everytime I think of you
my chest begins to hurt again
is it pain? is what i'm feeling so awful?
no, no, it's wonderful
and even if your smile is a little crooked, a little imperfect
it's still perfect
because that smile is for me
i want to tell you
how much i care
so why must i wait?
for the others who i cannot be with
never touching, never speaking
growing ever further away
despite the constant reassurance and the
'I Love You's
it isn't the same
because she smells like pine and popcorn butter
and they smell of nothing at all
distance grows and i do not like the feeling
i do not like growing apart from those i love
so why must I?
why
must
i?
Aug 4, 2022
Aug 4, 2022 at 11:48 PM UTC
i see her
everywhere that i look
the curve of her smile haunts me
as i stare into the mirror
to face a stranger
i do not know her anymore
nor do i believe that i ever have
it is a rift between two parts
a split between what used to be whole
she is no longer whole
she may never have been
and i still see her when i look back
into the mirror
she is always there
hiding within the mirror
Dec 20, 2021
Dec 20, 2021 at 12:32 AM UTC
i know i seem
like i am coping just fine
trekking through life as though
i do not see the destruction
that falls
around
me
you would be wrong
to assume
that i am okay
as i am barely keeping
my head above water
choking on words
that are never spoken
and forcing out
compliancy
and when you ask me
i smile
and reply with a nod
when the real trouble is
that the light
inside is
burning
out
Nov 16, 2021
Nov 16, 2021 at 9:55 AM UTC
as i sit and stare
at the clock, ticking on the wall
i wonder why the hands turn
the way that they do
and why we
have decided that a minute
is equal to sixty seconds
and sixty minutes
is an hour
in reality,
does time really exist?
or are we all just
hallucinating it
into existence?
Sep 16, 2021
Sep 16, 2021 at 1:59 PM UTC
do you know
who you are?
because i don't
recognize your face
anymore
did i ever really
know you?
or did i just fool myself
into thinking that i did?
Sep 15, 2021
Sep 15, 2021 at 11:15 AM UTC
looking into the mirror
i do not see myself standing there
instead, it is a warped,
twisted,
floating head
supported by shoulders that are not mine
and the rest is skin
just...there
no muscle, hardly anything keeping me together
barely a person
barely alive
barely anything at all
May 13, 2021
May 13, 2021 at 3:15 PM UTC
a small kiss,
maybe your fingers through my hair
i know it's a lot
but maybe
you like me, too?
it might be easier
if we just
stayed like this
a little longer.
Mar 24, 2021
Mar 24, 2021 at 10:44 AM UTC
i miss you.
i met someone
with your name this morning
it made me feel
some sort of way
i miss you.
and i began to wish that
i had gotten to know you
i miss you.
that i could've gotten to love you
hold you
and given you advice
just like a big sister should
i miss you.
Mar 6, 2021
Mar 6, 2021 at 9:56 PM UTC
whether it's real
or not
i don't think that's
any of
your business.
Feb 24, 2021
Feb 24, 2021 at 6:34 PM UTC