forelsket - Hello Poetry

Honestly... what am I doing here? Here, in this world, in this life? I’m tired of helping people tired of doing things tired of life I’m just so tired I’m tired of numbing the pain... I don’t want to talk Think Breathe See Hear Feel... Feeling overwhelmed Feeling o v e r w h e l m e d F e e l i n g o v e r w h e l m e d Feeling out of breath Feeling like giving up Feeling depressed Feeling like quitting Feeling like breaking down Feeling like the world is spinning so fast And it needs to slow down Feeling like I need more Out of life Out of this empty world Wishing I could erase my mistakes Wishing the biggest mistake wasn’t me Always wishing Always hoping Always feeling too much Always too little or too much Never just enough Never good enough

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Jan 2, 2020

Jan 2, 2020 at 5:41 PM UTC

2019 Anxieties

Honestly... what am I doing here? Here, in this world, in this life? I’m tired of helping people tired of doing things tired of life I’m just so tired I’m tired of numbing the pain... I don’t want to talk Think Breathe See Hear Feel... Feeling overwhelmed Feeling o v e r w h e l m e d F e e l i n g o v e r w h e l m e d Feeling out of breath Feeling like giving up Feeling depressed Feeling like quitting Feeling like breaking down Feeling like the world is spinning so fast And it needs to slow down Feeling like I need more Out of life Out of this empty world Wishing I could erase my mistakes Wishing the biggest mistake wasn’t me Always wishing Always hoping Always feeling too much Always too little or too much Never just enough Never good enough

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when things work out perfectly, it's always too good to be true, my destiny was to be unlucky & **** up everything i do, no matter how hard i try, i always do something wrong, over my shoulder people are watching, telling me i can't do anything at all so what the **** is the point of everything, if fate says i'm capable of nothing...

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Dec 15, 2018

Dec 15, 2018 at 3:19 AM UTC

nothing

when things work out perfectly, it's always too good to be true, my destiny was to be unlucky & **** up everything i do, no matter how hard i try, i always do something wrong, over my shoulder people are watching, telling me i can't do anything at all so what the **** is the point of everything, if fate says i'm capable of nothing...

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send me a lifeline the world is on fire i need to go back in time please believe me, this is dire let me erase the chaos & return to a world where everything is fine & things aren't in constant decline why do things keep falling apart it can't be good for the heart i wish i could press restart i'd give anything for a chance to reset this life

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Nov 18, 2018

Nov 18, 2018 at 5:06 AM UTC

anxiety / mania

send me a lifeline the world is on fire i need to go back in time please believe me, this is dire let me erase the chaos & return to a world where everything is fine & things aren't in constant decline why do things keep falling apart it can't be good for the heart i wish i could press restart i'd give anything for a chance to reset this life

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cold feet beneath the sheets i close my eyes & try to breathe... it's 3am & i'm dreaming of who i used to be before everything fell apart around me my life is a mess of regrets & reasons to stay in bed i still can't escape the voices inside my head (louder) they're getting louder now i try to scream, but there's no sound no one can save me from my anxiety so i try to sleep but the voices follow the nightmares become harder to swallow & i wake up feeling more hollow just to have it happen all over again tomorrow...

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Oct 18, 2018

Oct 18, 2018 at 3:14 AM UTC

perpetual anxiety

cold feet beneath the sheets i close my eyes & try to breathe... it's 3am & i'm dreaming of who i used to be before everything fell apart around me my life is a mess of regrets & reasons to stay in bed i still can't escape the voices inside my head (louder) they're getting louder now i try to scream, but there's no sound no one can save me from my anxiety so i try to sleep but the voices follow the nightmares become harder to swallow & i wake up feeling more hollow just to have it happen all over again tomorrow...

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i had a dream that i died out if the blue i wasn't alive, & they drew my chalk outline with pink chalk on the sidewalk where my body lied, delicately draped across grey pavement & through the cracked cement a single yellow dandelion appeared, in full bloom

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Apr 17, 2018

Apr 17, 2018 at 4:32 PM UTC

neon daydream

i had a dream that i died out if the blue i wasn't alive, & they drew my chalk outline with pink chalk on the sidewalk where my body lied, delicately draped across grey pavement & through the cracked cement a single yellow dandelion appeared, in full bloom

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lately i've felt: d e t a c h e d from our empty society i've been avoiding my own mortality is there anyone who can help me? i'm still not me, can't you see? i'm just trapped on the other side of this augmented reality, on the edge of insanity, i think i got lost trying to figure out who i'm supposed to be

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Apr 17, 2018

Apr 17, 2018 at 4:19 PM UTC

loss of identity

lately i've felt: d e t a c h e d from our empty society i've been avoiding my own mortality is there anyone who can help me? i'm still not me, can't you see? i'm just trapped on the other side of this augmented reality, on the edge of insanity, i think i got lost trying to figure out who i'm supposed to be

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i often find myself devoid of the moment... ((( this moment ))) momentary in its passing yet nearly fatal in its crashing when did it become so difficult to avoid an escape? an exit from reality from which we disconnect so easily is anything real? we're all searching for a new way to feel something else

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Apr 17, 2018

Apr 17, 2018 at 3:43 PM UTC

playing hide & seek

i often find myself devoid of the moment... ((( this moment ))) momentary in its passing yet nearly fatal in its crashing when did it become so difficult to avoid an escape? an exit from reality from which we disconnect so easily is anything real? we're all searching for a new way to feel something else

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trigger warning: i'm a wanderer though most of my travels occur inside the confines of my chaotic mind *i wouldn't recommend you follow because i will leave you behind* tell me have you ever gotten lost in your own mind? i cannot remember what i was trying to find perhaps i've lost it.

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Apr 5, 2018

Apr 5, 2018 at 3:25 PM UTC

absent mind

trigger warning: i'm a wanderer though most of my travels occur inside the confines of my chaotic mind *i wouldn't recommend you follow because i will leave you behind* tell me have you ever gotten lost in your own mind? i cannot remember what i was trying to find perhaps i've lost it.

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all alone in a crowded room claustrophobia consumes as i'm uncomfortably surrounded by strangers with friendly faces, ultimately unfamiliar yet seemingly displaced from this blur of insanity they pass as our reality where are we? i am searching for familiarity in an unfamiliar place trying to find a familiar face

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Apr 5, 2018

Apr 5, 2018 at 3:15 PM UTC

unfamiliar reality

all alone in a crowded room claustrophobia consumes as i'm uncomfortably surrounded by strangers with friendly faces, ultimately unfamiliar yet seemingly displaced from this blur of insanity they pass as our reality where are we? i am searching for familiarity in an unfamiliar place trying to find a familiar face

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salt on the streets like salt in the wounds of cracked, suburban sidewalks swelling with trampled memories of a forgotten yesterday imagine a world far away from the chaos of the everyday won’t you come outside & play? (everything is gonna be okay) the world is a snow globe, shake it up & let's watch it explode cut me up like a paper snowflake, did you feel the Earth shake?

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Mar 2, 2018

Mar 2, 2018 at 5:18 AM UTC

salty daydreams

salt on the streets like salt in the wounds of cracked, suburban sidewalks swelling with trampled memories of a forgotten yesterday imagine a world far away from the chaos of the everyday won’t you come outside & play? (everything is gonna be okay) the world is a snow globe, shake it up & let's watch it explode cut me up like a paper snowflake, did you feel the Earth shake?

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