she's calling me with hushed serenades,
sweet lullaby breath
instructed by celestial sheet music
she is the night in motion as she kisses me,
and I am careful to keep my distance
lest she knocks me off my feet
Jun 26, 2015
Jun 26, 2015 at 2:19 AM UTC
I thought I had swallowed
every last piece of you
when I chewed you up
and chewed you out
but here I am a year later,
pulling pieces of you out of my teeth
May 22, 2015
May 22, 2015 at 12:31 AM UTC
I felt whole
without
reaching for
your hand
and
my ears buzzed
until they
rang with silence
I stepped into
a storm --
tame rain,
wild lightning,
clean water, pure quiet.
May 5, 2015
May 5, 2015 at 12:32 AM UTC
he seeped into my life slowly
and it was like being 8 again and
finding myself
suddenly carted 12 hours away
to a new life, one
that feels like brand new shoes
but suddenly it's broken in
& everything was familiar
& he was familiar
before I could even drag
my heels in resistance
he spilled words and ideas,
I licked them up like the coffee
that I carry, escaping onto its lid
and he is borderless
I am walking under a blue sky
unpunctuated by clouds,
it is endless &
the dopamine rush makes everything brighter
I look up and I am lost at sea
the sky is so blue
I am lost in his smile and his quirks
& God, he's so awkward
but I feel safe
like
I never want to leave
&
maybe I'll tell him everything
&
bitter coffee spills again on its lid
I sip it slowly
the sky is so blue,
so deep,
he is endless,
how am I not drowning
May 1, 2015
May 1, 2015 at 2:10 AM UTC
April is all graveyards and hauntings
I see carnations instead of tulips,
I see your ghost everywhere
she & I talk in hushed tones on the phone
sentences breaking under the
weight of the words they hold
I wonder if you know that all I want
is to love one person as much as she loves you
and here I am seeing your spirit in their bones
and all I know how to do is to
throw rope to anyone who will catch it
because even when I am sinking,
I'm shoving someone else to the surface
I am trying to save
the bits and pieces of you
as if I pull this one away from darkness,
I am saving you,
as if I push that one toward the light,
I am saving myself
I wonder what you'd say
if you knew I'd all but
abandoned my religion
what you'd say
if I told you all of the
memories taste bittersweet
I wonder what you'd say if I told you
that nothing you built up was
strong enough to
soften the blow
and nothing you'd say now matters
because you tore it all down
Apr 24, 2015
Apr 24, 2015 at 1:03 AM UTC
what a pair we are
walking down the street
you cloaked in cynicism,
and I draped in doubt
Apr 2, 2015
Apr 2, 2015 at 8:24 PM UTC
I listen to cars roar past on the busy road around the corner
and here I am with sighs waiting on my lips
and here I am without you
Apr 2, 2015
Apr 2, 2015 at 12:00 AM UTC
neither of us can see the other
when between us there's this smoke screen
and they've all projected images
so now I'm covered in movie scenes
none of them feel like me
I'm reaching for your hand now
because I don't want you to go
but you can't see me clearly
you don't know what I know
Mar 29, 2015
Mar 29, 2015 at 3:13 PM UTC
you taste like cinnamon
but you smell like kerosene
my heart is on fire
and my flesh is burning
Mar 25, 2015
Mar 25, 2015 at 3:16 PM UTC
look me in the eyes
I'll turn you to stone
I want to have someone
I won't have to let go
I promise to love you
I won't let you crack
you'll have your own corner
with your very own plaque
darling if you never change,
I'll never have to let you go
look me in the eyes
and let me turn you to stone
Dec 27, 2014
Dec 27, 2014 at 2:23 AM UTC