I remember a millennia ago
When I was the god of small fires
And you were the god of kindling
How even then I desired you
The ashes of us oroborous
How I consumed you and you blazed for me
We are lesser now
Not gods anymore, with no believers
A smaller prayer than I was once
But still my name feels holy in your mouth
Our love like smoke
Unseen, but deeply felt
My voice coarse and thick with it
You linger in me even lifetimes later
With no prayers, no pantheon
Just us, aflame
Oct 22, 2025
Oct 22, 2025 at 7:26 AM UTC
I take all the wolf from my smile,
spin her back into sheep
let flowers grow from the cotton of her body
and revel in the softness of snarl
I have been killing chickens in my sleep,
sneaking out and slashing tyres
there is a breadcrumb trail of bones
leading to my closet, and i won't open it
i'm not brave enough for the mirror my monsters are,
i can still taste the marrow on my tongue
but i promise i've been brushing my teeth
drinking rose water and smiling
trying to sand off all my edges
forget the taste of anger and violence
and its hard when i've got foxgloves for kisses
all poison to taste, but they're pretty,
i tried stepping softly and felt the slip-shape
of prey back to predator, relearnt the padfoot
felt the great black dog inside me stir
had to rummage under the bed for the shotgun
put my cheek to it until she stopped her howling
i cried down the barrel for hours,
tied lace around my wrists and become jailor to my heart
**** her with kindness, but i couldn't, not quite,
all soft touch and lilted tongue i lull her back
to those creaking bars of my ribcage
peg her to my spine and place the ****** carcass
of the last boy we bit at beside her
grow sunflowers in my room and black out the curtains
we can stay here until she learns peace
learns to cry over his body like i did,
forgets blood and hate and their taste
we will learn tenderness in a dark room
howl at an empty sky until the stars take pity on us,
two-step to earth and bring the light back
open the closet, spin skeletons back to cloth,
the slate gray dust of us has grown flowers,
rage trapped in pink-ribbon dreamcatcher wishes
her lips don't lift from her teeth anymore
and i can sleep with door unlocked
i can sleep with the closet open
Oct 22, 2025
Oct 22, 2025 at 7:22 AM UTC
I love you like birds love flying
Like wings
Like a limb they can’t imagine not having
I love you like Icarus
Like yesterday I thought I was crashing to earth
Until you kissed my shoulder softly in the morning
Took me out of the sea and back to the sky
I love you like I can see magic around us
Like earths magnetic field is just a long string
Winding back to you
I love you like Ariadne and Theseus
(But only the good parts)
Like I find you and we go home together
Like sparrows around the whole world and back to my bedroom
I love you like a homing beacon
Like a nest, like a roost
Like building a blanket fort and spending the day there
I love you like a window seat
Like watching birds in the sunlight
I love you like a bird loving the sunlight
I love you like wings
Like air
Like breathing
Like it’s easy
Like it’s so easy to love you
And I do
I do
Oct 22, 2025
Oct 22, 2025 at 7:14 AM UTC
There is a bowl of cherries in my room
Red and sinful and luscious
And I have been going to work each day
Thinking of their plump little bodies
Of my open window
The flies surely lured by their sweetness
The June heat that aches to rot them
I think of their skin breaking between my teeth
Of maggots writhing in their meat
I have been coming home
Pressing secret handfuls to my lips
Gluttonous
And
Ashamed
Oct 22, 2025
Oct 22, 2025 at 7:12 AM UTC
Introducing his lovely assistant
Sequin dress and smiling mouth
From his tuxedo sleeve he pulls a Rose
Presents it to the smiling girl
And bows to the audience who revel, ecstatic, at this small miracle.
He plucks behind her ear and finds another rose,
Another, in the crook of her elbow,
Behind her knee,
All the soft places he touches and drags Flower and thorn from the skin
And the lovely assistant: bleeding, smiling
The audience is in awe.
For his next trick, he tips his hat
A picture of chivalry, a gentleman’s gesture
And crooning from his head is the dove
Off-white and malnourished, eyes wide and fearful
Fleeing the scene like smoke from a burning house
The audience is clapping and roaring and howling
And a silence descends
For his final act, calling on his assistant
With her clipped wings and blossoming body,
He cuts the girl in half
Desecrates and diminishes her
Does it with a flourish and a sweeping of his hand
Makes her less than what her mother made her
And the crowd, jubilant, screaming
Leaping from their seats
He takes a bow
And the world is a stage
Oct 22, 2025
Oct 22, 2025 at 7:02 AM UTC
my loneliness is larger than me
heavier, too
my loneliness the thick blanket
good for hiding under
my loneliness shields me from demons in the dark
but provides no warmth
my loneliness a cold fire I still sit beside
palms upturned, craving peace
my loneliness the war that rages unending
bodies left in a ****** wake
my loneliness the vultures swirling
I have never been very strong
my loneliness knows this, as she knows
all my other bitter secrets
my loneliness licks her smiling lips
opens her screaming maw
my loneliness is larger than me
deadlier, too
Nov 27, 2019
Nov 27, 2019 at 11:00 AM UTC
I can hear my bones talking to God, they ask him why he hates us and he says he wrote the fracture lines in our skin with perfect precision, he did not create us with the knowledge to heal.
And yet.
Oct 27, 2019
Oct 27, 2019 at 8:15 AM UTC
