I am a magnet for misery, among self hate and reckless stupidity. With no one to love or be loved by. Pain and sorrow buried within me. Disguised as something I am not and will never be. It hurts to be human, so I’ll swallow your pills and absorb your words as my mind continues to fall apart. No one can hear my silent screams echoing into the distance, as the walls tumble down around me. Pounding on the glass that never breaks, falling but never hitting a ground surface, I am stuck in my head. The pain is too deep, always on the edge to resurface. Hurting is part of being human. Some will rise above it, and others devoured by their depression.
Oct 17, 2017
Oct 17, 2017 at 2:48 AM UTC
**I don't see you struggling.
I'm watching you conquer.
I don't see your weakness, I feel your strength.
Don't let them judge you, make them respect you.
Don't let yourself get down, push yourself higher.
Your children are your cubs so protect them like a lioness,
**** what people say, because you're blowing us all away.**
Jan 17, 2016
Jan 17, 2016 at 11:21 PM UTC
You can fake your angelic perfection, but id rather fight my demons. Where i stand i am stronger, but feel free to kneel.
This world has gone to hell and dragging me along. You want me to light this fire, but ill be damed if i go down. Dont try to shake what youre not worthy to break. Drown me in your flames, and bury me in these ashes, but i can hold my ground. Either way you lose, and i will be higher than you.
Aug 14, 2015
Aug 14, 2015 at 4:37 AM UTC
Hiding in your bedroom praying they wont find you. feeling like a freak but the pain feels too good holding out on hope. working your way to the bottom. all of what is left may as well be gone.
if i could climb my way to heaven without being guilty i would look to the father and ask how it should be. but when i open my eyes this hell it arrives. crying in the corner talking to the shadows asking them to save you praying god will **** you. nothing is there. you're all but forgotten your body is dead and your mind is numb. decisions are stupid but you're not the only one. if you breathe one more day that's another they hate. A crime they create becomes one we commit. you're already free while another tries to escape.
May 27, 2015
May 27, 2015 at 3:15 AM UTC
Your subtle hints, and grieving eyes distract me from my priorities, your desperate jokes, and hurting heart, how I wish I could touch you. Breath against your skin. I wish only to hold you, and make you smile again. You fear death, while I fear life. Your heart seems hollow, and mine is frail. I'd promise to revive you, If you make this real.
Aug 22, 2014
Aug 22, 2014 at 5:29 AM UTC
Dear Daughter,
You were inside me.
I felt you kick.
I felt your heart beat.
I sang to you.
You became my only friend.
You supported me, kept me from hurting myself.
You were the only one I could trust to love me.
You came from my body.
I see your smile.
I hear your heartbeat.
I sing to you.
Your needs are all I concern myself with.
I care for you.
I hold you while you cry.
I kiss you, and cuddle you.
I will never let you hurt the way I have.
I will always love you, and never judge you.
You can trust me, because I can trust you.
You can love me, because I will always love you.
You can hate me, but it won't make a difference.
You are a part of me, because I felt you grow inside me.
You are my daughter, my world.
I will stay strong for you.
I will hold on to you.
Forever, you are my little girl.
Jun 3, 2014
Jun 3, 2014 at 3:20 AM UTC
I can disguise myself as love.
I will befriend you.
I most definitely will weaken you.
I will make you cry.
**I will break you, shattering your beating *****
*I can **** you over.*
I can force myself deeply within you.
I will darken your mind, and betray you.
I will destroy your soul, and torture you.
I will misguide you.
I can worsen you.
I am an infection.
I will cause you confliction.
I will control you, inflict you.
I am your depression.
I am the cause of your suffering.
I can make you want to die.
I will crush you, beating you down.
I can curse you, providing false hope.
*I am a ******* lie.*
I can make your life a living hell, make you miserable.
**I probably will **** you.**
Jun 3, 2014
Jun 3, 2014 at 2:50 AM UTC
When love becomes first,
Everything else becomes last.
When she becomes a priority,
she becomes the only one.
When you see her smile you see the world.
When cause her laugh,
you brighten her soul.
When you touch her heart,
You earn her trust.
When you realize you need her,
You find peace and perfection.
When everything else becomes first,
Love becomes last.
When she isn't the only one,
everything but her is a priority.
When you look at the world,
her smile fades.
When you cause her tears,
You crush her soul
When you betray her trust,
you break her heart.
When you deny that you want her,
You **** up love and direction.
Jan 5, 2014
Jan 5, 2014 at 5:32 PM UTC
There is nothing in this cold sadistic world to hold my ground.
Each whim of fate becomes as thin as thread,
as empty as hope.
What is hope anymore?
Every indentation of a lost cause.
What is there left to believe in,
When you are unsure of what you can achieve to believe?
As frail as a snowflake,
Our world slowly shall perish.
Nov 8, 2013
Nov 8, 2013 at 1:18 AM UTC
I want to die.
I want the feeling of the razor blades
across my skin,
and the essence of fresh blood in the air.
That is what truly makes me happy.
The only thing in this world
I can depend on is that razor.
Aug 17, 2013
Aug 17, 2013 at 8:43 PM UTC