Its been ages I know
And I am back again
But this time its different
Don't you see?
For you mean absolutely nothing
To me
Dec 3, 2016
Dec 3, 2016 at 3:21 AM UTC
Im 18 now..
Yet all I wanted for my birthday was to disappear
Surrounded by laughing friends
Filled with hate
Is that a way to live a life?
****** off at everything
Maybe another year will bring new answers
And not more problems
Oct 28, 2015
Oct 28, 2015 at 4:08 AM UTC
Id bring you a million roses
but they would weap at the fact
That they could never be
as beautiful as you
Aug 13, 2015
Aug 13, 2015 at 5:54 AM UTC
Its been raining all day today
Yet the only thing I can dream of
Is holding you in my arms
Kissing up your neck
And cuddling the night away
But sadly..
You are an ocean away
The girl I'm dreaming of
Yet cant even hold
The future only holds
A dream and a chance
And soon my darling
You shall be in my arms
Aug 7, 2015
Aug 7, 2015 at 7:02 AM UTC
I could be a ************* prodigy
I don't think
anyone has been this blind
Without physically not being able to see
The mirrors don't show me
The knifes protruding from my back
Jul 16, 2015
Jul 16, 2015 at 11:54 PM UTC
I do not know why
I keep going
I should just jump off a bridge..
It would probably hurt less
Jul 6, 2015
Jul 6, 2015 at 4:27 AM UTC
I would rather
A breakdown
Than sitting here
Feeling so
Empty
And wanting to slit my wrists
Jul 6, 2015
Jul 6, 2015 at 2:43 AM UTC
I am not
The better of two evils
If you ever see me that way
Then I will be the worst evil
Just for you
Jul 5, 2015
Jul 5, 2015 at 6:23 AM UTC
You will never truely know
If the person you are talking to
Is real... or a mask
We live in a time where more and more people are suffering
Depression
Bipolar
ADHD
All kinds of mental illnesses
Masks are needed just to survive
Because like the illness
You get trapped in your head
Screaming for help as you mutter
"Im okay"
"just a cat scratch"
"Sorry, my sharpener is broken"
Fear paralizes those who want to reach out
"They are my friends"
"They dont care about you"
"Ive known them my whole life!"
"Yet they barley know you at all"
How can you help yourself when you cant even stop those voices?
The doubt and hopelessness whispering in your ear...
How can you be confident asking for help when people just leave?
Mental illness is a disease spreading across the world
No, We may not be able to cure
But we as people owe it to those suffering to recognize their pain
And to stay and help those we can
Everyone deserves a saving grace
Jun 29, 2015
Jun 29, 2015 at 6:57 AM UTC
Anti depressants
They are one HELL of a drug
How the hell can you be miserable when everything is so hilarious?
Trust me, you can't!
That's if you can keep your eyes open
It's a glorious rollercoster
What's behind you is the twists and turns of depression
And ahead?
That rise we all desire
UP UP UP IT GOES!
Until the drop...
Like hitting a brick wall full speed..
It hurts.
You plummet back down
Breakdowns and relapses are sometimes outcomes
But don't go off the pills!
That makes you get to the twists and turns again
No no that's no fun
Keep riding the magnificent highs and gloomy lows
Here is your cure darlings
Sure you will still feel like crap, and going off these little white pills makes you bonkers
But hey, you gotta make some kinda sacrifice if you expect to be happy
WARNING: DO NOT take more than prescribed
That's when the real fun starts
Oh and more damage to your head and health
Jun 28, 2015
Jun 28, 2015 at 8:19 PM UTC