all the wine
went to my head
you fell back
and went to bed
Mar 22, 2020
Mar 22, 2020 at 10:20 PM UTC
I refuse to acknowledge,
your vitality.
you do not deserve to exist,
in my reality.
Mar 22, 2020
Mar 22, 2020 at 10:15 PM UTC
when I talk to you, it feels like I'm talking to a shell of a person.
Mar 22, 2020
Mar 22, 2020 at 10:13 PM UTC
I scream until
my throat hurts
until the shrill noise
scratches my esophagus
I scream until
the pain numbs a bit
I scream until
I cry
tears streaming down my face
Mar 22, 2020
Mar 22, 2020 at 10:11 PM UTC
im looking for
a shift in emotion
people can sometimes
provide this motion
Mar 22, 2020
Mar 22, 2020 at 10:07 PM UTC
the light flickers,
everything in the room is illuminated,
only momentarily.
I wish I could see where I am,
it is all so unfamiliar.
the light's mischief is unsettling.
how dare it taunt me,
with the promise of sight,
when there is no such fulfillment.
Mar 22, 2020
Mar 22, 2020 at 9:53 PM UTC
although I know I care too much...
I can't help that I stare too much,
now you are here,
and as I look into blue,
I can truly only see you,
and the color of your eyes.
Mar 22, 2020
Mar 22, 2020 at 9:22 PM UTC
everything you had said was so honest and sweet... but what I really wanted to hear was the thoughts you kept inside.
Mar 22, 2020
Mar 22, 2020 at 9:10 PM UTC
why is it so much easier to focus on someone else in the moment?
why is it so straining reverting back to solitude?
why is it so much more desirable to be in control of someone else's body, than your own?
Mar 22, 2020
Mar 22, 2020 at 8:59 PM UTC