i think i've forgotten
what it feels to be loved
to be truly loved
because everywhere i look,
when compared to other beauty
i'm never enough
i will never be as pretty as her,
nor will i be as outgoing as her
my flaws will emerge
and cover up the good
you'll see me at my worst
and that's probably why they leave
because why love a daisy
when there are roses around me
- 1:56am
Feb 3, 2015
Feb 3, 2015 at 12:28 AM UTC
what is it about you
that makes my heart beat fast
my stomach's butterflies to fly fast
for my knees to fall fast
for my fingers to write words about you so fast
because for the longest time
i've never fallen so fast
and im scared
- a.l.
Jul 16, 2014
Jul 16, 2014 at 3:44 PM UTC
i keep telling myself that im a writer
but i cant even use words
to express what i feel
i havent felt like this in a long time
and im scared because
one again
my words cannot truly express
what i feel
for you
my words were my walls but now
i cant even speak
because my brain cannot function when
you smile
and when you laugh
get away from me
i cant do anything
i need to be able to write something
but i cant because you're here
please
please
leave me before you break my heart
and before i can no longer write
- a.l.
Jul 16, 2014
Jul 16, 2014 at 3:41 PM UTC
how do you know when to give up
because i have no clue
no one taught me how to stop loving
no one told me what to do
when he left
when he stomped away
dropping every piece of me
how do you know when its time to stop crying
because i think i've wasted so many tears
over a boy
who "loved" me
but just actually used
because i dont know when to stop
how do you know when to stop trying
trying to think that there is someone
out there for
me
because im tired, too tired
too broken, too used
how do you know when the world finally
gives up on you
because i think it gave up on me
- a.l.
Jun 7, 2014
Jun 7, 2014 at 12:29 PM UTC
there used to be a time that when people asked me about you
i'd turn into a tomato, blushing when i talk about you
my lips curve into a smile
when your name
leaves my lips
my stomach turns and my heart pounds
people could see my eyes glisten with joy
you made sense to me then
yet now
my stomach feels empty
when your name leaves my lips
eyes filled with tears instead of joy
my heart aching when i talk about how much
i love you
wait
how much i
loved
you
now
after two years
im still hung on you
waiting for the chance to be seen
to be loved
by you
once more
- a.l.
May 22, 2014
May 22, 2014 at 1:32 PM UTC
in the palm of my hand
is a pen
that will write my future
into this paper
this paper
has strings that
will ultimately
bring me to my
future
and i am ******* scared
because
i'm 17
and you are asking me
about my future
so early
i don't even
understand how
to solve the minimum
and maximum of a parabola
how do you expect me to choose
what i want to take
when i don't even know
how to balance a checkbook
or how to work in the real world
how do you help me process rejection
how will you help me choose my
plan b
if my plan a fails
- a.l.
May 17, 2014
May 17, 2014 at 9:10 AM UTC
it's not that i don't love you
because i do
but it's because
it's been too long
since i've loved
and i don't remember what it feels like
i love you
but i've never
fallen
in love
with you
that's the difference
between
you
and
me
we're going too fast
you call me baby
and im scared
i don't want to break your heart
but i know i'll be breaking mine
if i don't
stop
this
so forgive me
when i say
i can't be yours
because i haven't fallen
in love
with you
- a.l.
May 17, 2014
May 17, 2014 at 9:02 AM UTC
i met you when i was in love, with your best friend
i thought you were nice
little did i know you'd be my longest friend
i met you two years later
we were still close
even if we hadn't talked
but this time
i felt something for you
thinking you'd never go for
a girl like me
who's broken
so i hid my heart
i meet you two days ago
and there goes my heart
fluttering again
then you kissed my cheek
then i held your hand
and you squeezed it
and i felt like i was falling
in love
for the first time
- a.l.
May 12, 2014
May 12, 2014 at 5:01 AM UTC
take me back
when i was a kid and i cried
over scratches on my knees
take me back
when i was falling
to the ground from
the monkey bars
not from falling in love
take me back
when my first heart break
was realizing kim possible
had ended
take me back
when i hated naps
because i was scared of nightmares
take me back
when everything was perfect
take me back to childhood
because apparently
growing up is ****
- a.l.
May 12, 2014
May 12, 2014 at 3:46 AM UTC
today, when he first held my hand
it shot chills in my spine
and whenever he pulled away
i craved for those chills
i craved for his touch
his breath lingered on my neck
even after he'd left
i crave for him
now
until
i have him
- a.l.
May 10, 2014
May 10, 2014 at 1:01 PM UTC