Im scarred with pens and knives
Deeply wounding my life
Before ending a dive
Counting thoughts one to five
A nice winter weather
With Wrists covered with scratch
Hiding with a sweater
Then a tear after a punch
Broken bones of lovely skins
A touch of silver ever since
Felt like fleeing under the sky
It felt like done after a sigh
Then a splat in a concrete ground
All scattered but not my mind
This is the mistake they all regret
That mistake... they didnt listen.
Nov 15, 2017
Nov 15, 2017 at 10:59 AM UTC
your smile
her laugh
your lips
her eyes
your hair
her clip
your arms
her hands
your glasses
her mirror
i'm looking at you
wondering so true
and i looked at her
you are watching her
i wont tell the truth
my lies is your pride
her smile is my death
her laugh is your love
stop looking at me
it is always her
a fool i've become
a prey i've always been
caught red handed
tears streamed down
ignorance is your key
sadness is my friend
Oct 15, 2017
Oct 15, 2017 at 8:38 AM UTC
Bring out the scarecrow now they play
Open dust in breeze of auburn hay
Wipe the pumpkin and call it jack
Go get the candies and the sack
Masks and capes in red of the night
Get rid of the rats dont get it right
Up in the roof are howling rags
Full of juices and chips in the bag
Watch slowly as the stars light up
Bring the joy in your falling smile
Stare at the moon till your tears drop
Dont worry honey , go on and cry
Watch the fall tree waves you goodbye
Look at the crows fly you goodnight
Look at the sky till you feel light
Dont forget this delightful sight
Everything's orange , red and green
Remember it all that you've seen
Days are all done and I am too
My last halloween, spent with you
Oct 15, 2017
Oct 15, 2017 at 8:25 AM UTC
i'm so sick of making people understand me.
Aug 13, 2017
Aug 13, 2017 at 8:41 AM UTC
i cant let him go
i love him now
but does he?
all those stares we've shared
skins that touched
the moments you came to me
and tell me everything
what does that mean?
assuming there is something more
it just breaks my heart
for i know it will never be true
all these confusions never ceased to complicate me
now i'm messed up
without any consent from my own mind
please please
just tell the words that will set me free
tell me you don't love me like i love you
or tell me other way around
just tell the truth
because i cant bear this pain
this anxiety you bring
all these confusions just kept tearing me apart
Aug 10, 2017
Aug 10, 2017 at 10:02 AM UTC
"mommy please don't forget me"
words that come out of her mouth
with her shaking voice as she held her hand
at the hospital bed,
with the doctor's breath
every words a stabbing knife
pain is all she felt,
a tear that becomes a memory
then all of a sudden a blank space.
day by day worrying she'll forget,
her mind becomes this unwanted ghost
erasing every happiness;
throwing those excitements,
forgetting the most precious memories
the child she bears;
the boy she loved
losing it every day
like a money to be spent it's penny
gone , gone , gone
waiting for it to come
she's saying goodbye to her
with her crying eyes
as she said those words
"who are you?"
Jul 29, 2017
Jul 29, 2017 at 9:21 AM UTC
feeling safe within your arms
it felt safe until your lips kissed mine
until your hands hold mine
a kiss that changed me
the kiss that makes me want more
made me want it night by night
till my eyes closed and
my body float
and till my heart got tired
of asking for you
and cry
and try
and goodbye
till it's gone
till i thought of it as a mistake
till i thought of my regrets
Apr 21, 2017
Apr 21, 2017 at 9:20 AM UTC
how did i ended up liking you
loving the way your glasses fell to your nose
the way you stare right back at me and smile
loving the way you sit next to me while my heart beats fast
what is this feeling that made all the butterflies fly
it made me feel like I'm on cloud nine
made everything gone
only flowers and the scent of roses
tell me the reason why
why did you make me feel this way?
you know how it hurts
that hoping is a painful lie
tell me the reason why
why did you let this happen to us?
that even smiling in front of you
makes me want to cry
tell me the reason why
why that every time I look at you...
every things go wild
and I ... stayed still looking at you...admiring every inch of you
Apr 15, 2017
Apr 15, 2017 at 10:24 AM UTC
I'm sorry if i chose to lie,
to tell such flattery words--
that denies every feeling.
I'm sorry if I'm too obvious--
that even the clouds know what I yearn,
that it never fills what was empty.
I'm sorry if I don't satisfy you
if I don't have what she had
if I'm not her to love
I'm sorry if I liked you
i just want to feel what there is to feel
to remember how my heart used to beat
I'm sorry... I'm sorry...
Mar 15, 2017
Mar 15, 2017 at 8:35 AM UTC
Let’s create an illusion of the stars
Where i can dream that I couldn’t wake up
I’m holding that cloud I once chase
Yet here my loneliness exist
lying between the ground I stand
Like a rose been picked
One day it’ll bloom
The other day it’ll wither
How nice I f I just stayed
It wouldn’t be this hard
Like cards being reshuffled
No one knew where to begin
Too many way to start again
You always lose in the end
Mar 5, 2017
Mar 5, 2017 at 10:07 AM UTC