stop giving me false hope to cling onto—
there’s nothing there.
i’m tired;
i’m drained.
my love for you—once ever-present and clear—now a burden, dry and bare.
all the pleading
to let me adore you;
you could not have said once,
‘i don’t see a future beside you’?
i am in shambles
over a lover
i never had,
nor never knew.
how to love one who never loved you?
don’t.
~g.r.~
Jan 9, 2023
Jan 9, 2023 at 12:08 AM UTC
a mini-fridge for alcohol,
a rat-dog to cuddle,
a roku for watching movies,
and an april fools prank call.
there is a lot that i could say,
but i could not say it all.
i wish we could all stay,
but one is gonna go away.
my roommates are my favorite,
the ones i like to turn to.
i do not know how to manage,
because without y'all i'd be a savage.
-g.r.
Apr 17, 2021
Apr 17, 2021 at 3:59 PM UTC
i don't know
how to not talk to you,
how to not ask how your day has gone,
how to not tell you i miss you.
i don't know
how to not love you.
i don't know
how to be me without being a part of you.
- g.r.
Apr 8, 2020
Apr 8, 2020 at 9:39 PM UTC
I learned to stop counting the days since you left.
Jul 12, 2019
Jul 12, 2019 at 12:16 AM UTC
I keep pulling back
Because I know I give too much.
But I can never leave completely
Because too much of you is with me.
Jun 26, 2019
Jun 26, 2019 at 11:34 PM UTC
i’m with my friends
and you hit me up.
i get nervous.
can they hear my heart race?
if they know who it was,
i’d be *******
can’t be a fool and fall for you,
not today,
not again.
“it isn’t right.”
”block him.”
“he’s no good.”
“you can’t wait around.”
what they don’t know
is just ‘cause you’re far away
and don’t message everyday,
doesn’t mean you didn’t care.
and i wouldn’t say you weren’t,
once upon a time,
a dream of mine.
Jun 11, 2019
Jun 11, 2019 at 1:16 AM UTC
i love to listen attentively
to all of your adventuring plans.
the ones where you
do the unthinkable;
reach the unreachable.
becoming close to you
has brought something new:
a brightness or a happiness—
something cheery and sunshiney.
i can’t say anything yet;
it’s all under the wrong circumstances.
if i say something now,
i risk losing you.
this is brand new.
this is so good.
i don’t want to give it all up,
as self-centered it may seem.
but i feel guilty for keeping
the realest of my feelings inside.
what do i say?
what do i do?
how do i act natural
when all i want
is you?
Oct 23, 2018
Oct 23, 2018 at 1:01 AM UTC
i fell so hard and cared for so long.
i promised i wouldn't stop;
i told myself i would keep believing in you.
i don't care anymore.
i see your face and i don't feel anything good for you.
you've become a nuisance.
i'm on my way to forgetting all the good things.
all i can remember now is the bad and the sad.
looking at you ****** me off.
i get it now;
why so many friends told me to stay away.
you're bad for me.
you're not a good person.
no matter how many times you say you are,
you're not.
you're toxic.
i'm glad i'm forgetting you.
i'm done being treated like ****
May 22, 2018
May 22, 2018 at 3:12 PM UTC
wild, intense thoughts
swirl your mind.
the pain you feel
becomes so real.
you see things
beyond what they are.
everything moves
S
L
O
W
with you.
how blessed i am
to know such a soul.
Feb 25, 2018
Feb 25, 2018 at 1:34 PM UTC