Let's die slowly
In each other's company
In each other's arms
In the space between each glance
May 20, 2020
May 20, 2020 at 10:19 PM UTC
You are not like the rain
You never teased my skin
Planting ideas in my head
That grew roots in my heart
The acid Dripping from your tongue,
You burnt me.
The storm raged
The waters haven't calmed since.
I felt love, I Feel love, I bleed hurt
And long for a tsunami
To sweep me from this nightmare.
Come back
Break my skin
Please
Show me what it feels like to love again.
Let me dance in the toxicity
And bathe in the poison
Your scent
Your fumes
Paint
Dirt
Home
A fresh rain falls
I'm drawn back in
Let me drown
May 20, 2020
May 20, 2020 at 10:18 PM UTC
I felt it last night
That feeling of empty.
When you blindly throw trust,
And hungry hands choke it to death.
I couldn't breath.
Skin raw and stung,
You burnt me with a fiery poker,
Branding me a fool.
Calling me out for my desperate need
To be longed for.
I felt numb as you held me.
Yet too hot.
Walls closed in.
I stared at your ceiling,
Wondering when it was okay to leave.
Collect my pride from the floor and go.
I am just a piece of meat
I forgot,
Sorry.
Thank you for reminding me of who I am.
Those moments you left me to my thoughts,
I felt a familiar warmth.
Slightly comforting being alone next to someone
(Slightly messed up is what it is)
I felt slightly nothing.
When I left, your back was turned.
And I could breathe again.
As if I had been holding my breath for 14 hours.
(You had me for 14 hours)
That's how long it takes to learn.
I found money on my way out,
I stole it.
I felt I deserved it.
You wasted me
My time
My body
You insulted my intelligence.
I stole cigarettes as well.
To pull the life back into my lungs.
Funny how something so intimate and personal,
Can become a power grab.
That's when I tune out.
Go limp, numb, turn off my brain.
I wish you had paid me...
Give me a good Yelp review at least
5 stars
**** you.
I felt scared.
**** you
May 16, 2020
May 16, 2020 at 4:28 PM UTC
I have been staring at a piece of paper for weeks
Trying to think of something to write about you
And I can't
To put all of my heart onto one piece of paper, impossible
Try to explain away someone who shares a part of my soul, unthinkable
You are my world, you inhabit the space between my ribs
How do I put that to words
Jan 18, 2017
Jan 18, 2017 at 11:42 PM UTC
The train near our house
cried out mournfully.
Screaming nooooo
every day.
And no one listens
nobody understands.
That it fears
its destination.
I wish I could stand up
make it stop.
Because the screaming
hurts my heart.
If it didn't stop for me,
at least I wouldn't have to hear
that terrible sound
ever again.
Oct 6, 2013
Oct 6, 2013 at 6:32 AM UTC
This friendship
Is like cookie butter
It is surprisingly addictive,
Highly enjoyable,
Gone far too quickly.
Until you go buy more.
Jul 12, 2013
Jul 12, 2013 at 11:21 PM UTC
It is hard for me to find anything anymore Beautiful.
I get lost in his eyes, his voice, his arms.
I have lost my sight, as it turns out the world is only half as colorful without him.
I have lost my hearing, the words he spoke, ringing in my head drown make reality sound barbaric.
I have lost the ability to feel, surfaces other than that of skin disappear under my fingers, become numb.
Discarded.
All lost because of this want to feel.
Disregarded.
all other friends, left standing alone.
So that I don't seem so lonely, like the person I used to be.
I am lost
But it is clarity
In losing myself, I have gained the ability to see myself, my true self
And I am Beautiful.
Jun 27, 2013
Jun 27, 2013 at 11:28 AM UTC
I got to watch you dance with a fiery passion almost as rich and beautiful as your hair.
I got to look into your bright blue eyes, cold as the breeze that blows against our necks.
Our noses kissed, then our mouths and all was clear, all was well.
Silly Boy, you watched me falter in every other combination, smiling like a fool.
I leave without you, but there will be other times, other occasions to see my beautiful boy.
May 23, 2013
May 23, 2013 at 5:51 PM UTC
Lip Biting
Smiling
Nuzzling
Holding
Nose kissing
Stroking
Clutching...
To something that feels so real,
So alive that it is as if it lives and breathes
One single entity
Brought bubbling to the surface
By the power of one question:
Did you miss me?
May 23, 2013
May 23, 2013 at 5:31 PM UTC
I can't help but wonder
How he used to cry.
Did he wail at the top of his lungs?
Or did he silently weep?
I can't help but think
About what he called his parents.
Mother? Father? Jane and John?
Or some sickly sweet pet name?
These thoughts fill my mind
Along with his contagious laugh.
His smile, his eyes,
His dying breath, soft, broken.
I plead for them to leave
Go, get out while they still can.
Before I explode, as he did,
Into undefined pieces of flesh.
I never knew him,
The man he wouldn't grow up to be.
So why is it that he had to leave
And leave his image with me?
Be at peace,
That is all I want,
Just do it without my help.
Without the added pain.
Apr 16, 2013
Apr 16, 2013 at 11:26 AM UTC
