she’s a friend
i met her at a coffee shop
where i planned to stop
and where my heart dropped
she’s a friend
she has a beautiful smile
lovely style and a great mind
her cheeks tastes like chamomile
she’s truly worthwile
she’s a friend
we started seeing each other more often
with her my aggressive mind softens
and my pain are forgotten
it always feels like autumn
i know i have fallen
she’s a friend
i can feel her warmth in my clothes
the one she wore while i was in control
i want to feel her close
i want to be wherever she goes
she has stolen my soul
it’s not something we chose
she’s a friend
you’ll love her
i don’t call her a friend
but she must remain one
or else you’ll hate her
Aug 20, 2020
Aug 20, 2020 at 11:07 AM UTC
there’s a girl and her sister
on the long way home
they were running from the dog in the manger
but the sun’s down so it’s time to stop the roam
dad chugs beer
mom’s on vilazodone
it takes time to knock
afraid they will get locked
the two thought this is the right moment
so they come in but their parents are strangling each other’s throat
the two hide in the attic
panic but have no choice but to play with the plastics
they lay exhausted
tired of crying and laughing for hours
first thing in mind is to be cautious
afraid of being tortured
but there’s no sound
so she said “let’s go down”
there’s no one
no dad
no mom
but there’s blood
and remarks
she falls to the ground
searching for a hand in the dark
there’s no one
no sound
no crowd
but there’s a gun
and her broken heart
Jan 25, 2020
Jan 25, 2020 at 9:56 AM UTC
i went out
explored the city
met some friends
the sky was pretty
my mouth shut
tried to keep myself busy
but the road ends
now i’m just all filthy
such a waste of time
with me
why did they lie
and agree
everybody is speaking to me
and shutting me out
at the same time
everybody is a reality
and a place to hangout
at the same line
it’s all heavy
too hard to carry
i tried
i really tried
to be everything you want
to be everything i taunt
to believe in my broken heart
but the door’s blocked
and my eyes closed
Oct 18, 2019
Oct 18, 2019 at 11:01 AM UTC
sweetness lasts for seconds
before disappearing into shadows
but what the hell last forever
it'd be gone with a laughter
she likes honey
a hand above her eyes when it's sunny
but everyone only wants her money
and her body
so she closed the curtain
drawing cartoons
she was so certain
of all her tattoos
it became a habit
a mask and a casque
so no one could see
her tears for the chocolate
that melted in her pocket
she couldn't help but *****
every time she heard a promise
but the past stops at the moment
she's stealing from the candy jar
she's eating the donut
she's touching her own scar
ypu said it was only the cigarettes
but she mouthed your lips
she listens to apocalypse
looking for your silhouette
you listen to her heartbeat
you said you're a part of her
you said you want her til death
she lost her breath
and whispered
"you're so sweet"
Aug 12, 2019
Aug 12, 2019 at 9:11 AM UTC
ease in my ears
fears in my head
i’m with my beers
but i feel you instead
i never wanted to
we didn’t intend to
for every **** we went through
hell yeah we’re true
i’m blessed and glad
we are nowhere near bad
but i can’t stop thinking about the unjust
something we always discuss
we’d be in different galaxies
away from each other
we could only meet through galleries
where we both suffer
it’s not up to us
when people are filled with disgust
no matter how much we trust
they will leave us in the dust
i can’t erase me without erasing you
so how can we be free without turning blue
i just want you
why to them we can’t love too
i just love you
none can undo
Aug 1, 2019
Aug 1, 2019 at 1:43 PM UTC
you came to my life
with someone in your mind
but i could see pain in your eyes
so i told you to never leave yourself behind
i wanted to be your friend
but i wished the night would never end
i swear i wanted to be your friend
but i thought about holding your heart instead
i don’t want to just be your friend
and i’m so scared
oh how i wish it wasn’t february
when your heart is still wary
how i wish i could go back to september
so i don’t have to surrender
it would be better if i’d just get my heart broken
if i were the only one whose soul is taken
but it’s not sole
you said i make you whole
so don’t say sorry
it’s not our fault
and don’t worry
i can be anything you want
Jun 30, 2019
Jun 30, 2019 at 10:07 AM UTC
the end of the day comes
eventually
now i can see the signs
undoubtedly
the only time i can be naked
slightly aided
but will never be recovered
and never be discovered
after a long fight
entirely wrong life
now i'm staying the night
under the faded light
what if she leaves
what if we fall apart
what if i make things worse
what if the truth doesn't exist
what if i'll end up ruin everything
what if there's no place for me in the world
pouring my body with regret
pain that i could never forget
burning a cigarette
wishing i could reset
every night
this is my only right
when i heal
and when i ****
Jun 7, 2019
Jun 7, 2019 at 2:52 PM UTC
rain
damping everything
pain
i can hardly feel a thing
the pressure
push me to be sure
nothing in me is pure
and you don't have any cure
i don't want to live anymore
i don't want to fail like before
i don't want to be called *****
and thrown to the floor
i did the test
i've tried my best
more than i could expressed
i just want to sleep
dive into the deep
forgetting all the things i can't keep
all i have to do is leap
i just want to die
i don't want to lie
so let me cry
let me fly
May 22, 2019
May 22, 2019 at 10:40 AM UTC
tears and laughter
he throws everything at her
dreams at the face of disaster
there’s no happily ever after
an ungrateful witch
a compliment she sends herself
a foolish *****
a thing he says to himself
you can’t hear her voice
she’s too deep in the void
it’s never her choice
it’s always up to his joys
she falls
she leaves cuts
people think she’s nuts
well she wants to be happy once
he smiles
he laughes
he travels million miles
he doesn’t have to face trials
she says “i’m done”
“i’ll be gone”
“i’ll leave in dawn”
he runs
Apr 23, 2019
Apr 23, 2019 at 6:55 AM UTC
i remember when we first met
there were butterflies in my stomach
you were sweet
i couldn’t taste anything else
we danced
and i couldn’t help but amazed
you were nothing like a threat
so i ****** it up and took the bullet
i was finally aware
when you made me burn that cigarette
and poured me in liquors
putting all the complexity inside me
not that it was something i hate
but you revealed your real face
i believed it’ll pass
and you were not an ***
but i discovered the abyss
that lies within your kiss
you abandoned me here
alone and broken
with thoughts of perfections
that’s just merely thoughtless imaginations
there were only cigarette packs
and my heartbreak
i used to light one
and felt the freedom filled my lungs
now i light one
and only feel the burns in my heart
Mar 15, 2019
Mar 15, 2019 at 12:59 PM UTC