"I've lost all hopes" that's what I said,
Deep down I knew I wanna feel the red.
Not the one I've always felt,
The rage and the anger welled,
Something different but filled with flutters,
But isn't my mind all clutters.
And that's when he came unannounced,
Making me coy and my heartbeat bounced,
When asked "Were you woven into my path by fate?",
"My heart knew you were worth the wait",
That smirk and the way the words flew caught me off guard,
Then my heart screamed "Maybe love this time won't be that hard".
Jan 1
Jan 1, 2026 at 1:53 PM UTC
At night that question comes knocking at my door,
One day I know the answer, another it's I don't know.
I want to set free of these muddled thoughts,
Like breaking out of the tightly tied knots.
I don't want to dive right into that atrocious ocean,
The last time I did, it was like drowning in my own emotions.
"That emptiness in my heart, when will it die?"
I say that sentence again and again till I finally sigh.
I mend their hearts because thats who I am,
But where do I go when my heart whams.
Nov 20, 2025
Nov 20, 2025 at 9:42 AM UTC
If my heart could talk I know its first sentence,
"There is someone for me I am not that menace".
He will love me right for all those empty nights,
He will provide solutions for those meaningless fights.
We'll talk on calls and dance in streets,
His name will be scribbled on my sheets,
'Both love both care' kind of love I crave,
A relationship that is soft but still is brave.
I know it exists somewhere waiting for me,
For being the answers to his prayers and the key,
For his locked heart, closed and abandoned by all,
I will promise him to never let us fall.
When I meet him I'll pour in his heart,
All the love I saved for him from the start.
We will begin together a new chapter of our lives,
Hand in hand where forever thrives.
Oct 2, 2025
Oct 2, 2025 at 12:59 AM UTC
And then those words came out of my mouth,
While my heart's been in an endless drought.
"I won't love again, it's too throbbing for me,
Is the world actually the way that I see?
Maybe it isn't all infatuation filled like I think,
Maybe it will vanish as soon as I blink,
Maybe I am not meant for it",
So why does my heart feel like it will split?
I have desired and longed for it till i finally lost,
My whole life I have suffered from the frost.
"It's okay" I repeat it again and again till I finally accept,
Maybe that's how my story is supposed to be kept.
Sep 25, 2025
Sep 25, 2025 at 11:34 AM UTC
that question lingers again,
when im trying to attain,
the memories of the past,
but the years were too vast,
to even remember that inquest,
but i have a society to rest.
it will always remain the same,
me burning in the flame,
it bruising me blue,
of thinking is it even true?
I'll blame myself again, or
depreciate my fate,
but it was only me as a bait.
as i try to finally recall,
i remember it all.
"the question was why not me?"
"why don't i get to be glee?"
but the answer will remain the same,
"you don't have a name,
how can an obscure get a happy ending?
no ones there to be defending,
you should already admit defeat"
but how do i tell them i don't like to be incomplete.
Sep 2, 2025
Sep 2, 2025 at 1:21 PM UTC