i'm on my bed, uncovered.
the fan is on,
it's pleasantly cool.
and my eyelids are heavy,
i'd love to sleep right about now.
hang on, what will happen tomorrow?
let's see, this could happen, or that could happen.
don't those sound fun?
i can't really stop these thoughts,
they're like mosquitos.
there's one buzzing around your head,
trying to **** the life out of you.
then pops in another thought, another mosquito.
and another. and another.
they seemingly never stop multiplying,
attacking you.
they drain the energy out of you,
and you just sit there and let it happen.
i'd love to sleep right about now.
Sep 10, 2018
Sep 10, 2018 at 3:14 AM UTC
i keep forgetting to breathe
i seem to go into autopilot mode
Sep 10, 2018
Sep 10, 2018 at 3:01 AM UTC
everytime i think about what's to come, a dreadful feeling builds up in my chest and weighs me down.
everytime i think about the things i have to do, a lump in my throat stops me from talking.
Sep 10, 2018
Sep 10, 2018 at 2:55 AM UTC
i want to talk
but the words don't come out
for i fear
you would find it uncomfortable
i want to talk
but i don't know how to say it
because my feelings
are a complete mess
i want to talk
but i don't know if you'd even appreciate the gesture
because i'm scared
that you will see me different
all i want to do is talk about how you feel
ask about how your day was
why you're not very excitable when your sister asks you to watch a movie you love
but you don't respond the way i hope you do
i don't know how to talk to you
Jun 25, 2018
Jun 25, 2018 at 12:57 AM UTC
he's feeling something like love
she's also feeling something like love
he's unsure
she's confident
he's timid
she's brave
he's scared to commit
she's willing to commit
so she asks him
he rejects her
now both he and she are unsure
timid
scared to commit
Jun 23, 2018
Jun 23, 2018 at 6:47 PM UTC
the future gleams bright
and i could put in effort
but i dont want to
Jun 23, 2018
Jun 23, 2018 at 5:20 PM UTC
you love me like a mother loves a child
but i only love you like a monkey loves a banana
i'm so scared i can't even take this seriously
Jun 17, 2018
Jun 17, 2018 at 6:03 PM UTC
a word
can mean one or two things
a word
can be a happy thing and a sad thing
a word
has all the power
to make it
or break it
Jun 13, 2018
Jun 13, 2018 at 1:05 AM UTC
people do this
it's all the rage
i do this
i assume no one cares
i put myself
though this toxic habit
every day
Jun 11, 2018
Jun 11, 2018 at 5:32 PM UTC
on a highway lined with palm trees
seated next to each other in the car
he was upset
i wanted to put my hand out
for him to hold,
for him to be comforted
but i did nothing
and we rode in silence
Jun 11, 2018
Jun 11, 2018 at 5:17 PM UTC