Have you realized
How I always stop
What im doing
Just to talk to you?
I'd always free my time
Just to spend it with you
Have you ever felt
Like you're the last person
I want to talk to?
Like I have felt before
Sometimes because of you
Have you ever waited
For something that
Will never come but
You still wait anyway
Even if it takes days
years even
Have you felt
This insanity im feeling
Thinking about you
Every single day
When I only cross your mind
Some days.
Have you ever thought
About what im feeling
All this time?
Have you ever questioned love?
If this is what it's really like
Because im definitely starting to.
May 1, 2018
May 1, 2018 at 1:10 AM UTC
Im far from home
It's been months
Since I've been alone
Since I've been
On my own
Im at this place
Supposedly a new start
Yet couldn't figure it out
How to move forward
I've lost control
Long ago
I have been stuck here
For so long
I wasnt even trying
At all
Im far from home
A new place to start
Yet I've brought with me
The feeling
Where you left me
Im still at this place
All along
Apr 27, 2018
Apr 27, 2018 at 8:07 AM UTC
There's no one else
to blame but me.
There's no one else
to have but me.
There's no one else
to be but me.
Therefore, I only
live for me.
Apr 19, 2018
Apr 19, 2018 at 8:07 AM UTC
I have cried
So many times,
Hidden and silent.
I have stared
At nothingness,
Felt my heart breaking.
I have waited
For so many calls
From you that never came.
I have believed
Everything that you said
I guess some weren't true.
I have been left
By you waiting for
The things you said you'd do
I broke my heart again,
Because I thought, finally,
I'll stop being used by you
Apr 11, 2018
Apr 11, 2018 at 12:22 AM UTC
Long hallways, white walls,
Antiseptic smell, ambiance so dull.
Busy people, stoic faces,
Same procedures, but im in a different phase.
Clock's ticking so loudly,
I wonder if it's finally counting down on how much time left that I'll live.
Been here far too many times,
Been months since my lungs failed.
Who knew it'll be hard for me to breathe air?
Been here far too many times
Maybe next time, It'll be last
And I'm never coming back.
Apr 4, 2018
Apr 4, 2018 at 4:05 AM UTC
I hope you saw that there's nothing wrong with you.
I hope you realized how special you are.
I hope you didn't give up and kept pushing through.
I hope you felt that you are always good enough.
I know you're tired, sweet one.
I know you tried your best for everyone.
I know you tried to hold on but you can't do it alone anymore.
I know you smiled the happiest smile to convince yourself that is what you felt.
I know for months you've hid and now you're at a point you're thoroughly broken and can't be find.
But I hope one day, you'll come back. If ever not, I understand why.
Apr 2, 2018
Apr 2, 2018 at 1:03 AM UTC
I never felt more broken today than I ever did before.
I know I'm never going to be okay anymore.
Apr 2, 2018
Apr 2, 2018 at 12:46 AM UTC
One day,
Someone is going
To remember the
Good times that
We shared.
One day,
Someone is going
To talk about
The person
I am today.
One day,
when time ends
For me,
You're gonna
Miss me...
But Im not going
to be here,
It's too late,
I'll be dead.
Mar 1, 2018
Mar 1, 2018 at 2:53 AM UTC
How many times will my heart break,
because of the same person
Over and over again
Feb 27, 2018
Feb 27, 2018 at 9:04 AM UTC