fleurdeluna
A second site so I may write / of things just a bit too raw to / end up on the world wide web, / under my name of origin. / Here I shall remain "Fleur de Luna" {MoonFlower} / / Main body of work to / be enjoyed on HP: / Christi Michaels Moonflower / Please Visit ;)
i watch you
rockin' and noddin'
my heart swoons
rockin' and noddin'
that's all your body can do
blood inside your sleeves
puke and **** on the floor
my mama heart
my mama heart
your precious heart
this mama heart
can't take no more
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Christi Michaels.
MoonFlower Fluer de Luna
All Rights Reserved.
Feb 2, 2017
Feb 2, 2017 at 3:54 AM UTC
I've kept this pain away.
Held it at bay,
since the day
of Your
unwanted
touch.
Now You are old.
I take care,
as this is My loving
duty. Reversal of
roles.
Time has stilled
the tremors
of angst.
Turmoil and
discomfort.
Yet, when bothered,
Your harsh tones
enter My body
and heart,
unwanted.
Perturbation
with words,
accusations that
I was the
troubled one...
Grown Woman
that I am,
I find myself
11 years old
once again
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Feb 11, 2016
Feb 11, 2016 at 2:30 PM UTC
I have traveled this road.
I have traveled this road since first,
I came to be here.
This journey was my awakening
as to the new existence
I would step into.
Foreign to me, the illustrious homes.
Huge dripping willows,
old oaks, and poplars...
Perfectly kept grounds.
Checkerboard patterns left behind
in lush green grass...
This road is winding.
One needs to go slowly.
Families, children, animals,
all enjoy this path.
The wind blows at this highest point,
up above the glacial basin
that forms the river below.
Once all farmland.
before...
home of
Ojibwa,
Lakota
The Spring.
The Deep Spring of Healing.
Ancient, pouring forth
from the center of the Earth.
This winding
windy road,
brought me to a place of solitude...
an open space.
Land of endless possibilities.
I have traveled this road.
I have traveled this road
since first
I came to be here.
This road was my awakening as to the
new existence I would step into.
Perfectly kept grounds.
Checkerboard patterns left behind
in lush green grass.
The wind blows at this highest Point,
up above the Glacial Basin,
that forms the river below
Once all farmland.
Before...
Home of
Ojibwe,
Lakota.
The Spring.
The Deep Spring of Healing.
Ancient, pouring forth from the center of the earth.
This spring, that has quenched my families thirst.
This spring, that brought my family here 14 years ago
This road
brought me to a place of solitude...
An open space.
A land of dreams.
And yet..I wonder,
what dreams
will this land hold for Me?
Dec 8, 2015
Dec 8, 2015 at 9:31 AM UTC
My Baby just called.
Bummed that the
Plasma Bank turned her away.
Veins too damaged for a Give.
Her blood no longer worth $40.
♢
The Silence
The Long
The Empty
The Long
Moments that tell me she
doesn't have bus fair, because
she lost her job last week.
I paid Her rent. A safe room in
a good house that helps me
sleep at Night knowing she is
warm in this deep of Winter.
♢
Imbued with emotions,
I quiet...
My Center
My Heart
My Mama Pain
She tells me she was
near Home last night.
Wanted to see the Kitties.
Lay in her Bed.
That's all Mom, that's all...
♢
The locks have been changed.
She does not have a key.
Finally found a ride home
in the middle of the night as
I drank six hours of sleep.
♢
Heart of My *****
My Spirit.
Taken from Us
Taken from Me.
Taken from Herself.
♢
My Hurt
My Anger
My Disbelief
That something
stronger than Love
dictates her Desires.
She is only 19.
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~Christi Michaels~MoonFlower
~Fluer de Luna~
Dec 4, 2015
Dec 4, 2015 at 10:25 AM UTC
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I hold my breath when
you come to me
Or call me on the phone
Your non~questions rarely being
How are you Mom
But that you need money
You say it is for good things
Like food and clothes
Maybe it will be after...
When you begin to heal
I try and protect my fragile heart
Cause I don't know when
the war will break out that
will tear us again
Carefully packed bags
now ripped and strewn
across the foor
knick knacks fallen
with the slam of the door
On the phone for a moment
longer than you approved.
Punishment of your spite,
ugly names that came at me
like pellets and angry wasps,
while the woman
on the other line
told me it would all be OK
Assured me
over and over
A three minute call
that ended too soon.
Too long for You to wait.
Longer than the Morning
was patient, while you slept
as I lovingly packed your food.
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Nov 15, 2015
Nov 15, 2015 at 5:32 PM UTC
I aspired towards being
thoughtful
Since I was a little girl
Watching the other kids~
Helping out in our family's world
I worked towards being
thoughtful
as a young teen
Volunteering my time
Making sure I was never mean
I strived towards being
thoughtful
becoming a young woman
Being there for all my friends
Careful of others feelings
I enjoyed being
thoughtful
When I became a mom
Letting them know how
much they are loved
Making sure my children
grew strong
I thought that being
thoughtful
was a trait I longed to be
yet have managed
thoughtlessly
to push those I love away
from me
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Aug 15, 2015
Aug 15, 2015 at 2:10 AM UTC
pressed securely between
your bodies
enveloped in warmth and
luscious kindness
I was a Goddess of Love
adored within two brothers arms
pure joy, finding comfort and ease
luxuriating in sensual delight.
I still hear
Our laughter
Our breaths,
Our sighs
laying in the warmth of day...
marveling at the colors of
sunset on Our skin
waking to mornings' stillness
moving gently out of slumber
rolling together as one
three playful puppies
falling into another tumble
gentle tenderness and
sensual delight
~MoonFlower~Fluer de Luna~
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Jun 9, 2015
Jun 9, 2015 at 7:02 AM UTC
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1. Take care of your teeth and gums
Brush & floss, everyday (Seriously)
Keep your teeth, if at all possible.
They are your very own precious Ivory.
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2. a. Eat well. Do not deny your body
nourishment. Gals, you will want a nice
set of ***** Trust me...eat.
b, Try to not put on too much extra weight.
(no judgement here) Just that it is very
hard on your body. Ridiculously
difficult to lose when you're older.
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3. Love the skin you live within. Try not to
bake your bareness too long in the sun,
or burn your precious epidermis.
Cleanse, exfoliate. Most of all, drink plenty of water and moisturize, moisturize, moisturize
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4. Hang on to all of your bones.
You will miss them when they are gone
Take care of your hands, neck, hips and knees.
Once your joints wear out, it's a total ******
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5. Keep movin' and groovin'.
If you stay still too long, you will get stuck
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6. Find the humor in everything. It is there!
All of life's lessons placed before you.
When all else fails, you can laugh about it.
(Trust Me. Your going to need this one)
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~Christi Michaels~May 2015~
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May 31, 2015
May 31, 2015 at 4:38 AM UTC
Go ahead...
taunt Me
I no longer matter in the
doings of Your day to day
Go ahead
distance Me
seperated by hurts
which seep into Our tomorrow
Go ahead
keep moving
I can no longer catch up to
Your love so far away
Go ahead
painful, this place
of isolation and dispare
In hopes that you might care
Go ahead
As I waited
You chose a different way
A path not ment for us to share
Go ahead
I need to fathom
This loneliness that
I can no longer bear
Go ahead
without Me
I am no longer safe
In the Company of Your Heart
~MoonFlower~Fluer de Luna~
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May 29, 2015
May 29, 2015 at 12:40 AM UTC
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**It Hurts believing your words
then finding out it is all a Lie
It Hurts knowing a person I love
can become a person
I would Despise
It Hurts being told you are Clean
then findin' out your *****
It Hurts that you feel Entitled
yet at the same time
feel Unworthy
It Hurts knowing you could Die
be brought Back and Die
Be brought Back and Die
It Hurts wondering
every Moment
of every Day and Night
If you are still Alive**
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~MoonFlower~Fluer de Luna~April 2015
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May 7, 2015
May 7, 2015 at 9:35 AM UTC