The sun on a winter’s day,
The smell of salt-water at the beach,
The despair of needing someone to stay,
Knowing that they were only going to leave.
Bags packed for a long trip,
Kisses on cheeks and well intentioned promises,
The inability to prevent tear-drips,
The clouds forewarning and ominous.
The searing beauty of pure laughter,
The grin given before self-sacrifice,
The sun setting and the room growing darker,
The words hidden inside people’s eyes.
Flowers pressed between letter pages,
Uncomforting words that all meant well,
The sudden sobs and sudden rages,
Stories they’d never be able to tell.
May 10, 2016
May 10, 2016 at 4:39 AM UTC
There are feelings impossible to describe.
The feelings you get witnessing something so simply beautiful,
The bat of an eyelash, the blink of an eye,
The feeling when you know everything is ephemeral,
When you know one day,
When you open your eyes,
You'll be in a different place,
A different reality.
No more real or unreal than this one,
But perhaps more unseen.
A place where the only logical thing to do,
Even when you can't seem to find your wings,
Is fly.
May 10, 2016
May 10, 2016 at 4:17 AM UTC
When I tell people about the war in my head.
Everybody tries to tell me,
"Darling, we'll get through this together",
How the **** do you tell someone,
That these are not their demons to fight?
May 10, 2016
May 10, 2016 at 4:07 AM UTC
My glass slipper broke
As I ran away from life
I just might break too.
Apr 23, 2016
Apr 23, 2016 at 2:50 PM UTC
Everything I do is bittersweet
I have too many secrets that I just can't keep
I'm wide awake as I try to sleep
I can't find the lyrics to match this beat
I'll starve myself simply so I can eat
I'll die in the cold to avoid the heat
I hate lots of people who I'll never meet
All this love is just killing me
I wish I could never breathe
So bittersweet
Dec 2, 2015
Dec 2, 2015 at 8:48 AM UTC
My chest tightens
My breathing slows
The world stares at me
And nobody knows
I am being watched
I am being judged
I try to escape
But my efforts are not enough
I cannot move
My limbs are stuck
I feel like I’m dying
I’d rather just give up
“It will pass”
I remind myself
But for now
I can feel nothing else
And it is crippling me
Nov 18, 2015
Nov 18, 2015 at 6:42 AM UTC
I want to be the reason you can't breathe
I want to be the reason you can't sleep
I want to be the person you wish for each night
I want to be the one who makes your heart take flight
I want to be the reason you're still here
I want to be the reason you live in fear
I want to be the one your heart tries not to miss
I want to be the one you're in love with
Oct 23, 2015
Oct 23, 2015 at 11:42 AM UTC
Let’s stop surviving
And just decide that we’ll try
To live forever
Oct 5, 2015
Oct 5, 2015 at 8:52 AM UTC
Loving you was both ineffable and unendurable
I felt a hiraeth for your heart
As you had already set mine aquiver
Your voice sounded so mellifluous and sonorous
That it was almost nefarious
The epoch of while I looked at you
I knew this wasn’t limerence
And every day I prayed for serendipity
You were ethereal
So much so that it seemed almost illicit
You smelt of petrichor
Maybe it was just my glasses
That made you look iridescent
And made you look like you were luminescent
I didn’t need to rub my eyes to sense phosphines
When you were near me
Because although the time I got to spend with you was ephemeral
It sent me into oblivion
Because I was convinced this was yuanfen
It kind of made me feel like defenestrating you
You made me go through metanoia
The thought of you was eunoia
I guess what I’m trying to say is
I’m ******* in love with you
Sep 23, 2015
Sep 23, 2015 at 3:16 PM UTC
The colors all internalized in me
Are killing me inside
The red of fire in my veins
Keeping me alive
The blue of cold inside my heart
Chilling every bone
The black hidden deep in my chest
The color of my merciless soul
The yellow-brown of my bile
That burns and stings my flesh
But none of these painful colors
Have been able to **** me yet
Sep 16, 2015
Sep 16, 2015 at 12:43 PM UTC