Live day by day
Cuz you never know
Today could be your last day
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Seen too many lifeless bodies of good people
Guess this is not a place for the good ones
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If you want to tell me something you should now
My time’s runnin’ out
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i can’t tell if i will die in your hands or by them
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If you’re reading this then it’s too late,
If you’re not my attempt failed
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Everything ends,
I just hoped this would end with my death
Sep 3, 2018
Sep 3, 2018 at 5:48 AM UTC
I wish you could see,
How close I am to death,
I wish you could feel,
The tightening rope around my neck,
I wish we could be once more again,
Together forever with our happy end,
But I know I won’t get it,
I know you’ll forget it,
After I’ll take my life,
I hope I get to say my one last goodbye,
I hope that you’ll be happy,
That you’ll find what I’ve lost,
I hope you won’t be angry,
That I’ve bet my life in cost,
And I’ve lost it,
I have lost my life,
I hope we don’t regret it,
Our child is never born,
I hope that you’ll come,
At that day in a dress so dark,
I hope that you’ll cry,
That you’ve lost me so young,
Cuz I’m crying now,
But you won’t come to help,
You’re too busy with your life,
With your finding yourself,
You’ll only know the cost,
When everything is lost,
You will only say it,
When you’re staring at my cross,
Oh and I know darling that this is taking too long,
But I hope that you’ve read it,
These are my final words.
Jul 25, 2018
Jul 25, 2018 at 11:22 PM UTC
I hope that I could be again,
The one guy that you love,
I hope that I can breathe again,
Next to your heart beating soft,
I hope that I can see again,
The little sparks in your eyes,
I hope that one day I will see you,
Whole dressed in white.
Jul 10, 2018
Jul 10, 2018 at 5:02 PM UTC
I’m sitting on a bench,
Holding a gun pointed to my head,
What would I leave here,
If i left now,
Would you miss me like you never do,
Would you kiss me like you never do,
Would you hold me as you always do,
Would I cry on your shoulder like the usual,
I mean it doesn’t matter,
My head, my mind it will shutter,
Until it finally cracks,
Leaving my scars to burst and me to bleed out.
Mar 4, 2018
Mar 4, 2018 at 5:40 PM UTC
I feel like I'm dying,
Like I'm being torn apart,
This feeling's the last thing that I remember,
My wounded heart,
I wish I could tell you,
Tell you how I love,
I wish you could see through these cursed eyes of mine,
I wish I was normal,
Not ****** up,
I wish I was better,
That I was enough,
But all you can see are the broken pieces of the past,
All of them shattered in my eyes,
You think they are golden,
But I know that they are the eyes of a mad man,
That I once was.
Aug 1, 2017
Aug 1, 2017 at 6:01 PM UTC
I love you I think you knew,
When I look at you,
When I see the little sparks in your eyes,
I just want you to be forever mine,
It's just so hard to say it,
I worry you won't get it,
That I will scare you away,
Even tho I just want you to stay,
It's so hard to describe it,
When I look at you I think I found it,
The innocent smile you make,
The perfect blush you get,
I just can't stop falling in love with you,
I hope you see it the way I do,
After all you're my darling,
And I will love you till drowning,
I will push you to the dreams you have,
I will make you forget,
Everytime you've been hurt,
Because you gave me a reason to live,
And that's the truth.
Jul 2, 2017
Jul 2, 2017 at 8:07 PM UTC
I was little bit happy,
Little bit sad,
Cuz in the end,
You will break my heart,
Still it will be wonderful,
Good times, bad times,
You can never choose,
In the end it doesn't matter,
Nothing matters really,
So take everything you got,
Cuz nothin' better is coming,
You will die like the rest of us,
Resting in our coffins.
Jun 12, 2017
Jun 12, 2017 at 5:33 PM UTC
Today I've hit the rock bottom,
It all crashed down on my shoulders,
But in all the misery I felt,
I couldn't stop thinking about you,
I felt the urge to jump,
But you grabbed me so hard,
You wouldn't let me go,
So please can you stay?
Even when you're not here,
I can feel you hugging me,
I can see you watching over me,
I love you,
I think you should know,
If I died today, I wouldn't have the chance to let you know,
So I will survive another day,
Until you will hold me again,
Take all the pain away,
With your hands on me,
With your smile for me,
I want you forever with me.
Jun 2, 2017
Jun 2, 2017 at 6:20 PM UTC
Am I adicted?
Could I be different?
I have seen so much **** through these eyes of mine,
So much pain I can never explain,
It's just too much to handle,
I'm suprised I'm still here,
Drinkin' and kickin',
Wish I was different,
Wish I knew how it feels,
To be a normal person in these years,
Guess I will never know,
How happiness tastes in this show,
Life is so overrated,
I feel like there's not much to be excited,
There's too much sorrow,
When you know,
All the things which are wrong,
I must've done something terrible,
In my previous life,
Because I don't know how did I deserve to live this life seeing the world through these cursed eyes.
May 30, 2017
May 30, 2017 at 5:24 PM UTC
When the times are dark,
And you can't decide what's right,
Always remember that you will be forever in my heart,
That I will support you no matter the cost,
That I will be at your side even when the world will crash down,
That you're my little golden treasure,
That I won't let down.
May 25, 2017
May 25, 2017 at 6:20 AM UTC