faellin-angel
Faellin Angel, lives in the sweltering swamps of Georgia.She's a gypsy of sorts & has lived in many places.She has over a 15 books available in e-book & paperback. She also reads, writes, edits, reviews, shares, publishes books & has tried her hand at creating book covers. As hard as it is to do just one of those jobs she also runs many Facebook pages & groups to help promote not only herself & her own books, but others as well. She's not all work & no play. As a Pagan she doesn't claim to be a real witch but she has never actually denied it either. She does claim though to being an actual Empath & does Tarot Readings in her spare time, what little she has of it. If you are interested in one, contact her on Facebook. www.facebook.com/FaellinAngel / Her writing genre is an unique twist of flavors such as Paranormal, YA, Horror, Fantasy, Romance, Poetry, Erotica, & a few children’s books. / www.smashwords.com/profile/view/worrellchristina
Moments too dark to see.
Moments to hard to breathe.
Forced to make a decision.
For an answer you are wishing.
Take this agony,
Set me free.
Need a moment to cry,
Can't watch him die.
No longer can I be so strong.
Please God, don't let me be wrong.
If I could, I'd take his pain.
His tears like rain.
Show me the way,
Show me he'll be okay.
Lost so much, so many.
My own tears, aplenty.
Images in my head, echoing.
But my tragedy is legend.
Birth to present,
Its never been pleasant.
I need to find the answers.
To show him his life matters.
Moments I am blind,
Answers I can't find.
Moments too hard to breathe,
Moments I wish his pain would leave.
Nov 12, 2014
Nov 12, 2014 at 5:07 PM UTC
Savor those moments too, they are so few.
Love a little more, unlock and open those doors.
Free yourself from the grim reality all around you.
Let those wings reach for the heavens above.
Untie those self imposing bonds you long ago wove.
Breathe in the serenity that you've called upon.
Shake free of the pain and just move on.
Give this moment it's glory.
Each one it's own memorable story.
Soul deep, you shall wish to stay, within its bliss.
Sweet, silent as the rain droplet bestows a rose a kiss.
Rainbow colored images flashing behind closed eyes.
Your perfect dream, wished upon stars, slowly dies.
Giving way to half formed, tempting new desires.
Peel away the long dead layers.
Emerge from your dark past.
Escape the curse, now broken, ages ago cast.
Choose to live in this moment.
Making this your fondest memory yet.
Nov 12, 2014
Nov 12, 2014 at 5:06 PM UTC
Stepping in, stepping back.
You play the fool.
Always you fall, you crack.
Dance the dance, you're just a tool.
Back and forth, same tune.
Never ending revolution.
To the pain we are not immune.
Never a solution.
Close your eyes, fake it.
Smile back, fake it.
Keep dancing, fake it.
Keep crawling, fake it.
Knowing it will always be the same.
Knowing it will never change.
Shake your head, what a shame.
Call it as you see it, strange.
Point the finger, toss the blame.
Keep it in, don't let them see.
Ever growing sense of pain.
Let me go, set me free.
Nov 12, 2014
Nov 12, 2014 at 5:03 PM UTC
Ignored, betrayed, forgotten...
Lonely, broken, rotten.
Her path of misery and pain,
Shadowed by eternal rain.
Reaching deep
Her hope to keep.
Process begun
By the maternal one...
What has burrowed to the core?
A disease one cannot ignore.
Take these chains off,
Standing, she's had enough.
Shed her tattered skin,
Cast aside all sin.
Wings purged of darkness,
Piercing through shoulders skin.
Break the curse,
Time to play the next verse.
Given a moment's immortal clarity,
Baring oneself, wearily.
Head thrown back,
Waiting for the next attack.
Shake loose the bonds,
Yesterday's tears now gone.
Face the dawn,
Burning rays withdrawn.
Fly little one,
With next breath be gone.
Nov 11, 2014
Nov 11, 2014 at 7:07 PM UTC
12/05/13
I close my eyes in hope,
I breathe just to cope.
Asking for help is not possible,
When it's not understandable.
I wake each morn with a weak desire,
Fall to pieces every twilight, no inner fire,
No reason to pray, I'm alone.
Not one being listening, none.
Inner strength is caving,
I'm not looking for a hero or saving.
Taking a deep breath,
I wait my turn for death.
Too many reasons to stay,
Pulled too many directions each day.
Slowly falling apart,
Remorse shadows the heart.
Brilliant pain envelopes me whole,
Shattering my weary soul.
Release me from my mortal bond, free me,
Let me rise with wings and flee.
Find what is so close, I'm blind,
So Close yet I cannot find.
Nov 11, 2014
Nov 11, 2014 at 7:03 PM UTC
Sometimes the sky just isn't as blue,
The sun isn't as bright for you.
Sometimes the days fade to night,
And most things just don't feel right.
You feel the wind dance all around you,
You dry the tears, none too few.
Will the moon to light your shadows,
But even rainbows
Fade away leaving us facing the moment.
Words are hollow, not what they meant.
Eyes see what the soul hid.
A weak smile the dark will forbid.
Shattered pieces cannot heal,
Your soul no longer real.
Whispers dancing nimbly within,
Tell a tale of foretold sin.
Weak willed and a strange destiny,
Finding peace, heavenly.
Nov 11, 2014
Nov 11, 2014 at 7:02 PM UTC
You look at me and think you know me.
You open dark eyes and still don't see.
Listen with ears too deaf to hear.
Feel with a heart that will no longer care.
Kiss with lips that no longer taste.
Stumble forward with eager haste.
Say goodbye little one, say goodbye.
Take a deep breath and no longer cry.
Whispers from the Shadowed One,
This living dance of death now done.
4-24-14
Nov 11, 2014
Nov 11, 2014 at 7:01 PM UTC
Ignored, betrayed, forgotten...
Lonely, broken, rotten.
Her path of misery and pain,
Shadowed by eternal rain.
Reaching deep
Her hope to keep.
Process begun
By the maternal one...
What has burrowed to the core?
A disease one cannot ignore.
Take these chains off,
Standing, she's had enough.
She'd her tattered skin,
Cast aside all sin.
Wings purged of darkness,
Piercing through shoulders skin.
Break the curse,
Time to play the next verse.
Given a moment's immortal clarity,
Baring oneself, wearily.
Head thrown back,
Waiting for the next attack.
Shake loose the bonds,
Yesterday's tears now gone.
Face the dawn,
Burning rays withdrawn.
Fly little one,
With next breath be gone.
Nov 11, 2014
Nov 11, 2014 at 6:56 PM UTC
Can't seem to leave this haunting past behind,
To anything good I've been blind.
Many moments of absolute denial and failure,
Countdown to how many I can endure.
Broken and shattered beyond repair,
In this moment I face my greatest fear.
Please forgive me,
No sudden clarity do I see.
Shall I walk alone in the darkness,
Waiting, craving deaths kiss...
Please forgive me,
I never meant to hurt you see.
I forgot that there was once someone,
Down this shadowed path I've run.
Please forgive me,
No salvation I foresee.
Demons of my chosen concocted poison,
Injected, inhaled, and now I've lost all reason.
Please forgive me,
At my breaking point, I'm ready.
One last moment of ease,
Now these inner demons I release.
Please forgive me,
I now fly free.
Cut out the pain, accept deaths dance,
Coming down from my inner chemical romance.
Please forgive me,
I long ago lost who I am meant to be.
I open my eyes and with new sight,
I see I finally lost the fight.
The ones I've left behind to carry my burden,
Now pick up the pieces left by what fate begun.
Nov 11, 2014
Nov 11, 2014 at 6:55 PM UTC
So many times I walked away.
I just couldn't stay.
I've left behind so many,
I've burned bridges aplenty.
I've walked a broken, lonely road,
With each mile my sorrows grow.
Once in a blue moon,
I promise this one I'm keeping.
I'm unlike any you've ever known,
My secrets I've finally shown.
Will you accept me, understand me,
Or will you turn and flee.
I cannot change me
I'm strangely different see.
Normal on the outside,
Shadowed despair on the inside.
My past molded this form, this spirit,
Designed with flaw by all I hear it.
Destiny dealt such a cruel hand,
With broken wings I still stand.
Pity not this shattered being,
For my time is fleeting.
Nov 11, 2014
Nov 11, 2014 at 6:54 PM UTC