Faint memories of you from years ago
Not the best, full of anger and hate
Two people who were supposed to love each other
Unconditionally, always and forever
At each other’s necks, murderous.
He wouldn’t fall for it, her controlling nature.
Three children together, part of a broken home
Never knew the love of a real family
Stuck with the bitterness of a lonely mother
Without the presence of a father figure
She lost hope, dated only men she could control
Lied to the children, told them their father left
That he no longer cared for them,
Didn’t want to be in their life any more.
But he told them things would get better
That he’d try to be there
Making money was hard
Paying a greedy person ever harder.
But it’s I who sees the family falling apart
Mother is getting married to a man she can control
Letting him control and taunt us
Denying us what we need, greedy, spoiling herself
Home is where the heart is but her heart isn’t here
Jun 6, 2012
Jun 6, 2012 at 1:03 AM UTC
The way it felt to kiss you as you said goodbye,
Warmth upon my lips, passionate, loving.
Your arms around me, protecting me from the world.
Hours spent talking to each other constantly.
Now it's gone, and it's all my fault.
Now I can't talk to you, or hope to feel your warmth
I never meant for it to go this far,
To end so quickly, just one blink and it's gone.
I'm just a monster hidden behind makeup.
A selfish soul in fake skin.
Pain has never felt more deserved.
Jan 22, 2012
Jan 22, 2012 at 1:16 AM UTC
I know I'll live with this mistake this time,
Can't blame you for hating me now.
Blame me for it all,
You were perfect for me,
For me you did everything,
This is less than deserved
I'm not going to ask you back,
Sorry that you ever chose me.
Jan 22, 2012
Jan 22, 2012 at 12:52 AM UTC
I don't want these thoughts,
But somehow they've crept upon me
As I lay sleeping in my bed.
These thoughts of me and you,
The pain that always comes with it
I feel drained of happiness,
The happiness I had with you.
I can't help but think that
Absence makes the heart grow fonder
But I can't think it true.
Without you here with me,
I know I'll always be in agony
can't help but still think it true
Dec 27, 2011
Dec 27, 2011 at 3:54 AM UTC
As I try to forget,
Simple words, simple phrases
I learn your lies,
Those things you call the truth
When I'm near tears,
And you're completely oblivious.
I can't stand to look,
To gaze upon your clueless eyes.
Are you willing?
To understand the mistakes.
The ones you made.
Are you ready to
Earn my forgiveness?
I don't think you'll understand.
For you're just being
Who you were born to be.
There is no right or wrong for you
Nov 25, 2011
Nov 25, 2011 at 6:47 PM UTC
As I ponder my regrets
You make the top of them
I wish I could take back
Every thing I ever said.
All the wrong, all the lies
I should have spoke the truth
When I could,
When you would've believed me
I could have apologized,
I could have made amends
But I ignored that I did wrong
I was always right,
No matter what I did.
Oh, but how I was wrong,
Wrong wrong wrong....
Nov 24, 2011
Nov 24, 2011 at 12:07 AM UTC
I'm tired of the lies,
The feelings you tend to hide.
The day to day stress
You always put me under.
I'm tired of the lies,
That empty look on your face.
That smile that you
Never show.
The guilt I hide,
Only meant to please.
Do you know how much
Damage you've inflicted?
The people who hate me
Seem to be the only ones
Able to see through this mask.
When you're upset,
Everyone tends to know.
You make no secret of it.
But when I am
The ones I hold close
Don't notice the difference
They believe my own lies.
Nov 23, 2011
Nov 23, 2011 at 6:11 PM UTC
I know that I'm awake
But I'm dreaming all the same.
My mind twisted in thoughts
It's one thing to say that
"Everything will be okay"
and sometimes those words
Just aren't enough to say.
Things can get so rough, I know.
I just need to be strong
To find something to hold onto
As hours slip away.
For me to regain happiness
Would take years to accomplish.
I struggle to describe in sentences,
Of how you make this easier for me
But I'm at a lost for words ...
Nov 16, 2011
Nov 16, 2011 at 11:33 AM UTC
Excitement - you just can't hide it,
Just one night, just one time.
It's all in the fun of the thrill.
And we just want to get off
No commitment - it's just one night,
No further contact, no relationship.
Both strangers, no name basis.
I want to get off, take it all off.
To live in the thrill - without consequence,
You don't have to disagree, I wont push.
We don't have to go all the way,
I just want a ******
I don't steal - but I'm greedy,
I'll take until nothing is left.
Nov 11, 2011
Nov 11, 2011 at 9:32 PM UTC
I saw you from across the room,
Hips swaying, pumping to the beat.
I watched from afar, as you bite your lip
Cause you know everyone is watching
-captivating...
I stare because I can't touch,
As your clothes drop to the lit floor.
You're exposing yourself,
Willingly, you have no shame.
-shameless...
This is what you're paid for,
A masters degree gone to waste,
As you become the candy
Of every man's eye.
-wasteful...
Nov 11, 2011
Nov 11, 2011 at 8:09 PM UTC