan 11
Jan 11, 2026 at 8:02 PM UTC
My word, my words
whats going on?
my life, my song
you’re writing wrong
I know
I have the heart of a child
but the music you give
is all too wild
my beat is steady
but your drums are loud
I hear your thunder
darken my clouds
then your player
pounds me to the ground
and on my knees
I continue this round
I cry and I beg
for another chance
as I struggle
to continue my dance
but your strum is precise
in its pluck
as it singles me out
as the one without luck
my tears and fears collide
in my collapse
as my song is skipped
to an alternative track
now here I am
where you want me to be
humble and lost
in your raging sea.
If only I knew then
what I should've known
My eyes would've seen
that You're the one
telling me
I have the heart of a child
while the the liar he told me
my life was too wild
You're the one
Whom gave me the steady beat
while the liar he told me
I was in defeat
You're the one
Whom held me and my tears
while the liar he told me
to live in fear
You're the one
Whom picked me up to dance
while the liar
he told me
life will give me no chance
and as lost as the liar
told me to be
You're the one
Whom came and rescued me.
Jan 11
Jan 11, 2026 at 7:58 PM UTC
Written in stone
Your words
In this child’s heart
Too young to understand
It wasn’t me
It was PTSD
How could I make you see
It was never the way you were thinking
It was truly innocent
Too young to understand
It wasn’t me
It was PTSD
Pedal to the metal
Heading toward disaster
Fear and confusion
Too young to understand
It wasn’t me
It was PTSD
Knife to your wrist
Begging and pleading
Tears overflowing tiny faces
Too young to understand
It wasn’t me
It was PTSD
Anger and disillusion
You’re chasing me
Questioning who I am
Too young to understand
It wasn’t me
It was PTSD
And when my eyes finally see
I can’t be angry
I can’t blame
Because after all
It wasn’t you
It was PTSD.
Jul 26, 2019
Jul 26, 2019 at 5:21 PM UTC
Wasted so much time blaming You
Forgetting Your name, believing lies
And still You knew I would find You
And that was enough for You
To never let go
And I Thank You, for that day has come
And I do remember Your promise
And like a child (again) I am in awe of You
For out of the water You raised me
And into Your arms You reminded me
I am forgiven because You love me
And now Your Holy Spirit is in this temple
And I know I am forever Loved
Unconditionally
Jun 7, 2019
Jun 7, 2019 at 2:46 PM UTC
Time stands still
From Earths perch
As darkness falls
Illuminating the Heavens
Magnanimously revealing
Your eternity of light
With this stargazer in awe
Of Your endless life
Mar 24, 2019
Mar 24, 2019 at 11:44 PM UTC