She misheard me
"Best friend, not boyfriend"
I had to explain
But I don't want to explain
I want it to be true without corrections
Dec 18, 2025
Dec 18, 2025 at 12:37 AM UTC
Jealousy
I wonder if she talks to others
Jealousy
How does everyone like her so much
Jealousy
Do you only text back to be polite
Jealous
You're this friendly with everyone
Jealousy
Why do I always reach out first?
Jealousy
I bet you never feel alone
Dec 16, 2025
Dec 16, 2025 at 10:27 PM UTC
Perpetual loneliness
Likely the fault of comparison
Haunts
And haunts
And haunts me
I can't even remember what it was like
Before I felt so alone
Maybe it's the same feeling
And I mischaracterize it
Maybe I overthink my relationships
Far too much
In fact I must be
I FaceTime my "family" every night
I went to a sleepover this weekend
I saw a movie with friends as well
So why do I feel so isolated?
Why do I feel so unloved?
What does it feel like to be loved?
Even when I don't want to talk
I feel the need to text people
To fulfill my ideals of a "social" person
I don't form close bonds
Because I'm so focused on finding enough friends
Enough people to laugh with
So I feel like a success
I wonder if I am ill
This is starting to sound compulsive
Dec 2, 2025
Dec 2, 2025 at 9:00 PM UTC
The Neva Flows
A new wind blows
And soon our show will close
All my new friends
My new family
Blowing away
Ysabelle
Gio
Kate
Eloize
Keira
Off to college next fall
"Home, love, family"
Mama sung to us in the wings
She reached out her arms
And we cried
We bunched together
And held each other
When she finished she joined us
How beautiful is that?
Nov 23, 2025
Nov 23, 2025 at 10:47 PM UTC
Maybe
If I can't get closer to others
I will pull away
So my loneliness
Is of my own making
Nov 14, 2025
Nov 14, 2025 at 9:14 PM UTC
Am I man enough?
Am I man enough?
Am I man enough to fight them off
To scream, to run, to fight?
I'm not
So if men came for me
What would I do?
Nov 11, 2025
Nov 11, 2025 at 12:18 AM UTC
You said you think
That I should
[Gain] some weight
That **** cut deep!
So all I said was same
Nov 7, 2025
Nov 7, 2025 at 11:08 PM UTC
Twitch
Twitch
Twitch
All I do is twitch!
It takes over my life
I make faces I don’t understand
My eyes squirm in my head
Wink and scrunch up compulsively
I make the lids peel back
And fall slowly
As my jaw shakes
And I know I look crazy
But I can't ******* stop
It's not in my control
Twitch
Twitch
Twitch
All I do is twitch!
It's becoming hard to function
Because all I can do
Is twitch
Nov 7, 2025
Nov 7, 2025 at 6:28 PM UTC
For I am made of anger
And you are made of poetry
Or is it the other way around?
Nov 6, 2025
Nov 6, 2025 at 8:12 PM UTC
I told your mom I'm coming
She said you'd be "so happy!" to see me
I smiled politely
And chose not to tell her
That you haven't texted me back in months
I don't think you're going to be "so happy"
When you see me sitting in the audience
As you take your first bows
Without me on stage next to you
But I'll be there anyway
Waiting
Like I have been for two years
Waiting
Endlessly for you to change your mind
I'll smile and wave
Hopefully get through an awkward "hi"
And go home
Knowing I will wait forever
Because love doesn't just die
Nov 6, 2025
Nov 6, 2025 at 8:00 PM UTC