No!
what?
No!
I say again,
No!
You will not catch me,
You will not stop me,
You won't control me.
**** the Blue Man!
I own this fight,
I own this night,
I own my rights.
Never again will He slay me!
Though I am tired now,
In screaming pain out loud,
I will go home now.
For I will take my stand!
Gone is your meek gain,
Now you get dark pain,
Your blue hair erased.
And fight until I'm free!
I rule the fight,
King of the night,
This is my right.
Even though it burns my hands!
I'm so sick and tired now,
Of hurting behind shrouds,
Can we go home now?
My sword will slay him swiftly!
Dec 18, 2019
Dec 18, 2019 at 1:56 AM UTC
Here I've been singing
Songs for my bleeding soul
Can't you feel my morality leaving?
And now I'm struggling
On heartstrings I'm dangling
And emotionally muddling
There I was, running
My gold armor scuffing
Soon I'll be trusting (forgive)
Soon I will rust
My soul will join the dust
And maybe that's enough
Dec 18, 2019
Dec 18, 2019 at 1:52 AM UTC
Oh, the things I've done in the dark of day
What's happened is expensive
But I'll never pay
At least not with money
This will cost me one whole soul
Mine
Dec 18, 2019
Dec 18, 2019 at 1:49 AM UTC
Tonight
It comes down
The rain
The steel crisp blue rain
Puddles block my journey
The ground now laced in murky mud
One slip
And then that's it
Tonight
Pain comes down
DIsdain
Self induced rage pain
Lays me on life's gurney
To the hospital of broken souls
Mine's shattered
And that's it
Tonight
He comes down
The Blue Haired Monster
To revive pain for longer
I don't think I can keep swimming
Away
That's it
Tonight
Somebody loves me
The rain
The disdain
The Blue Monster's pain
They're all gone
No they're not
They'll always be there
But someday, they'll be smaller
And that's all she wrote
Dec 18, 2019
Dec 18, 2019 at 1:47 AM UTC
What do I tell
About the blue deep inside me
Deep
Inside
Me
Outside
I smile
But inside
I'm indigo
But few know
Few can know
I can't take their pitchforks
I can't be ostracized
At least not tonight
I can't tell you
You'll find me a fool
I can't tell them
They won't comprehend
I can't tell them
He'll abandon my sins
I can't tell her
She'll see me and swerve
So...
...Who do I tell?...
Dec 18, 2019
Dec 18, 2019 at 1:40 AM UTC
You know what?
I want to dance!
Down the street without music
I know the song
It's memorized
Embossed on my brain
So you can have your Oldsmobile radio
But I WILL dance down the street
Deal with it
You know what?
I want to sing!
In the hills like Maria
A song all my own
And the hills and breeze will harmonize
And the stream will dance
So you can keep your televised singing reality
But I WILL sing in the hills
Deal with it
You know what?
I want to run!
Nowhere in particular
Just away
And that's perfectly OK
I need air in my lungs
So you can keep your treadmills
But I WILL run nowhere in particular
Deal with it
You know what?
I'm going to shout!
From the highest mountaintop
The world will hear my deepest cry
And with happy tears I'll finally cry
So you can live your life
But I WILL shout for mine
Deal with it
Dec 18, 2019
Dec 18, 2019 at 1:31 AM UTC
How can I not hate you all
You all live normal
Happy lives
I'm a victim
Of a monster's lies
A monster with blue hair
Led me to his lair
And in return
Desecrated my tavern
I thought I was free
But that monster he...
He...
He
Stole
Me
And took my liberty
I was free
Darkened yet happy
Now I am taint
Brittle dry paint
And you have the gall to be happy
But it's not your fault
You don't know a monster stole me
And you never will
I don't hate you
I envy you all
Dec 18, 2019
Dec 18, 2019 at 1:25 AM UTC
If you take my sorry
I'll take the fall
I'll make the call
And choke on my blood
If you take my pleading
It's hit the wall
I'll lock the stall
And choke on my love
Please, ignore my stalling
I was so wrong
I was so wrong
Forget my memory
Forgive me
Never
I hurt your soul
And you'll never know
Sorry
Sorry is not enough
I was torn by lust
But now I must
Apologize
It wasn't me
Not by will
Please don't choke on me
Apr 15, 2019
Apr 15, 2019 at 5:03 PM UTC
Crushed
The only way I feel
Not one of love
Nor born of lust
Crushed
A shelter of my soul
A sliver of my pain
Splinter my reign
All hail the fool
The ***** little fool
Crushed
Crushed
Crushed
So crushed
So many pieces
I can't be resolved
Crushed
Destroyer
Breaker of the union
Despoiler of the sacred vow
You filthy animal
You ***** cow
Crushed
I'm divided
Crushed
I'm decided
Crushed
By lust
But not mine
Your shadow will forever shroud my soul
I put walls up
But down they go
Beat down by the flood
Born of heated hate
A stampede of regret
A new reprobate
So say "hi"
Say hi to your crimes
To to speak through your cries
Nobody hears at night
Because then you must lie
I'm fine
But why
why
why
why
why
Why did you crush my soul
Beyond the spirit
Beyond my bone
Apr 15, 2019
Apr 15, 2019 at 4:56 PM UTC
I did this
I let the monster in
I let the demons win
I am pain
Void of gain
Leave me
Hate me
Loathe me
****** me
light
If I deserve life
Then Monster wouldn't have touched me
Monster would have let me be
light it
But instead
I am dead
Monster is merciful master of misery
How lucky
light it up
LIGHT!
IT!
UP!
LIGHT IT UP!
LIGHT IT UP!
LIGHT IT UP!
FLASH
what?
what's that?
A ship in the night?
Did it hear my wet cry?
It sails back
Back to the sunrise
Back to me
Don't ****** my pain
Don't ****** my misery
Let it be
Let it be
Let them be
Let them see
I need
A break
To just be
I didn't do this
All monsters come in
And sometimes
They will win
But only the battles
Never the wars
YOU own this ship
This voyage is YOURS
If I'm to survive
I'll stay in MY ship
I won't drown again
On this night, I live
Apr 15, 2019
Apr 15, 2019 at 4:51 PM UTC